It was Sunday yesterday and I woke up at 3:00 a.m. I guess my body has already adjusted to the schedule I had for the past two weeks which is from 2:00 a.m. to 12:00 noon. Since it's Sunday, I went to church as early as 8:00 a.m. and our Sunday service has ended at 11:30 a.m.
It was an ordinary day wherein I ate breakfast, took a bath, brush my teeth, wore my deprogrammer, and took notes while on the Sunday service. After it we took a few photos, had our fellowship then I went home.
I ate my lunch then I asked my mom if she'll go to the grocery store and she said yes. I was about to come with her when my sister said that she'll go to our other sister's house. I asked my mom of I can go with my sister and she said yes.
My sister, my youngest brother and I went to their house. My oldest sister's kids are smart which made them honor students. We decided to treat them with pizza and ice cream. We're supposed to have milk tea as well but it's not within the budget so we decided to just have those as snacks.
My sister went to the lying in to have her swab test since she's about to deliver her 5th baby. When it's time to have our snacks we have a little chat and conversation which made us all felt happy. It was indeed such a nice moment for us together.
You know what, I realized that sometimes, the reason why I'm unhappy is not because of the circumstance that I'm in, but because I have the wrong mindset about it. I'm easily agitated by what happens around me which is have no control of. The problem is I want to be in control over everything but it doesn't work that way.
After laughing for so long that time, my family warned me about my jaw locking. I have a TMJ problem so I'll have to be careful of what I eat, how I chew, how I yawn and even the way I laugh. I'm grateful for that moment of pure joy and laughter.
Another thing is the fact that I don't need much in order to be happy. It's my mindset that needs to be changed. As I look back of what happened that day, I realized that I was just surrounded with right people who are my family. I had a dun time with my nephew and nieces. We are pizza and ice cream. It wasn't much but we were all happy. We all had the chance and the time to enjoy each other's company.
It's always better to choose to be happy especially if you know that your happiness is in your hands. If the world wants you to give up and succumb to your troubles, then choose to do the opposite. Choose to be the happy person you are than the worried persona you have. I might not be in your position and I might not know exactly how you feel or what you're going through but I know that you might be tired and on the verge of giving up.
Whatever you feel is valid. Whatever you're thinking about, whatever you're going through and whatever regrets you have are all part of you now. It's always better to be honest than to go and try to conceal everything away. You yourself is valid. You are worthy. You deserve all the good things that this world has to offer. You are a wonderful blessing to someone.
March 22, 2021