I.
I sometimes want to runaway
I want to go to an unknown place
With no one who knows me
And live as if everything is okay
For some it might be a form of cowardice
But for me it's a form of reviving myself
II.
I want to treat myself
By going somewhere without a map
No specific destination in mind
Just me and my empty heart
Regaining the smile I've lost
Due to the battles I fought
III.
I want to live in peace
Silence is my blanket
Solitude as my pillow
A place with peace
Just noises from the nature
A time to recollect myself
IV.
I wasn't asking for too much
But it's a luxury I can never afford
While my heart is full
About to burst by overwhelming feeling
I want to empty it
Pour out everything inside
V.
I want to detoxify myself
A moment by myself
Is what I look forward to have
No interruptions nor restrictions
Just me and God
Unlimited time together
VI.
I sometimes want to look at the future
To see how my future self is doing
Because my current self is exhausted
Everything seems way too much to handle
I'm in a bad shape
Hope to get better soon
VII.
Wide awake in my bed
Lying my head on a soft pillow
Typing these words in my heart
My head starts to feel heavy
It's as though it's calling me to have my sleep
My eyelids ate getting heavier
VIII.
I never thought I'd come to a point
When I'll write about how I exactly feel at the moment
Unsure what's gonna happen next
My fingers started typing on its own
With my heart coaching it what to say
And my brain refusing to rest
IX.
No more tears to cry
It's dried up already
No heart to broke
Since it's already broken
Nothing else to think about
I've had it figured out
X.
I sometimes want to be mindless with what I do or say
But that's just way too impossible for me
Sleep is calling me
The cold weather comforts me
As I keep my eyes closed
Hoping for a better tomorrow
Love_16
January 12, 2021
Tuesday
