@Kleah97 28 October 2021 more from that month

Emotions explode!

I can't understand why myself cannot control of my emotions. Whenever I remember the slight gestures from him will break my heart. Tears falling! Whenever days start to shine on, checking up again the phone trying to assume that there's gonna pop up messages from him. Tears falling again! It's kinda weird! it's kinda hard! Just T.E.A.R.S

I been hated myself so much why i'm too sensitive and so emotional where in fact **he's just only living his dreams.** Maybe because I do missed him badly! I cannot control myself to hang on and **see the good of what we have right now**. I been so attached with him for almost three years and with the years is just only virtual. We're so much spend time online but it doesn't mean we're lack of love instead we build True Love and be committed with all our heart. *And now, it's not so easy to deal..* The amount of time the whole day is not intended for the both of us. Instead, It is **intended for our bright future** each. *I'm proud yet sad...* I am **proud** it's because we both prayed that God will answered our prayers for the waiting moment of our life. God never leave us through ups and down. We have the same stages of life and that is the stages of "waiting moment". There you go, his prayer and my prayer to his dreams was answered. I am proud that he's now working his dream job and finally he can provide his family with all his working hard and sacrifices. With all my life, I trust his capability that he will reach his dreams and he will support his family. I am **sad** because things weren't the same again. I'm sad because I do miss him. It crampled myself the way I think about him. I do really miss how my day completed by him even my mood setting up differently, still he is there to say sorry. My tears falling all night! Even my appetite and working here affects my side. I don't know why --it really hits me differently. Brimming tears or teary eye was always present as of this moment of missing someone. As a matter of fact, **our time is now different.**

*Dear myone:* *Thank you for the realization. As this moment of sadness, I've realized that I did myself a great job of being a lover to someone or to you.* *Thank you for letting me love and to be loved. My heart is not bitter instead you let me live into better.* *Now, I understand why as of this emotions hits differently its because my love for you is different. Unexplainable and unexpectable!* *I'm here. I'll wait.💓* **As I write this piece even yesterdays article, my heart crampled into pieces and drowning tears💔😭. I can't explainnnnnnn just only MISSHIM!** P.s *Thankyou read.cash for allowing me to express myself. And to you* @TheRandomRewarder *for extending appreciation of all my sentiments and dramas here. I am so much thankful also to those who read my article which is my co users which supported me all the way. To all my sponsors oweeee, I am so much grateful to all of you guys!💛*