In a confused state.

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In this picture, the wall looks painted and there are shadows on the wall. A guy who is the focus of the picture has his hoodie on and his face is covered with the cap of the hoodie. He is holding a syringe with a tight grip.

I feel that this guy needed to be alone, probably to think about something that he feels disturbed about. It seems that what which he is thinking about is also makes him confused. He also seems to be a drug addict.

In his confused state, he brings out a syringe that has the drug in it, now he is either trying to put it away or just proceed by injecting himself with it.

"I don't need your advice, just leave me alone", Richard said as he banged the door leaving his mom in awe.

It has been a long while she saw such a reaction from her son, what could be wrong with him, she wondered.

As a single mom, she had devoted her time to making sure that her son doesn't have to feel disturbed about the fact that he wasn't with his father. In as much as that wasn't her wish for her son, she had no choice but to live with it.

Today was one of those days being a single mom proved to be challenging. She had tried earlier to convince Richard about leaving the country to start something in the states and this was because a friend of her who resides there reached out to her that there was an opportunity and it would just be great if Richard takes it.

She told him this expecting him to be so excited and ready to leave immediately but the reaction was different.

What could be the problem?

What could have gone wrong?

She thought to herself.

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Richard had left the house and had gone to his usual place where he had his friends meet. He got there and discovered that there was no one there. *"quite unusual"*, he thought.

He took a wooden seat which he sat on and brought out the drink he had in his pocket.

He drank as he seized the moment to think about that which his mom had told him earlier.

He was worried about the oath that was taken during the period of the cult initiation. According to the oath, he cannot leave or travel to any other society until he has fulfilled the ritual of the cult which is to rob at least Three apartments on different occasions and has gotten a virgin to deflower if not he will die.

He thought hard about all of this, he was so confused, he didn't want to hurt anyone but he is left with a choice to die in other to escape from the guilt of hurting someone.

At this point, he got up from the seat, punched the water, and angrily borough out the drug he has been keeping. This was a drug given to him by one of the cult members who said it will help him forget about things that may bother him in the future.

He pulled out the cover of the syringe and was ready to inject himself. He paused for a while as he took a deep breath.