Retreat; Checks and Balances.
**Hurray!!!...**
We are all happy to be alive at this point not just because we have been very careful with the way and manner we live our lives rather it is because of the grace and mercy of the creator of the world. A lot of people are on their way to see their families or to start the New Year with them. It is all good and wonderful but, there is something most of us are forgetting in this period. It may seem less important to you or unnecessary but I want you to know that if you do not do this particular exercise at the end or beginning of every year, you run the risk of repeating does mistakes that affected the journey of your life negatively. If you are working with a financial institution or any other firm, you will understand the importance of what I am talking about. Any businessman or woman who does not take his/her time to do this at every end or beginning of the year, such an entrepreneur is putting the growth of his/her business at risk. What am I talking about is called ****Retreat (Checks and Balances).****
****Retreat****
Just as we all know, every business will either carry out a quarterly or yearly audit of the entire financial status of the business in other to know if they are making any profit or not. This is also needed in the life of every individual whether old or young. The question is; **have you had a retreat for the year that is ending today?** to a lot of us, it may seem as though is something they cannot do or it may sound so foreign and new to them but have you conducted an audit of your life for the year that is about to end? This is the time when you take yourself to a secluded place and iron it out with your God by looking at the things you have done right and the ones you did not do well. There are processes and necessary steps one must follow during this retreat because it is meant to serve as a personal audit and evaluation. I will write a few of the steps that can be taken during this process and the reason behind it is that most times we are saddled with the enjoyment that comes with seeing a New Year and we forget that an audit of the last year is highly needed.
The very first step which we must follow during this period is;
· ****Thanksgiving/ Appreciation:****
It has become a problem that many of us do not understand the power of thanksgiving and appreciation when someone has done a favour or two to us. Now, for one to make a proper audit of oneself, we must take a minute or two to appreciate our creator for being so kind and merciful to us throughout the year. We must also remember to appreciate those who have done one favour to us during the year because no man is an island. You may have wealth and affluence but you must understand that without people around you, it may be hard for you to enjoy life. This is the most important part of this retreat and it must be done with a sincere heart at all costs because if you do not appreciate your creator and the people who have played one positive role or the other in your life, you are bound to think they have no value in your life and by so doing, you will look down on them in the coming year.
· ****Evaluation****
The reason you must make this the second step during this process of the retreat is that it opens your eyes to that which you have done well and the ones you need to work on. A man who does not examine his life is already swimming the ocean of destruction. It is at this point that you ask yourself very sincere questions about your **business, relationship and every other thing you do as a person.** Looking at the area of ****business****, you must try and see how you have been able to grow your business or how you have been able to work diligently in that firm where you gained employment. The reason is that you need to know whether you have done a very good job or whether you have been wasting your time throughout the year.
When it comes to ****relationships****, this is the time you must look inward to know how well you have been able to treat your wife/husband, girlfriend/boyfriend, children/parents and those you come in contact with. Most times we are more focused on making money and expanding our businesses that we forget our families and friends. This happens very gradually and it takes over a person’s mind and by the end of the year, you may not understand that you have only cared about your loved one just once though out the entire year. It is at this retreat that you will have to take stock of how you were able to treat them and by so doing you will find out if you have been showing more love or not. This is an important part of every human’s life and we must take it very seriously if we want to have a smooth going life.
· ****Take Corrections.****
This is the last part of the retreat process which everyone must be ready to do. it may seem as though you do not need it but if you go through any retreat without taking corrections and implementing them in your life you have only wasted your time. One thing you must understand is that you are not meant to over flog yourself or blame yourself for any shortcoming you find in your life rather you should see this as a means of evaluation and correction. Do not go through any retreat if you have no intentions of making corrections and doing things right at all costs. We are human beings and as such we are fallible, therefore taking corrections after every evaluation period is very much needed.
I decided to write this because I understand that we all are happy that we are alive to witness the New Year. See this post as a reminder that we still have some work to do before the year runs out or before starting up the New Year. I will end this post by dropping this thought-provoking question which we all must answer individually.
****What are your plans for the New Year?****
Don’t say; ***I don’t have any because that will only mean that you have already planned to fail.*** Listen to yourself and find out the plans you have for the New Year. Thank you for reading this article, **JustLuvMe** loves you.
***For those who have already stepped into the New Year and those who are yet to see the New Year, let me use this opportunity to wish you all a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! 2022 will be a very wonderful year for all of us.***
***Hip! Hip!! Hip!!!🤩🤩🤩🤩***
***Huraaaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!!!.🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳***
Above and Below (the Mystery behind it all).
Have you wondered why we do the things we do and act the way we act? Have you cared to ask yourself why it is that human’s like you and I can utter the flow and system of the world without consulting even two per cent of the world population? Do you think that those who are doing this are more human than you and I or would just want to see it as faith? Well, these and lots of other questions go through my mind each time I look at the way the world is being run by a few of those we call the cabals. I have a strong feeling that there are things we who are been governed constantly miss and that is the reason why these few men and women keep controlling the world both financially and otherwise. Just yesterday, I stumbled upon an article on this platform written by one of the prolific writers I have seen since my short time of joining the platform. This article got me thinking in various directions and for clarity sake, it inspired me to write this article today. The title of the article is ****The Metaverse Wars**** written by @Pantera You must have to read this article for you not to be left behind. https://read.cash/@Pantera/the-metaverse-wars-ab68c3bc
****The Mystery Behind it all****
Going through the article, you will understand why the world does not wait for you to come along rather you are meant to run with the world if you wish to achieve anything in life. Just recently there has been a tremendous awareness going on both in out outside of the internet space about ****Metaverse (the next Big Bang).**** One thing we all must know is that there has been a well laid down plan which these cabals and controllers of the world have put in place to take the world by storm whether we want it or not. If you have been following the news you would notice the move that occurred on **Facebook** and how it has announced that it will be accepting crypto for AD payments. What does this tell you, this means that before now series of secret meetings have been held in other to change the course of the world financial system through the use of cryptocurrency more especially **Metaverse.** If you have also been following the progress and movement of cryptocurrency since the beginning of BTC, you will understand that nothing happens in the world by mere **chance.** There is always a well mapped out plan on how to move from one point to another.
The biggest fear is that these men and women do not need to have the consent of every single one of us to carry out any plan which they have agreed upon. Now, the biggest question is; ***what can the common man do?***
****The moment of truth****
I believe you heard about cryptocurrency either through the BTC or ETH hype men and women scattered all over the internet and beyond. Now, one question I want all of us to look at is; **what did you do when you heard about BTC or ETH?** One thing I have learnt from my dad is to always draw lessons from past events even if I was never a part of the past. If you are in this sphere, you must know that you are among the very first adopters of cryptocurrency but the major problem is that most of us have become dormant. We do not want to flow with the growing trend either because we have made a little money from the little trade and blogging we do here and in other places. We have forgotten that cryptocurrency is like an oil field that is yet to be drilled. We are hearing about the metaverse and a lot of us are acting as if we do not know that change is the only thing constant in life. If you decide not to expound your horizon you may be forced to strain your neck while trying to see something standing before you.
****Is God aware of it all?****
One thing you must understand is that we all worship one same God but through diverse means and approaches. Just as Christians worship God through the son Jesus Christ so also does Muslims worship Allah through Mohammad. This also goes for many other religions of the world therefore, when there is an incoming change that will shift or redirect the flow of things in the world. Never think that God or the creator of the Universe does not have a hand in it. There is this great demarcation between blind worshippers of God (creator) and those who have come to see the light of what God (creator) wanted us to do in this world. If God created the world, why then do you think that he did not give us the power to improve and make the world a better place in any way we can? This is the big difference between the movers and shakers of the world (the cabals).
****Reoccurring Events****
When the pandemic (covid 19) hit the world a lot of people were taking unawares but some knew what was about to come and prepared themselves for the worse. You will bear witness that you have seen movies portraying the end of the world either through pandemics, war or even natural disasters. What does that tell you? It means that some are seriously controlling the affairs of the world. Sometimes they try to give us a little warning of what is to come and some other times they don’t. We have been watching movies with a whole lot of science fiction portraying how toys transform into cars and other gadgets. We have also seen movies that portray where the human mind is controlled by a click of a button, the swipe of a card or an implant on the head or any other part of the body. We have seen movies where robots are deployed as soldiers to go and fight against enemy soldiers. We have seen drones being controlled from a distance go to faraway lands to destroy and kill enemies. Do you still think that the coming of ****Metaverse**** has not been well planned and orchestrated?
****Conclusion****
Open your eyes to see while you still have the chance to do so because a time will come when everything will be running so fast that you may not be able to catch up with the trends. For me, I am already watching and learning just not to be taken by surprise. Whatever the name is should not confuse you rather it should make you research more and better because all that we see today has been well planned by these men and women with the support of God (the Creator).
**“*****As above, so below*** **as within, so without, as the universe, so the soul*****”…*** **Hermes Trismegistus.** https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/6667328-as-above-so-below-as-within-so-without-as-the
Thank you for reading my little thoughts. I appreciate Sir @Pantera for your article which inspired me, thank you, Sir.
**Disclaimer:** ***All the ideas portrayed in this article are from within me and should not be copied or used without authorization.***
All images used are gotten from unsplash.com.
The Woman and Christmas.
Ok, just like every other person who has one business or two with the kitchen, I have spent virtually my Christmas in and out of the kitchen. I have not even gone out of the house just because I am meant to keep pushing out food for the family. This is my story and I believe it's still the same for most women and girls out there. Before I continue, I will love to use this opportunity to wish everyone a wonderful Merry Christmas 🎄. I am sure we all are having a wonderful time with our families and loved ones. Just as we celebrate, let me remind us of those who are not privileged to enjoy the kind of fun we have been enjoying this season. Please try as much as you can to reach out to them in any way you can because you might just be saving someone from committing suicide.
Back to my major reason for writing this post. I guess you will be wondering what the post is all about because of the title I gave it. Well, don't stress your mind so much on the title because I want us to truly discuss something I have noticed especially during the Christmas season. I am sure a lot of persons must have noticed this but they may not have given it a second thought so I decided to bring it up for us to look at as a family. ****Why do most women and girls end up spending their Christmas in the kitchen?****
The question is something that I would want to hear the responses from other women and girls in the house because they are the ones who suffer it the most. First, this post is not in any way meant to remove the fact that the woman must take care of the family when it comes to feeding and eating good food. For me, I will say that the amount of time a woman spends in the kitchen during festive periods are always in excess. Just yesterday I spent almost all my day in the kitchen while I was preparing food for Christmas and after the whole stress, I had little or no appetite for the food I made and it made me sad somehow. One of my siblings was just so happy eating and enjoying the food while I was just angrily watching him. Well, I understand that sometimes when you spend so much time in the kitchen preparing food, you might end up losing your appetite for the food.
These are some of the pictures I took while preparing food. At some point, I forgot that I will be needing more pictures for this post. Please pardon me and please I would like to hear your response on why most women and girls spend time cooking during festive periods.
It was truly a busy time for every woman who takes care of her families food. Just like I said, I did not take pictures of the other delicacies I prepared because I was already battling with time and my energy level. I wonder what it will be like when I get married. I remembered when my mom walked into the kitchen just to come and give me those of her pep talk. She said that I just have to understand that I am the only girl in the house therefore, I must be ready to do the cooking and every kitchen job. When she said this, I wanted to ask her about my brothers and why they are not helping me out but something in me told me to just forget the question because it won't fetch anything good for me.
Just for you to understand this whole thing, I have been writing this post since yesterday and it seems like I may not be able to finish it because I am always needed in the kitchen every single time. I only rest when there are no visitors in the house and when my parents and siblings are fully fed. The truth is, I am seriously wondering what it will ve like when I get married and start my own family. **Is this what being a woman entails?** I just can't help but wonder if every woman and girl out there goes through the very same process of long hours in the kitchen every festive period. Most times no one cares to ask them if they have eaten because everybody presumes that they must have been eating in the kitchen while preparing the food. This is very sad and heartbreaking but what can we do? As an African girl child, I have no other option than to prepare my mind for the task ahead. **Why do women and girls spend so much time in the kitchen every festive period?** I just can't wait to hear your story and how you managed to pull through.
Let us discuss this in the comment section. Once again Merry Christmas to you and your family and may we enjoy all the blessings of infant Jesus. Thank you for your time.
All I want for Christmas.
While I was growing up my father used to make me write a long list of what I wanted for Christmas. To me, that is my opportunity to write everything that comes to mind even when he always ends up doing one or two things from the list. I will joyfully and gladly write a long list of things I want every single Christmas. Right now, I am no longer that little sweet girl of the house therefore he has stopped asking me to make a list for my Christmas. I don’t know if I am to feel happy about it or otherwise. The truth is that a part of me sometimes wants to feel the joy of writing a long list even when I will not get a quarter of what I have written. Just yesterday, I was watching the television when my older brother walked into the leaving room and made a joke saying;
***You no go write list for daddy?*** **(Pigeon English).**
I looked at him and we both started laughing so hard and loud. We were laughing because he understood how exciting writing the list makes me feel at all times. After laughing about the whole thing, I looked at him and said;
***You know that I am now a big girl…***
When I made this statement, something struck me in my mind and I began to wonder. What if I am asked to make a list now, **what will I write?** At this point, I began to examine myself to make a little mental note of a list of what I would want for Christmas. As I was thinking all this in my mind, something told me to get my pen and paper in other to write it down. Mind you, when I was still very young my list will always look very full but funny because each time my father looks at it, he will ease off a burst of laughter which shows that what I wrote was funny. Now, for you to understand what I am talking about let me show what my list usually looks like when I was still young.
****My list as a baby****
· The first thing is always balloons. When I was younger, I just can’t do without having balloons in and around the house and I will always keep some on my bed while sleeping. There was a scenario something funny happened. As usually I left some balloons on my bed and slept off. Unknown to me, I was already lying on the balloon and as I tried to turn around while sleeping the balloon busted very loudly that my parents rushed to my room. To their greatest shock, I was still very much asleep as if nothing happened. It was later in the morning that my mom asked me if I left balloons on my bed while sleeping. That night must have been crazy for then and my older brothers because I was seriously warned never to leave balloons on the bed while sleeping.
· The second thing I always write on my list is my Christmas complete attire which consists of a *Cinderella gown, shoes with lights by the sides, socks to match the colour of my gown, ribbons for my hair and a baby doll.* I only got this once or twice and I never got it again to date.
· My list will always have space for bangers although it is not for my use rather my older brothers will ask me to sneak it in my list just to make sure that my father will buy for them. They never got it even for once. I believe my father knew that I would never ask for such a thing.
· I will ask for a trip to see Santa Claus. This is one of the things I usually get from my dad.
· I will ask for candies and biscuits.
· Play toys especially baby dolls.
· To visit the village in other to see grandma.
I am completely not able to remember most things because it has been a long since I wrote such a list.
Now, let us look at the list I would write if I am given the opportunity. The truth is that my list may not be very long at this age because I will choose the most important things first. Let us look at the list…
****My Christmas list now****
· ****Money,**** this will certainly be the first on the list because I need money to do a lot of things for myself. Please don’t say that I love money too much, I just love to take care of myself.
· One thing I will not miss for anything is ****Family Time.**** I will give anything to have a wonderful family time with all my siblings but that won’t be possible for now.
· ****Good health****, this is the only thing I will never joke with again when it comes to the Christmas season. I remembered the last time I fell sick during Christmas. I could see myself crying so bitterly not because I was sick but it was because I was not able to eat as much as I wanted. Don’t ever joke about good health especially during the festive period.
· ****Gods Protection****. I would not underrate protection when it comes to travelling and running around during the festive period. I remembered one incident an entire family died in a road accident as they were travelling to their home town. I can’t over emphasis the need for everyone to always pray for protection during the festive seasons.
· Last but not least are going to be funny because a lot of you will see me as a child. Well, you can call anything but the truth remains that I would give anything to feel the ****Christmas SNOW**** in my palms. It’s funny, right? I have never seen or felt what the ****snow**** is therefore, I will give anything except my life to witness the winter season overseas. I know that a day will come when I will travel overseas during the winter just to feel the snow and have a feel of what Christmas is for the westerners.
Ok, let me stop this list here just not to bore you so much. I will love to see your list if you have been written it already or you are planning to write it later. Let be this our little bound in here. I have to go now because ****JustLuvMe**** is ready to see and read your response in the comment section. Love you all…
Digital Marketing; the World and You.
It has become a clear fact that the world has become more ****digital**** than ****analogue**** in nature. This is seen in the production and manufacture of both domestic gadgets which are digitally controlled. This technical advancement has increased from the use of pieces of machinery to even the most common appliance which can be found virtually in every home. Before now, no one would have believed that the toothbrush can be electronically powered during the process of brushing. There has been not just the increase of technological innovations, but a total shift from the manual to mechanical ways of doing things. If you have been following my posts you will understand that the past few days of my life were enveloped in regret but as God may have it, I am free from any form of guilt thanks to my one and only lover.
I guess you will be wondering what led me into writing this article today. The truth is that my mind is now easy to function normally like it used to. While I was going through an article about Digital Marketing, I got a certain point that triggered my inner mind. Those who are close to me will understand that I am always ready to ask the question “****what if****” at all times. This is not because I want to have a doubtful mindset towards everything and anything that pops up in my mind rather it is because I have come to understand that the human mind is capable of solving even the most difficult problems when put to good use. To be fair, I learnt this from my dad. As the only daughter in the house, I was very much closer to him than my mum. This sometimes makes my mum jealous and whenever this happens, I will try my best to make her feel better. My father began to train my mind towards thinking critically about anything and everything. I must confess that most of my male friends will sometimes talk to me as though I am a guy. They will go to the extent of coming to seek my opinion on some things.
Somehow, I began to develop that mental awareness of everything around me. As I was reading through the article, I began to think. What would have been the faith of the world if there was no form of ****technological advancement**** and changes? Just imagine a world where there were no modern means of transportation, nothing like electricity, pipe-borne water, architectural advancement, and modern means of communication and so on. **What would have been the faith of our world today?** As these thoughts were running through my mind, I began to see the need for me and every single one of us on this platform to propagate this message of ****Digital Marketing**** to the ends of the earth. For us to have a better understanding of what this post is all about, I will make some inferences from the article I was reading which borders on digital marketing.
From observations and studies, it has become clear to everyone who cares to know that digital marketing is nothing other than a digital means of selling goods and services through the use of desktop computers, phones and other devices that are internet enabled. The biggest challenge I have seen is that a lot of Africans and other populace living in and around developing countries do not know or have a full understanding of what digital marketing is and how it works. This is the major problem which we all must come together in other to fight off now that we can before it takes hold of the developing countries and their citizens. Right now, anyone who has a handful of knowledge of digital marketing in the world is already on the right track towards attaining financial freedom.
****Why should we care?****
We should think about the future and the benefits we can get if we key into digital marketing. For me, I am already taking lecturers online just to have a handful of understanding on digital marketing. As a girl who has seen the need to work hard for financial freedom, I would want to use this opportunity to enlighten others especially the female folks to take this very seriously. If the world could change so much with the help of technology, what do you think would happen in the future when marketing, selling goods and services takes the path of digitalization. Although we cannot rule out the fact that physical marketplaces will not go extinct but, we must understand that when digital marketing takes over fully, a lot of people may lose their jobs if they decide not to work with the changing pattern of the world. Just for us to understand better, let us look at the current trend over the internet.
We have Facebook, WhatsApp, Twitter and a whole lot of other platforms and social media handles where one can buy and sell different kinds of things. We cannot have these entire platforms where we can make extra cash even as we are seated in the comfort of our homes without maximizing its gains. It will be the worst mistake of anyone especially youths in this time and age. Therefore, like your blog and study the crypto market, don’t forget that you owe it to yourself to follow every digital trend in other not to be left out. You can market anything over the internet just by seating in the comfort of your house. If you want to get started in digital marketing, just follow the link below.
****https://www.udemy.com/courses/marketing/digital-marketing/****
****https://www.coursera.org/search?query=digital%20marketing&****
There are whole lots of platforms and online classes where you can learn digital marketing, just make a choice today and be happy tomorrow.
It’s wonderful having you read my article. ****JustLuvMe**** loves you all.
Now I know what true Love is.
For the past few days I have been battling with the worst mistake of my life which I have sworn never to repeat but, today I am free as a bird. It is not just freedom gotten out of clear conscience rather it is a freedom found in true love. I would not go into talking about the entire ugly incident because it is not worth it anymore. Just two days ago I found the courage to open up to the very man I would have lost because of my mistake. This decision was necessitated by the good advice I got from my best friend after narrating everything to her. Yes, I will not deny the fact that it would have been so hard for me to do it on my own if not with the help of my best friend. I truly value her so much for being sincere with me and not taking sides. I remembered that one of my close friends supported me even when she knew that I was the one who messed up by cheating on my lover. She told me that I should not allow guilt to eat me up, after all, my so-called might have done the worst things. She said that because she thought that my lover was that kind of man without principle but I told her that my love cannot do such a thing to me.
So, when I talked with my best friend, she told me that I must open up to my lover if I wanted to have peace of mind. I took her advice and summoned courage and now the rest has become history. Well, I will try to tell you how it happened and why I can tell everyone that I **now know what true love is all about.** Our normal weekend routine started when he called me to invite me over for the weekend. Before the ugly incident, we usually spend weekends together either in his house or in a hotel. When he invited me over, I told him that I would want us to meet that there is something I want to tell him. He obliged me and we met that evening in a lounge where we could be able to talk. I noticed he was somehow uncomfortable this made him not waste any minute before throwing up the question of **“what is the problem”.** The moment I heard this question, my heart rate increased and was almost so loud that anyone who listened could hear the beat.
I looked at him the second time and hot hears started running down my cheek. It was at this time that I found out that the man I have been dating is an angel both in and out. Before I could open my mouth to talk, He came close and hugged me very tightly and whispered these words that turned the entire thing around. He said; ***“we learn from our mistakes and every mistake we face in life is necessary for our formation as a human being”.*** I could not hold back the tears anymore as I began to talk. I told him how sorry I was and that I know sorry may not be enough to take away the hurt I have caused him by cheating on him. As I was still forming the words to say them, he grabbed me a kissed my forehead and said; ***love is bigger than what we see or know. It takes the pains of the other and gives them peace”.*** He held my hands and told me not to worry or allow my mistake to define who I am rather I should always be ready to move above every failure and continue on the path of success. I could not say any other thing other than allowing tears to roll down my cheek uncontrollably.
I am the happiest and luckiest girl on earth right now and I am grateful to God for giving me a man whose heart is overflowing with true love. I will never allow such a mistake to repeat knowingly or unknowingly. I cannot stop loving him because he has shown the colour of true love and the true meaning of love. Just like Jesus Christ the son of God, he took my shame and sadness and made them all his own just for me to have peace of mind. I love him even more than he can think and I want to say that I am sorry for hurting you.
My Soured Christmas Journey Has Begun
***The floating nature of the ocean does not make it a competitor to the wind but it goes to confirm that both the ocean and the wind are inseparable.***
If I could have one more chance to make it right, I would jump on it with all I have irrespective of what the world will say. My heart still bleeding and yearns for an endearing peace but it seems peace has gone so far away from me. I truly deserve peace but it seems I may not get it no matter how hard I try. Just yesterday I made an open confession about how I shamelessly allowed my stupid desires pushed to me cheat on the only guy who has done nothing else other than to love me unconditionally. I thought I could get some sort of peace by pouring out my sins and accepting any form of condemnation that might come with it but, it seems as though I will never have that peace I seek. In all the years we have been together, the Christmas seasons are always the best and most romantic for me because he goes out of his way to spoil me silly both with gifts and love. Right now I can only see my Christmas in ruins already because I can’t imagine telling a friend who has loved me with all his heart that I cheated on him.
All through yesterday he kept on calling me just to know how I am doing. I have been trying to summon the courage to talk to him about my stupid mistake but my will keeps failing me each time I try. I thought confessing openly will help me but it has become worst and I feel nothing other than to end my life right now. Truth be told, I love him with all my heart and I know that my life will not be the same if he leaves me. I know that I will never find that perfect lover who will love and respect me the way he does. **How do I make this go away?** Please, someone should wake me up. I feel like I am dreaming and I would give anything for this to go away. Last night he called me and made his usual joke of ***“Just love me”***, I could not find myself laughing the way I use to laugh whenever he makes the joke instead, hot tears ran down my cheeks and I had to end the call just for him not to know that I was hurting inside. He called me back and asked me if my network was bad, I instantly said yes. I have never lied to him before now but it seems like the only thing that comes out of my mouth whenever he wants to know why I am moody is lies and nothing more.
One thing I know is that he has a feeling that something is not right with me but just like the perfect and caring guy he is, he will never pressurize me to talk. He has asked me more than twice and I have given him the same answer. It is not because I don’t want to tell him rather it is because I don’t want to break his heart which might lead to the end of our sweet love life. Can I carry this guilt for so long? I am gradually melting away in my sin. This is why I come to this platform to pure out my soul hoping that someone will be able to help me walk through this lonely road of guilt. Just as we do every Christmas, he has invited me over and has purchased two tickets for our usual Christmas vacation. I remembered how he was so excited to inform me about the newest place he found in Lagos and I was so happy to accept without any hesitation not knowing that the devil was going to tempt me in such a stupid way. Do I have to blame it on the devil? Of course, I foolishly allowed it to happen because if I did not hop into that car with him, nothing would have happened. I don’t think I can forgive myself for this silly and costly mistake.
I am just walking on this lonely road of guilt not knowing how to open up to him, this is not a matter of trying to hide it from him rather it is out of fear of what might happen when I tell him the painful truth. I have never been involved in any form of cheating and this is why it feels so awkward for me. Would he ever trust me or even believe that I have never cheated on him before? It was too easy for me to fall into such temptation since I have not cheated before, I could have fought back but I did not. I am just writing to try and ease off the pain that flows in my heart every second of the day. I need help. Everyone, your girl needs help. Please, your good advice will save a sister from running mad or doing something crazy to herself. I am waiting for your response.
The Sour Taste of Honey (My Confession)
***His eyes were sensually fixed on my body so much that he did not notice that I was looking at him, but I couldn’t resist the thought that my two-month crush was lost in my beauty and sexiness.***
This was how it all began. I would like to plead with you all not to judge me for my silly mistake because I am just a human but I truly need your support and advice on what to do at this point. This is ****barely a week**** since I joined this **platform** and **officially**, **this should be my first ever post** aside from my introductory post some days ago. I had plans about writing at least a post on this platform as a way of maintaining steady activeness but with the event that happened in my life just these past few days, I am completely not in the right frame of mind to write anything else other than to make an open confession just to ease off the guilt that is killing me even now. Yes, I love with all my heart and I have never been in such a situation since I started dating the only guy whom I have come to love so much but just this past few days, ****I messed up big time (*********tears…*********)**** I don’t know how to say this but I cheated on my boyfriend. I can’t even control my tears because he has been the best friend anyone can ask for.
Right now, I have been avoiding any physical contact with him because I can’t stand the guilt that will rush through my veins when he looks into my eyes. **What will I do?** We normally see every weekend and he has been calling me to know how I have been doing. I can’t get myself to open up to him right now because I don’t want to hurt him. This is very bad for me right now… **what will I do?** I stuck between Pharaoh and the red sea. If I don’t tell him today, I am sure he will find out on his own and that might spell doom for my love life. He is such a caring lover and I would not want to lose him for anything. Yes, I have made a terrible mistake that I will forever regret but I can’t lose the only man that gives me the true meaning of love. The truth is that he is the reason behind the name **“JustLuvMe”.** He uses it as a way to tease me and I became so used to it that I decided to take it up as my username on this platform and it is because I wanted to have him in my thoughts always even as I write. **What will I do now?** How did I allow myself to go down such an ungodly path?
****My Foolishness****
Yes, I knew that if I got close to him that something silly might happen but I allowed my stupidity to take over my sense of reasoning. These all happened a few days ago and I don’t want to remember any bit of it but I can’t help myself. Our eyes met and he gave me the very smile that threw me off my feet and I could feel myself getting horny as if I was a loose girl. I believe that what happened to me was because I have been crushing on him since the first day I saw him and it was as if he found out which was the reason why he gave me such a killer smile. I must be sincere, his handsome face can pull down even the greatest of walls built by any woman. He walked up to me and the sound of his voice gave me shivers in such a way that my entire body quaked. He saw through me and that was when he made his wicked and heartless move on me. I could not resist when he drew me close and gave me the warmest hug filled with great sexual pleasure. He whispered into my ear and asked me to follow him to his car and just like a fool, I followed and that was the beginning of my sorrows.
I joined him in his car and just a little drive away from the mall he looked at me and said the sweetest thing I have ever heard. He said, ***“your eyes are so pretty and I will spend my whole life looking into it”.*** I must confess that at that time, he had me pinned on the hot seat of confusion covered with desires for his touch. I have never felt the way I felt on that day and before I could say a word, he had already cleared on the side of the road and moved over to my side with his lips very wet and hot for the very kiss that sealed it all. I could not resist and he saw it very clearly and as he continued to kiss me, I noticed his hands reaching under my hot thighs. This increased the fire in me and before I could say stop, he was already touching me so gently like I was a baby. I must say that I have never been touched the way he touched me before and that was how we moved over to the back seat and made hot love in his car. Oh no! I can’t believe that I made such a terrible mistake at this time in my life and I don’t know what to do ***(crying)…***
He deserves to know but I can’t imagine telling him that his baby girl had one crazy and silly sex with a guy in his car. Please, don’t judge me right now because I am already in pain and my heart is broken. I don’t know what to do, please I need your advice because I am lost and I don’t want to lose the love of my life over this. I sense he already feels that something is wrong because he has been asking me if I am alright. ***(Sobbing…)*** I am losing my mind right now please, somebody should help me. I had to make this confession here because I want to get your advice and even your condemnation. I deserve every form of condemnation that comes to me right now because I am feeling like a cheap whore. I am going crazy right now… ***(Crying).*** Please help me! Help me!! Help me!!! I feel like ending my life right now but I don’t want to hurt him because I know he will be so broken if I die but, what other option do I have if not to die? ***(crying…)***
This is my true life story.
A Voice came calling... Introduction to ReadCash. Please Welcome your girl “JustLuvMe”.
I heard the first call and it sounded like the voice of a young maiden calling me to join in the moonlight dance. As a girl whose root stretches from the fertile soil of the **Igbo** ethnic group of **Nigeria** in **Africa**, I knew the importance of ***moonlight dance.*** It is the very first dance every daughter of the land dreams about even before attaining the age of puberty. Every single maiden will always gather at the twilight when the moon is at its peak and has lighted the stage and every bush path that leads to the village square for the dance that unites and not divide them in the covenant of **sisterhood.** I stretched out my neck as high and far as I can to see who was calling me, but in the thick darkness of the night, I could not see not even a soul or an ant around me but the voice came calling again and this time it sounded more like my mother’s voice.
I was taken aback because I understood perfectly that my mother was 100’s of miles away from me and could not be the one calling. If my mother was not the one calling, **whose voice was I hearing?** I looked around and could not find anyone little did I know that my creator wanted to direct me towards my destiny. He called me again and this time I did not see him but I could hear his voice loud and clear. I answered his call and he said; **“*****I know you are a good writer dear friend therefore, I want to introduce you to a platform where you will be able to earn BCH by writing and interacting with others”.*** At first, I could not understand what he was saying not until he sent me the link to register with and that was how my story and journey into this great platform began.
****Introduction****
My friends call me Jenny love but I would want you all to know and address me as **“*****JustLuvMe”.*** Lol… I just want to be loved by everyone because I have a heart overflowing with love. I am not going to talk about myself so much in this introduction because I would want you to get to know me through my relationship with all that will interact with me on this platform. Don’t allow my lovely disposition to carry you away my sweethearts. I am very new here and I would want to learn every single thing I need to know in this platform so that I will do well here.
I hope you are ready to love me back my sweethearts. I will be happy to know you one after the other just as I go on this journey here. Please don’t hesitate to drop your profile link in my comment section because I would like to follow as many people as possible so that I can build my community and family of bloggers here. We are going to enjoy love together. Don’t forget to call me ***“JustLuvMe.*** See you in the comment section.
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