Between my mind and my fears

I just want to flex everything about myself, and I just want to be expressed my feelings and emotions throughout the years, I am the kind of person who keeps everything just for myself, and I don't like to tell anybody what my problem is? Because sometimes there are a lot of people who patronize you but they don't have a concern for you, only to configure it out If you have secrets in life, that's why I chose to be alone than to have a lot of friends surrounded you but they don't give a good influence for you, or I think they harm you. I have a lot of fears in life, fears for everything fears that someone might give me the uncertain problems.

There are so many times I have struggled and what I want to follow between my mind and my fear, it is very difficult for me to decide, my mind says that you are capable to do so, but I have fear of doing it, and I just want to recognize it and think twice for it, I just hold my breath and doing inhale-exhale for how many times, after doing inhale-exhale I try myself to relax even if in a few minutes.

My mind says go for it and explore everything that you've wanted, but my fear continues to follow, fear that maybe I can't fulfill everything I've wanted, my closest friend told me that now I belong to the group that I wish before, and now my wish is granted but I hesitate now because I have fear what if I can't do it properly, what if I can't give for their expectations, I have my mind that I think I need to back out for this, but I hesitate to because I need this and I want this, so what should I do? Between my mind and my fear?

I'm the type of person who keeps my life private, but now I found this platform I change my mind, I just want to express my feelings or emotions on this platform, it can give me hope and give me courage for doing this, and I am thankful for that.

I think I just want to finish this article because it's almost midnight and my eyes become a zombie because I am so sleepy, see you next article God Bless everyone.

My 2nd article
April 21, 2022
Time published:11:18 pm
User Name: Lyk2💗