A Special Day? Maybe not.

Got lost of the date today. I thought June have 31st but sadly is hasn't. Apparently, tomorrow is my special day, my birthday. But should I consider it a "special" day?

Its not that I am not thankful to God for giving me life as well as to my parents. I am very thankful to them because I exist.

Talking about my birthday, I can't remember when was the last time I celebrated my birthday. Last year, my sister only bought a small birthday cake and greeted me, and that's it. No celebration. I never had a birthday celebration.

Since elementary I want my birthday to fall on weekends. Why? Because I don't want my classmates to know that its my birthday. When some of my classmates celebrated their birthday in school, they celebrate it in school which they brought foods like spaghetti, lumpia, hotdog, sandwich, juice, cake, etc. I think my classmates got used with the birthday celebration. They will asked everyone when is their birthdays and they will surely memorize it. If its your birthday, they will ask you if you will bring foods in class, a Jollibee is much prefer. But sorry to them, I came in not a well-off family.

I remember during 4th grade, it was my birthday. When I entered the classroom everyone is greeting me a happy birthday, of course I am happy, except the way the asked and demand for foods. They are asking me to treat them even food from canteen. I told them that I don't have many. My daily "baon" or allowance during that time is only 3 pesos. How can I treat them? But atleast some of my classmate understand me.

During recess, when I was about to went to the canteen, one of my classmate called me and hand me money(20 pesos) plus a rubberband (panahong usong uso yung rubberband para paglaruan). I asked what was that for and she simply told me that it was a birthday treat from one of my boy classmate. I was tongue-tied because I never expect it. After it sink in, I told him to gave it back because I won't accept it but my boy classmate insisted. I only accept the rubberband and gave the money back to him. I told him that I should be the one treating him because its my birthday but because I don't have money, I can't. That I really do appreciate his action and rubberband is enough as a birthday present.

I am very happy when my birthday falls during weekend. Only my family can greet me and that's fine with me. My mother will accompanied me to chapel and light a candle for my birthday.

During highschool, only few of my classmates knows my birthday, only my bestfriends and few classmates. They will greet me and that's it. Back to being a normal day.

After that, my birthday becomes a normal day, and I got used to it. A greetings from my family and friends and that's it. That's how I spend my birthday for the past years and I guess that's how I will do tomorrow. Nothing special, just a normal day.

I wantes to treat myself and unwind. Go to some places, but on the second thought I'll just stay at home. Being unemployed is such a great hassle and problem. Even if I want to treat myself, I can't because I only have enough money. Transportation fare hikes triple plus the foods I will spend if ever I will go. So inteads of spending money, might as well stay at home and give the money to my mother. I haven't given her enough money because I am unemployed.

Birthdays? Yes, its the time we should feel special. Be thankful of the life and all blessings we received. But for me, birthdays are just a normal day.

So, my birthday, Happy Birthday to me! Thank you God for another year. 😊

June 30, 2021

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