Anneonghaseyo chingus! How are you guys? Kamusta mga kaibigan? Kamusta mga higala? So many languages in the world, but all I want to know is, I hope you all doing well :)

I don't know if I'm late for this prompt, but since this is random and has no deadline, I should share mine.

I'm not doing fine now because of monthly red days (Hoho! Ladies feel me?) and I think this topic is perfect for checking the level of my health.

I read this topic from Ate @Jane (sorry for tagging you always Ate hoho) and last few days again from @emily2u. According to them the meaning of 5 F's are:

Family

I can't claim in myself that I have a happy family. I grow up in a broken family. I stay with different relatives. I always feel mistreated even I'm doing my best to be loved and to be part of their family. I guess because I am not their child or sibling.

Last August 2019 I moved here in my apartment because my Aunt wants me out in their house. Mom and aunt got quarrel in the phone call because of a money issue. Mom was in Taiwan and my aunt was here in the Philippines. That fight turns to count the help they did to us before. Every time she is mad, she always brings up the good thing she did without realizing what I did for her family in exchange for that good deed.

You are not welcoming others in your house if that person is a burden right? I'm not a burden to them even I stay in their house. In fact, I was a relief to them for being their helper.

I am now living alone for 2 years. Mom got me an apartment to leave my aunt's house but the annoying feeling is, they keep reaching me after they curse me. They want me to be part of their family again as if nothing happened. Why? Maybe because they realize that I am a big help to them. Now that they have a family problem they want me to get involved. I'm so over with their issues that's why I didn't put myself into trouble. And there they are, counting again the help they did before.

Friends

Because I can't find love in the family, I seek it with my friends. I have had lots of friends before, I treat them like my siblings, like my family. I always welcome them in my house, I share what I have. But the sad part is when you were asking a little help to them they are slowly missing especially if they can't get anything in return. I tolerate that behavior just to let them stay in my life. But one day I wake up with those fake shits.

Now I only have 2 friends that I can say is true to me. The one is my boyfriend and the other one is Ate Cassanda, my college classmate.

Fitness

I can't motivate myself to do jog even I wanted to. It seems like my whole body is afraid in the air outside. My body is not healthy. I only eat when I am hungry. There are times I don't eat for 2 whole day. Maybe that's why I don't have the energy to do lots of tasks that needs strength. I motivate others but I can't motivate myself hoho

Finances

I recently graduated from college but it leaves me a lot of debt. Why? because studying is an investment. Even I'm working while studying still not enough. We also owe the landowner 5 months of unpaid house rent ($400). It started when the lockdown was implemented. My mom prioritized my food during lockdowns. All I can say is, I'm still broke. Hohohaha! But who knows if I will reach 1 BCH hehe. Wish me luck!

Fun

Fun for me is no stress. I find sleeping is fun, where I can rest my mind in peace.

Closing Thoughts

I don't know if some of you relate to my 5 F's, but if you do, keep still :) We are more blessed than others, always remember that.

Thank you for reading! :)

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