@John28 3 August 2021

Letting Go

Holding will cause more damage than letting go. -Anonymous At first, I thought my journey here on read cash would be easy as a piece of cake but I am wrong it becomes hard even if I try my best. That time I don't know what will I do and I let my emotions eat me. In July I only be able to publish just one article. I spent an hour, day, week, and month thinking about what will I do. I realize I pressure myself too much that is why I can't write even just one paragraph. In the whole of July, I just watch but those times I spent is worth it. I gained motivation to continue writing. I continue to write but some thoughts came to my mind. I don't know if I will continue as my old self or start a new self. My peaceful mind was ruined again and start to think again but in the end, I learn the right thing to do. I want to restart again but in a new self even if it hurts to abandon my old account I picked to be new. All the memories I got from the old ones will only remain on my mind. All the support I got from the old ones will only remain in my heart. Even if I don't want I need to let go to have a good life. Sometimes we need to let go of the old things because if we still hold our hope will become hopeless after all. I want to prove that letting go is a good choice but not all the time. After I made a new account good news came to me or should I call it a blessing from God. Since I start on this platform my goal is to be noticed by rusty but as I continue my hope is getting lower and lower until I want to give up but my friends show me support and hope and I continue my journey but in the end, I got hopeless because I still hold it and my little hope is still there. I realize what if I let it go and make a new one. I think carefully about it and decided to make a new one in the end. I gained many motivations and inspiration to start again and my choice to let go is worth it. My dream to be noticed by rusty came true. When I found out that rusty visits me my heartbeat became fast like I saw my crush on the street I want to jump like I won the lottery I want to shout like my crush answered a "yes". I realized there are things to let go of for a bright future. My journey here is now doing great because I let go of my old self. Not all the time letting go is a good choice sometimes it is a bad choice. I have a girl best friend who I always talk with we are always together eating lunch, break time or even going home. I didn't expect it, one day one of my classmates suspect us to be in a relationship even if not, I told him that it is not true but they don't believe it. I want a peaceful life and I don't want to be involved in the biggest lie. I started to draw the line I make a distance from her and our friendship start to be destroyed. I thought my decision is nice but I am wrong. Before we always talk and have chitchat but now I can't even start a conversation to get I feel ashamed and regretful about what I did. I became alone again on my chair and oy talking on my mind. Letting go is a choice but be ready for the consequences that you will get. Think about it not once but many times before you let it go.