I'm just lying my bed today. My bed really called me at this moment. I really miss to pause my life this day and by just embracing my bed. I love this and i miss this life. Actually, I have a covenant that needed to attend to but my bed pulled me to stay here and it's my choice also. I know it's not acceptable but this is my choice. I know God you will understand me and I know this is not good but God I love you the most. I know you will love me of what I am.