His eyes were sensually fixed on my body so much that he did not notice that I was looking at him, but I couldn’t resist the thought that my two-month crush was lost in my beauty and sexiness.
This was how it all began. I would like to plead with you all not to judge me for my silly mistake because I am just a human but I truly need your support and advice on what to do at this point. This is barely a week since I joined this platform and officially, this should be my first ever post aside from my introductory post some days ago. I had plans about writing at least a post on this platform as a way of maintaining steady activeness but with the event that happened in my life just these past few days, I am completely not in the right frame of mind to write anything else other than to make an open confession just to ease off the guilt that is killing me even now. Yes, I love with all my heart and I have never been in such a situation since I started dating the only guy whom I have come to love so much but just this past few days, I messed up big time (tears…) I don’t know how to say this but I cheated on my boyfriend. I can’t even control my tears because he has been the best friend anyone can ask for.
Right now, I have been avoiding any physical contact with him because I can’t stand the guilt that will rush through my veins when he looks into my eyes. What will I do? We normally see every weekend and he has been calling me to know how I have been doing. I can’t get myself to open up to him right now because I don’t want to hurt him. This is very bad for me right now… what will I do? I stuck between Pharaoh and the red sea. If I don’t tell him today, I am sure he will find out on his own and that might spell doom for my love life. He is such a caring lover and I would not want to lose him for anything. Yes, I have made a terrible mistake that I will forever regret but I can’t lose the only man that gives me the true meaning of love. The truth is that he is the reason behind the name “JustLuvMe”. He uses it as a way to tease me and I became so used to it that I decided to take it up as my username on this platform and it is because I wanted to have him in my thoughts always even as I write. What will I do now? How did I allow myself to go down such an ungodly path?
My Foolishness
Yes, I knew that if I got close to him that something silly might happen but I allowed my stupidity to take over my sense of reasoning. These all happened a few days ago and I don’t want to remember any bit of it but I can’t help myself. Our eyes met and he gave me the very smile that threw me off my feet and I could feel myself getting horny as if I was a loose girl. I believe that what happened to me was because I have been crushing on him since the first day I saw him and it was as if he found out which was the reason why he gave me such a killer smile. I must be sincere, his handsome face can pull down even the greatest of walls built by any woman. He walked up to me and the sound of his voice gave me shivers in such a way that my entire body quaked. He saw through me and that was when he made his wicked and heartless move on me. I could not resist when he drew me close and gave me the warmest hug filled with great sexual pleasure. He whispered into my ear and asked me to follow him to his car and just like a fool, I followed and that was the beginning of my sorrows.
I joined him in his car and just a little drive away from the mall he looked at me and said the sweetest thing I have ever heard. He said, “your eyes are so pretty and I will spend my whole life looking into it”. I must confess that at that time, he had me pinned on the hot seat of confusion covered with desires for his touch. I have never felt the way I felt on that day and before I could say a word, he had already cleared on the side of the road and moved over to my side with his lips very wet and hot for the very kiss that sealed it all. I could not resist and he saw it very clearly and as he continued to kiss me, I noticed his hands reaching under my hot thighs. This increased the fire in me and before I could say stop, he was already touching me so gently like I was a baby. I must say that I have never been touched the way he touched me before and that was how we moved over to the back seat and made hot love in his car. Oh no! I can’t believe that I made such a terrible mistake at this time in my life and I don’t know what to do (crying)…
He deserves to know but I can’t imagine telling him that his baby girl had one crazy and silly sex with a guy in his car. Please, don’t judge me right now because I am already in pain and my heart is broken. I don’t know what to do, please I need your advice because I am lost and I don’t want to lose the love of my life over this. I sense he already feels that something is wrong because he has been asking me if I am alright. (Sobbing…) I am losing my mind right now please, somebody should help me. I had to make this confession here because I want to get your advice and even your condemnation. I deserve every form of condemnation that comes to me right now because I am feeling like a cheap whore. I am going crazy right now… (Crying). Please help me! Help me!! Help me!!! I feel like ending my life right now but I don’t want to hurt him because I know he will be so broken if I die but, what other option do I have if not to die? (crying…)
This is my true life story.