auroras, eureka, and the unknown

it’s the little things that always matter. it’s the little things that start it all. when you refuse to see it, you get lost in life.

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I can’t organize my thoughts. An indication, maybe, to take things slowly at this time. I’m not feeling well at all — physically and emotionally.

I looked forward for this small vacation to come. My academic world was exhausting and I really wanted to end my last semester. I entered my midyear term and I wasn’t so glad to face a bunch of activities for our minor subjects. Just when I thought it couldn’t get worse, an earthquake happened. It’s followed by a series of aftershocks, I got myself injured, I am having colds and asthma, and still life goes on as if nothing happened.

But don’t get me wrong, that’s just the dark part of it. I build my own world and I paint it with colors I like. I think I am okay, it’s just me being patient with myself until I can recollect my energy.

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I’m down for another shameless article, I guess?

I am confused about something. I don’t know how to deal with it. I’m getting crazy about it. I wish I’ll heal fast so at least some things will be easier for me.

7:41

I just finished packing Shopee orders. My tiny business still runs despite it all. It never stops to keep me sane. I am really grateful this happened to me, it’s really not about the financial endeavors anymore but my mental health that it suffices. I am really that person who would tell everybody else to keep being compassionate on the things you enjoy.

I think it’s time to have breakfast now so I could take my meds. I really don’t eat breakfast (because brunch is life) but the situation pushes me to do so.

20:08

I’m so full. I ate chicken nuggets, my favorite! It’s one of the foods I wouldn’t share to others (except when the exception comes, chz). My mom’s busy making a tote bag and I’ve been thinking of a way on how to persuade her to give it to me once it’s done.

I’m busy planning the following days of my life. I had a long sleep a while back and I’m so tempted to go to bed once again, watch my current favorite sitcom, and dwell into my dreams.

I love the The Bigbang Theory and I must say, for the things I really love, I get possessive so I don’t want to recommend it as much as possible haha. Kidding aside, it’s a great series — a bringer of bountiful serotonin. Before I found it, I was thinking of rewatching Friends because it’s definitely one of my comfort series but now I got a new one.

21:14

I’m currently editing our requirement for Arts. I’m forcing myself to hard even though I know I badly need to lay down because my knee is hurting, probably because it’s cold and it’s raining outside.

Right now is an example of those instances in which I wish I have some sort of magic to just get things done. Again, it’s really painful.

Anyways, I might as well share a picture from today.

This is our mulberry. It has lots of health benefits. But I don’t eat it because I hate berries. They look cute but the taste is inexplicable.

Anyways, I still have to do this activity. Might say bye-bye right here right now!

Remember, do well and love well, always.

And did you know today is August 2? Insert my corny romantic line here. Walang mapagsasabihan. Baka sakali, sa susunod na taon. Joke lang.

Ciao~