To the future me Dear self, I am writing this today, February 13, 2022 at 9:12 p.m. to remind you of how awesome you've become. You are hurting but you choose to continue. You are learning about everything that you can learn about and I'm so proud of you for not giving up given the circumstances you are facing. You recently lost your papa last September 24, 2021. You are still crying from time to time and I know how much you wanted to just leave everything behind and never…
COVID-19 journey As the year 2022 started, everyone is looking forward to a beautiful, healthy and prosperous life. I celebrated the new year with my mom, older brother, two younger brothers and my older sister. We prepared seafood for our media Noche and deserts. My mother made a prosperity bowl and threw money all over the house because it has been our family tradition even when my father is still alive. After that, we had the chance to eat, sing in Videoke and take…
Love month There are different types of people in the world. Each person is unique as well as fearfully and wonderfully made by God. Humans are created to long for intimacy, fellowship and the desire to love and be loved. It might be the most wonderful feeling in the world. Love cones in many forms. There are also different types of love as well as a love language. But where did love come from? Have you ever wondered why you fall for someone or how a person is able to do the…
What's Next? Have you ever thought about the things that you wanted to achieve in life? How about the steps you're going to take in order to have your dreams and goals in the grasp of your hand? Have you ever wondered what's next after all those things? These questions will help you to evaluate your life today. You might still be a student, a regular employee, a wife, a mother or any other profession but one thing's for sure, you will always have a goal to hit and a future…
unHappy **Disclaimer: Your unsolicited advice, opinion or anything that you want to say against this article is not needed. Learn how to respect the writer by just simply reading and nothing else. This article is written to unload and release some burden, so if you don't like to feel the burden or you can't keep the words you wanted to type after reading, you better not waste your time reading this.** My mind's a mess lately. It's as though I'm in a marathon where my only…
Emcee I've been through a lot of different events where most of the times I am the emcee. Be it a family gathering, church event and school programs. I am always chosen to do so since I have a command of the English language. I am also flexible wherein I can lead the whole program even without a script. But as they say, there is always a first in everything. My first this time is to be an emcee for a school event where all teachers, department heads and district…
Signs of adulting From being a baby to an old person, this is the cycle for people. If ever you go to a cemetery, you will see tombstones with different dates which determines the age of the person when he died. There are new born, old age, teenagers, and other different ages. It only shows that no one can actually tell when a person will be taken away. No one can tell so all of you must always be prepared everyday. Living it as if it's your last day to live. Life is a…
I almost died last night Nagising akong masaya kahapon. May mga nakakairitang pangyayari pero di ako apektado. Nag exercise pa nga ako ng 10 minutes. Maaga rin akong nakapagsulat ng devotionals ko for the day. Nagluto si mama ng lumpiang Shanghai. Takam na takam ako kasi akala ko Wednesday pa lang magluluto ma sya kaso di na sya nakagawa dahil pagod na sya. Nagluto sya, natakam ako kaya naubos ko yung naunang dalawang salang nya kahit mainit init pa. Tapos pinakain ko sina…
Making independent decisions We will not forever be babies who has to latch on to our mothers for milk. We will not forever be toddlers who will cry about what we want in order to get it. We will not forever be hormonal teenagers who take everything out by constantly trying everything that we are curious about. We will experience adulthood where we will have to face the reality of life. We will eventually have to move out of our comfort zone and live on our own. Our parents…
Academic break Due to the increasing number of people affected by flu and different COVID-19 variants, a call for academic break has been asked because most students, teaching and non-teaching personnel has flu. Many has been absent in online classes. There was a poll to check on the health status and it turned out that most teachers and students are sick. I also had an online class with only 10 students because most of them called in sick. I'm blessed not to have any…
Don't Don't expect someone you love to love you the same way you love them. It doesn't work that way. The only thing you can do is to truly love them. Whether they reciprocate it or not is beyond your control. Don't expect your friends to always be there for you. Real friends are treasures but you also have to accept the fact that you are not on their priority list. They will look for you when they need you but they won't be there when you need them most. Don't kill yourself…
A lot of thinking I do a lot of thinking and I hate it. It's the reason why I keep on writing. I have no one to share it with except for my phone and notebooks. It might also be one of the reasons why I like collecting notebooks. The words I can't say are either written in my notebook or typed on my phone. It's night time and yet my mind is fully awake. I browsed my timeline and saw a few pictures I posted about my father. I didn't even appreciate him enough. A few days ago,…
Malaysia After everything that happened I came to a point in life when all I wanted is financial stability, peace and comfortable life. Working from Monday to Friday, providing for the family and repeating the same cycle can indeed cause lack of interest, lack of motivation and just simply wanting to stop or runaway from everything. My older brother who supported me and my sister's studies resigned from his job and is now preparing for his flight to Malaysia. He will stay…
Young Adult I woke up feeling unwell. My head feels heavy and I just wanted to lie on my bed the whole day but obviously I can't do that. I need to eat, take a bath and attend the church service. I wasn't able to go to church physically because I'm feeling unwell so I just watched our Livestream in Facebook. After that, I worked on my laptop for a few things for tomorrow and I started watching videos on Facebook and searching for home design ideas and literally anything…
It's okay It's okay to cry if you feel like it. It's okay to feel sad about the bad things that happen around you. It's okay to be alone when you are hurting. It's okay to keep things to yourself for whatever reason. It's okay to feel weak when you are not strong. It's okay to take your day off without feeling guilty. It's okay to commit mistakes because you'll definitely learn from it. It's okay to feel sad about small things. It's okay to pause and think about a few…
POV One of the best things in life is to have someone who understands you especially when you can't even understand yourself. To know that you are never alone and you always have someone by your side no matter what happens. Having the assurance that you are love, no matter what you do, where you go and even if you commit mistakes, you are never alone because someone loves you. Someone always got your back. I'm experiencing LSS with Ariana Grande's song POV. I've always been…
Beyond blessed Out of all the things that I gave experienced for the 24 years of my existence, I therefore conclude that I am beyond blessed. God blessed me so I can bless others as well. When I was younger, when I hear the word blessings, the first thing that comes to my mind is money. You are blessed if you have lots of money and you are not blessed if you have no money. You are blessed if you live in a huge house in a subdivision, if you have a car, if you are studying in…
Day 3/365 Isn't it amazing how we were able to survive last year and still be alive and kicking today? Look how fast the days gone by. It just feels like yesterday when we were celebrating Christmas and New year with out families, and now we're back to how our lives usually go on a daily basis. Back to school, back to work and back to the days of striving for better days. Do you have new year's resolution? How about goals? Be it personal, physical, spiritual, intellectual,…
Welcome 2022! Happy New Year! It's the first time we celebrated New Year without papa and there's still more firsts to come. I'm more than blessed for the year of 2021. This is a quick recap of how my 2021 went. After being unemployed for 10 months, I finally got hired by January 25, 2021 (my niece's birthday). I was up for promotion last December 2021 but I resigned immediately since I got hired in public school. I got hired in public school last October 15, 2021, a day…
Note to self I'm the type of person to set rules to myself but ends up breaking it because I care about the person much more than what I feel about a certain situation or whatever it is that, that person has done. I will put a boundary and do the opposite which is honestly frustrating most of the times. So I'm making this "Note to self so I won't forget." **Do not bother others.** I always make sure that I have no unread messages in messenger because I know the feeling of…
The pain of losing Today is Sunday and we don't have physical or online service in our church but we have an online service with our mentor church. While I was attending the online service I was folding clothes as it is the day 2 of folding clothes. It picked up since we are a huge family. As I think about it now, I miss folding the clothes of my papa. He's now in heaven and it's his first Christmas there and our first Christmas without him. There is indeed a first in…
Unang Paskong Wala Ka **Unang Paskong Wala Ka** Tila kay hirap sumaya pag ang puso'y nagluluksa Di masabi kung ayos lang ba o hindi Tatlong buwan na mula ng ikaw ay umuwi na sa Kanyang kaharian Ngunit ang sakit ay di pa rin napapawi Walang makapagsasabi kung kailan mawawala o kung mawawala nga ba ang sakit Kay hirap tumuloy sa lakbay ng buhay pero kailangan Masakit na di ka na makakasama kailanman liban na lang kung tawagin na rin ng Maykapal Isa lang ang sigurado,…
Read Cash Scare Yesterday was a tiring but enjoyable day for me. It's my first time enjoying a year end party since my first job was toxic while I I only lasted for nine months in my second job. A lot of things has happened but what I can consider as the highlight is when I can't type anything in read cash and I've been trying to log back in but it wouldn't let me. The first thing I noticed is the read cash not refreshing it's page, so I turned off my wifi and turned it back…
Betrayed Trust You can never trust anyone. Betrayal is everywhere. They have fake smiles ready to greet you but they'll stab you in the back when you're not around. You go around speaking and acting carelessly, not minding the people around you. It's true that when people talk about others with you, they will also talk about you to others. In your absence, they'll make you the center of their conversation saying all the bad and negative things about you. They will have…
A short day I am tired physically and emotionally due to the things which needs to be accomplished and yet, here I am, sitting and doing nothing. Earlier today, I had a meeting and a virtual year end party. I enjoyed it a lot and I appreciate everyone who decided to join and help me out. I've been feeling unwell since yesterday, only to find out, that I'll have menstruation today. My body feels heavy, tender and sore. My head is aching. My abdomen is aching and all I just…
Christmas gifts wrapping One of the things that I enjoy aside from writing, practicing calligraphy and reading, is wrapping Christmas gifts. I love the element of surprise and excitement it gives me as I make sure that those gifts aren't just gifts but a piece of art as well. Every Christmas, we have lots of gifts at home because we're a huge family. The past few days, I was able to wrap gifts for my nephews and nieces. I also wrapped gifts for my pastora and I'm just…
Lost Before, I'm always sure of who I want to be and I can even visualize myself growing old doing what I want, but now I'm not sure myself. I don't know what I want anymore. It's as though I'm lost in the abyss. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't even know how I was able to survive each day, submitting my requirements and such. Everything is now vague. I'm more tired than ever. I always wanted to do something so I'll feel like I did something productive for the day. I…
Annoying workmate (A rant) I have an annoying workmate. She is old, sarcastic and always angry when being asked about the things which needs to be done. She is also never the type to be easily approached. I don't like her because she's not specific with the instructions and she will only do as she pleases. Earlier today, we were having reading sessions when she suddenly told us that she created a new list for those reading people. I stick to the first and original list, and…
Recharge Have you ever felt so tired to the point that sleeping and eating can no longer suffice the tiredness that you're feeling? Life is tiring but living is worth it. It's not about what you eat, drink, wear, say or think about. It's just that it's tiring you out to the point that your body screams for you to not care anymore. I have so many things which I wanted to achieve in life. Those things are difficult to reach but attainable. Lately, I've been constantly…
Ibang kausap Kahapon pumunta ako sa Church Kasi dun ang venue ng birthday ng inaanak ko. 8 years old na sya. Invited ako kasi ninang. Anak sya ng churchmate ko. Matagal na rin yung huling beses na nagkita kami and nakaka amaze yung family nila lalo pag dating sa negosyo at kaperahan. Ang nakalagay sa invitation ay 2 p.m. pero pumunta ako dun ng 2:30 p.m. tapos nagsimula na ang party ng 3:30 p.m. Maraming bata kasi children's party at marami ring handa. May mga clown and…
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