Scream in the Dark
Some nights I feel like I just want to die. Some nights when I hear how invaluable I am to you, I feel like I made the wrong choice. Some nights I just want to scream and scream and scream some more to make you stop. Some nights I want to be violent and just smack the hell out of you. Some nights I am suicidal caused by all the pain you put me through. Some nights I feel I needed a protection. Some nights I wish I go crazy while you put me in a hellish situation. Some nights I think I am alone and helpless. Some nights I feel all these in one night.
If you love me, why'd you do this? How can you do this? Or should I be asking 'Do you love me?' instead? Why do you give me so much pain? Why do you push me to my limit that I just want to scream for help in my head. I can't scream for help thinking I might hurt you when help arrives. So I scream inside my head. How can you be so cruel?
Loving you is so consuming. Loving you is soul tiring. Loving you makes me feel like I'm walking in thin glasses. Make one mistake and I'm screwed. Loving you is so depressing. Loving you feels like a hell on earth. Loving you makes me pity myself. Loving you is painful.
There has to be a way... There has to be a way to stop all the pain you cause... There has to be a way to stop you from hurting me. There has to be a way to see brightness. There has to be a way without us giving up on each other. There has to be a way.. Please, somebody show me a way.
Despite all the pain and trauma, here I am, stupidly still in love with you. When did I become so pathetic? How can I be so dumb?
I just want you to change. I pity those who are happy. I pity those who feel loved. I pity those who are taken cared of. I pity those who are valued. I pity those who experience goodness in love.
I don't see any light, it's so dark. I don't see a future, it's vague. I don't see smile in my face. I don't feel anything but hurt. I can't move. Writing is all I can do. I want to sleep. Sleep until it stops hurting. I don't want to wake up if waking up means I will still be hurting. I just want to sleep and feel nothing.
Help! Help me! Help me stop the whispers in my head. Help me stop my head from playing the scene over and over again. Help me stoo arguing with myself inside my head. Make me stop screaming inside. Help me! Help me!
FICTION....
Jdine 🖤🖤🖤
Pay NetFlix using Gcash (American Express Virtual Card)
Many Filipinos don't have credit cards or debit cards to pay for Netflix. Many don't have postpaid plans for cellular companies, as well.
But did you know, you can pay and have a legit NetFlix subscription through Gcash? I know there are so many posts on Facebook selling cheap NetFlix subscriptions without you having to open an account or anything. Honestly, I don't know how that works or if it's legal or legit. But I don't want to judge them for doing so. Anyways, this post isn't about them. This article is for people who want to own their own NetFlix subscription and have full control of their account.
NetFlix is one of the leading home entertainment to watch various genres of films.. To original Netflix films, series to documentaries and so much more. We are all aware of what NetFlix is and how awesome it is.
****What you need in Gcash:****
**First, you need to have a verified Gcash account.**
*To do this:*
Log in or create an account in Gcash
Tap Menu (three lines on the left corner of the screen)
Choose the option Get Fully Verified
Select a Valid ID you have (UMID, Driver's License, Passport)
Take a clear photo of your ID and hit NEXT(Front and Back or whatever it states)
Take a selfie of you holding your ID. Make sure that the photo is clear.
Fill in the information asked
Review and Submit. Wait for the confirmation that you're application has been approved. You will be notified asap.
****You also need to have AMERICAN EXPRESS VIRTUAL CARD activated in Gcash. (This is free and no maintaining balance is needed, so don't worry)****
To do this:
Open Gcash App. (Log in)
Select "Show More" on the home screen.
Under "Lifestyle and Shopping", select "Pay online".
Select "Pay with American Express Virtual Card"
Enter your email and click "Register"
Select "Okay", and a text and an email confirmation will be sent to you.
Link your American Express Virtual Card by going to the "My Linked Accounts" tab in the Menu. Click on American Express Virtual Card and you will see all the details you need for NetFlix. (CVV Code will be sent to you via text.)
****How to pay Netflix using your Gcash:****
Sign in to Netflix.
Select "See the plans"
Select the plan desired and hit "Continue"
Select "Debit or Credit Card" as your payment method.
Enter the details from your American Express Virtual Card details. (Make sure to type the exact details from your American Express Virtual Card in Gcash. You can view the details in "My Linked Accounts" in your Gcash App. (CVV Code of your American Express Virtual Card is sent to you via text)
Select "AGREE" and "Start Membership"
Aaaand there you have it! Your own legit Netflix account! Just make sure you have enough balance in your Gcash when starting a membership in Netflix as it automatically deducts the amount in your Gcash. You will also receive a text and email confirmation from Netflix about the successful payment. You can now watch, worry-free! Enjoy and I hope this helps!
***Additional Info: You can also use American Express Virtual Card with Amazon, Spotify, and so much more to pay online purchases!*
🖤🖤Jdine
Hi!! Just want to ask ..
My wallet here in Readcash is imported in bitcoin.com.. I just noticed that the amount indicated here in readcash is different from what I see in bitcoin.com. Is there a reason why?
Also.... I withdrew my earnings here in readcash and sent it to coinsph wallet but it didn't get through... The amount in readcash is deducted but the money in Bitcoin.com is still there though it wasn't the same as my previous balance in readcash...
Can somebody help me with this?
One day...
One day you will have someone who gets you even when everybody gets you wrong. One day, you will have someone to hold you when you feel scared. One day, you will have someone hug you when you're about to fall. One day, you will have someone to notice you without you making an effort.
One day, you won't have to wait for a text late at night. One day, you won't have to worry about him cheating on you when you're not around. One day, you won't have to make a fight just to have time. One day, you won't have to read and hear lies from some inconsiderate fools.
One day, you will not be the only one giving your all. One day, you will have someone to stay beside you no matter what.One day, you will have someone not afraid to give love a chance. One day, you won't be the only one feeling hurt.
One day, you won't have to demand for things you deserve. One day, you won't have to lower your standards. One day, you won't have to beg. One day, you won't have to settle for anything less than you deserve. One day, you won't have to force someone for an explanation. One day, you won't have to force someone to apologize.
One day, you will be brave enough to know your worth. One day, you will be wise enough to know when to stop. One day, you will be in in-charge of your own happiness. One day, you will be more than enough to someone. One day, you will be loved and protected like you should have.
One day, you'll have your father, bestfriend, teammate, biggest supporter and a lover all wrapped in one person. One day... Until that they, cherish the moment you have for yourself and don't rush things.
One day, you will be contented and be happy. One day you'll be who completes someone. One day, you will be all that matters. One day, you will be someone's top priority. One day, you will forget all the pain and just feel blessed and thankful that the day has come.
Words kill
There are times you feel so betrayed and you can't get out of the pain. It's sad how people can push and pin you in the ground with their actions or worse, with just their words.
Have you ever felt like the most important person in your life who you thought will be holding you tight not to fall into pieces is the one who shattered your soul?
Have you ever felt like being interrogated by someone with something you did that doesn't even concern them? Be questioned by your mistakes that didn't involve them.
Have you ever felt so tired of explaining yourself to something you didn't do? Something that they keep asking you and you're not comfortable with...
Have you ever felt sooo exposed to someone that forced you to tell a story you didn't want to?
Have you ever been insulted by someone so dear to you with things about your past? Have you felt so insulted by the wrong person?
Have you ever felt like giving up to something you cherish more than anything else just because it's starting to hurt as much?
Have you ever forced yourself to forgive someone because you want to stop the pain and still want them to hold you while you cry?
Words kill. Words hurt as much as physical pain. Words can be depressing. Words can't be erased once said. Words can't heal words. Words can crush your soul. Words are as deadly as they can be dearly. Words become thoughts. Words become emotions. Words change how you feel. Words are as powerful as your brain. Words are what you feed your brain. Words are what shows who you are to them. Words are crucial. Words are dangerous.
You can't insult someone, mean it and say sorry when you felt like okay after saying it. You don't crush a soul and act like it was okay because you are also in pain. You don't disrespect a person's dignity just because you think you have the power to. You don't mistreat people and use hurtful words to them just because you can. You don't hurt someone you love with words and expect them to forget everything you said afterwards. You don't hurt others with your words and make them feel so little of themselves. You don't use hurtful words to make yourself feel good. You don't hurt people with words especially those who love you and stood by you in every storm.
These people will be hurt These people will be devastated. These people will be crushed. These people will be depressed. These people will lose their confidence and these people will become broken into pieces.
It's never okay. It will never be. There's no justification and there's no valid reason. They are humans and they will feel. They are humans and they will always carry those words, whether they like it or not.
Be careful, be wise, be sensitive. It's not all about you. You are not alone in this world.
Tips|Netflix
Do you want to let your favorite niece or your kid have netflix access with your account so she can watch too but she's far and you can't log in your account in her device yourself? There's no other way but to give her your log in details OR buy her a subscription of her own. But you have a premium account and can't afford (or just won't) to buy another subscription. There's a way to be safe even when you give her your log in details. But of course, mind that you should NEVER give out your details to someone you don't trust with your life. Never give out informations. Giving out your login details put your account at risk. So be very very very extra super duper careful.
What happens if you want to upgrade or downgrade your subscription? What happens when your account is put on hold and why? Why can't you view some shows that you're certain are in Netflix's list.
In this post, I will share with you tips in using Netflix and be more satisfied with your subscription. Here, I will show you some facts and tips about how Netflix works and answer to some of the most asked questions about Netflix.
Share your netflix account (only to trusted person like kids, close relative, or a family member) ******again! share only to trusted person. this is risky! share at your own risk!*****
-Change your password first to something you can share with them. something that's different to your original password. Then after she logs in your account, change the password to your original password and uncheck the option'Require all devices to sign in again with new password'. This will let them still have access and watch videos but they cannot log out or log in the account to another device. They are also not allowed to update the app as it will log them out and have to ask you again for the password. They can still view the 'accounts' page but they can't do anything cause they will be required to put a password which you already changed. Safe, yes... Safest, no. Cause if you have given a permission to someone you don't trust and changed the password before you do, you're screwed.
-Create a different profile for them and have your own profile be passcode protected. This way they can't access the main profile of the account. It's also better if you put a passcode to their profile before you change the password of the account. So they can't change it and lock you out in their profile. (Profile is different from username. profiles are used to differentiate which person is viewing)
Just like you have the power to cancel your subscription anytime, you also have the option to upgrade or downgrade your subscription anytime you want.
When you upgrade your subscription, it will automatically be upgraded and you can enjoy the new benefits immediately, while you will be billed with the new subscription in the next billing date. You can see when in your account page.
When you downgrade, you will still enjoy the benefits of your current subscription and the downgrade will take effect on your next billing date with the new subscription billed. You can see when in accounts page.
So basically, when you upgrade, you will immediately enjoy your new upgrade features and be billed with it on the next billing date. Sounds fun? 😁
And when you downgrade, it will only take effect (viewing features and new bill) on the next billing date.
Now, let's talk about your account being on hold for payment reasons. Let's say you're using a prepaid card with your Netflix or you're using Gcash (for Philippines) as your payment method. NetFlix automatically deducts payments. So when your card or gcash doesn't have a balance, Netflix will notify you that the payment has issues and that your account is on hold.
Good thing is, you still have one week to watch in NetFlix when your account is on hold. After that, you will be logged out and will be asked to set up your payment details again.. When you updated your payment within 6 months, you will still log in your details and your lists and profile will still be there. After 6 months, your lists, history and profiles will be erased and it will look like a new account.
There are a lot of movies and tv shows Netflix offers. But unfortunately, you can't have access to all of these depending on the region or country you are in. There are movies that can be viewed in NETFLIX US that you can't view in NETFLIX PH. This is because of the restrictions in every country.
You can only do so when you use VPN.
Here are NetFlix subscriptions available in the Philippines:
Netflix mobile plan: Good for students or subscribers that use only phone. This subscription entails you to view a mobile phone/tablet with one screen at a time.
Netflix Basic: You can watch from phone/tablet/TV/PC... But can only have one screen at a time to watch.
Netflix Standard: You can view from phone/tablet/TV/PC... can watch 2 screens at a time.
NetFlix Premium: You can view from phone/tablet/TV/PC... can watch 4 screens at a time.
Share and Watch NetFlix Movies with Friends
Have you ever had that moment where you want to watch a Netflix movie with someone in real-time and enjoy the moment? A moment where you both watch the same Netflix movie on one screen even when they're far and also have a conversation while you watch the movie?
Well, good news! I will share with you how you can have a NetFlix live watch party with your friends!
I introduce to you, Teleparty!
Teleparty which is previously known as Netflix Party is an extension that you can install in your browser to have your friends enjoy the movie you are currently watching by giving them the URL that Teleparty will provide. It synchronizes playback and has a chatbox on the right side of the page so you can chat with your friends while watching the movie. With that said, it only works on browsers as you and your friend will need to install the extension for it to work. Your friends should also have a Netflix account to join.
How does it work?
Install the Teleparty extension. Here's the link. https://chrome.google.com/webstore/detail/netflix-party-is-now-tele/oocalimimngaihdkbihfgmpkcpnmlaoa?hl=en
Pin it in your toolbar. It is located on the right side of your address bar at the end. Click and pin it.
Go to your Netflix account and play a video. Click on the Teleparty icon and check the "Only I have Control" and click "Start the party".
It should look something like this after you start the party:
Click on the Teleparty Icon to show the link to share to your friends:
Copy the URL and share it with your friends. Have them paste in in a browser on a desktop where Teleparty extension is also installed. If they haven't installed it yet, you can ask them to install it for free too! Now you can watch a movie together even when you are not really together! 😅
*****Pros and Cons:*****
***Pros***: You can watch a movie in real-time with someone. You can also chat with them while watching. You can pause, forward/backward, play as you wish.
***Cons***: Your friend should also have the Teleparty extension install in her browser and they also have to have a NetFlix account which makes it time-consuming for everyone to set up the movie for the first time.
I think this is helpful if you are all willing to take the extra measures to install the extension for the first time using it. It will be worth it though. This is perfect for lovers in LDR, for friends that are in each of their homes.
Here's the link to the website should you wish to learn more:
https://www.netflixparty.com/
Thanks for reading! Leave a comment and let me know what you think about this extension!
🖤🖤🖤
Jdine
We all have a different story
We all have our side of the story. People may think you're the villain and others will think otherwise.
Every person has their own version or 'truth' depending on many factors. Factors that determine how they see every situation.
But who are we to judge someone about her opinion or view? Who are we to say that what they feel is invalid? Why do we judge them based on our own opinion if we can't respect their opinion.
We, as humans, react based on how we feel and think. We react based on how we see things. We react based on how the situation affects us. Does that makes us selfish and insensitive? Maybe... But that does not mean it makes us a bad person. Being unselfish and insensitive are two things we are required to be sometimes. At times, these two are what help us get through things. When we become selfish and insensitive, we are able to protect ourselves from bullies. When we become selfish and insensitive, we are able to protect ourselves from toxic relationships.
We can be like this SOMETIMES... NOT ALWAYS... Because, as what we all know, too much of everything is bad. Too much is unhealthy for you and for other people.
Balance is what makes you still a good person. Knowing when to stop and knowing when to use these traits is what makes the difference. And sometimes, there's just a fine fine line between overstepping and being in the right side.
We are allowed to make mistakes. We are going to make mistakes as long as we live. How we get through mistakes is what matters. What we do after is what defines us.
So don't he afraid to be selfish for your own good sometimes. Don't be afraid to disappoint people with your choices that you think is best for you. Don't he afraid to make mistakes. This is how we learn, this is how we survive, this is how we protect ourselves. But also don't forget when to stop and don't overdo it and it's also a must to be sensitive towards other people sometimes.. Balance.. Balance is the key...
*Thanks for reading! Don't forget to like, comment, subscribe and Upvote!*
Tama pa ba ito...?
Okay. So, matagal akong nawala.... nanaman... At alam ko, madami sa inyo nakataas na talaga ang kilay na mabasa ito. Alam ko may nga di pa ako nadistribute sa inyo.
Ayoko na magsabi ng reason or dahilan or kahit ano kahit ng dates kung kailan... Kasi everytime I do, d naman natutuloy.. Pero maniwala kayo, hindi ko nakakalimutan yun. Everyday, nilalabanan ko yung urge na magsulat dito sa readcash dahil sa hiya. Oo, nahihiya ako sa inyong lahat na nagparticipate. Nahihiya ako kasi I let you down. Alam ko, I let you down.
Sinadya ko talagang di muna magsulat at magparamdam sa readcash at noisecash dahil sa hiya ko humarap sa inyo. Which is alam ko mali... Alam ko naman mali pero ewan ko ba. Wala talaga.
Pero ngayon nagdecide ako na magsulat na ulit para makaipon ako ng ibbgay ko sa inyo kesa sa iasa ko siya sa sweldo ko sa trabaho ko dahil napupunta din yung sweldo ko sa kailangan ng pamilya ko.
Kaya kung mamarapatin niyo, babalik na ako, magsusulat na ulit ako at aasahan kong kung may feedback man kayo sa akin or tanong or kahit anong comment tungkol sa contest dati, sana dito nalang sa post na ito ninyo ako i-ask... sa mga gusto naman ako ma-contact tungkol sa prizes nila, pwede niyo i-email sa jdinecryptoblogger@gmail.com
Nahihiya ako sa inyo pero alam ko eventually kailangan ko din kayong harapin at eto ako naglalakas loob humarap sa inyo...
Sorry ulit sa late na prizes niyo. puro sorry nalang... pero dnko nakakalimutan, I swear at wala din akong balak hindi ibigay.. paisa isa, pakunti kunti maibbgay ko lahat sa inyo yun...
So ayun nga, babalik na ako para magsulat. Hoping na walang judgement sa mga tao, and hoping na may magsupport pa din... Pag-uusapan cguro ako in private pero, that's fine. I understand. you're also free to email me sa mga pang bash or anything. 😅 Peo keep in mind na, I will only explain to my participants. Wala akong kailangan iexplain sa iba para di na lumaki ang usapan dba hehe...
Sa mga anjan pa din, salamat... Maraming salamat talaga. Sa mga naniniwala pa din at sumusuporta, tatayo ako ulit sa pagkakadapa ko para sa inyo. And I will make sure na firm na ang pagkkatayo ko this time. Sa mga natatawa nalang sa akin, keribels mga beshy... I know my story and alam ko ang totoo. Alam ko ang laman ng heart ko and yun ang mahalaga. at syempre ang maibigay ko ang prizes yun ang pinakamahalaga haha. so ayun, magsusulat na ulit ako, para makaipon ng pambigay sa prizes.
@Charlotte @Sarahmay @Hykheinysha
Kayo nalang yung di ko pa nabbgyan noh? kindly email me... jdinecryptoblogger@gmail.com
Thanks and I will see you in my future articles...
🖤💜🖤
Jdine
Let me love you (Part 3)
Jena asked Hank to rest after they ate dinner. Jena grabbed a pillow and blanket in her room and handed it over to Hank.
"You should get some rest. It's been a long day for us both." Jena sighed.
Jena's sadness is obvious in her face and Hank can also sense it.
"Yeah. It was.. Thanks for these..." referring to the blanket and pillow. It's the same pillow and blanket Hank always use when he sleeps over to Jena. He does sleep over sometimes and always stay on the couch. He rested his body and bid goodnight as Jena walks into her room.
"Goodnight, Jen! Sweet dreams..." with a very sincere tone.
"Night, Hank. Sleep well.." And she closes her bedroom door.
As Jena get ready to go to sleep, removed her makeup and cleaned up, she remembers her conversation with Morgan. She still don't understand why he's so upset. Part of her understand him but a huge part of her don't get why it has to turn up a huge fight. She understand the disappointment, but she thinks that it's doesn't have to be so deep for them to break up. It's not even clear for her if they did break up.
She went into her bed and tried to go to sleep... She read a book for her to divert her thoughts and for her to sleep. And she did.
Jena heard noises in the kitchen so she got up to check for Hank. She saw Hank cooking breakfast. 'Oh he's early,' she said to herself.
"Good thing you're awake!," said Hank when he sees Jena standing at her bedroom door. "See, I was gonna eat this all up if you wake up late. This goodies should not be put to waste." And he winked.
"Ahh Really.. Done with all the drama, eh?" she mocked her back. He frowned and she giggled. "What's for breakfast, Chef?" she starts to walk towards the kitchen..
"Sit down and find out." he said.
Jena sat down beside the table as Hank get the food ready. He knows he still needs to confess. He knows he still needs to explain and he knows Jena will ask about it. He plans to do this after they have breakfast. He doesn't wanna ruin Jena's breakfast. She deserves it.
They were happy talking while eating breakfast when Hank cleared his throat. They're about to finish the food and he thinks it's the right time to talk serious.
"About last night..."he started. Jena looked at her and nod.
"How am I supposed to start this.." he muttered, didn't know what to say.
Jena, confused, tried to asked questions instead. "Why don't you start of with what were you feeling last night? Why were you disappointed?"
Hank looked at him, thinking Jena might already know what's he feeling already. He composes himself and started talking. "I told you last night that I was afraid that I might lose the one girl I love so much. That's true..." he moved closer to Jena. Hank grabbed Jena's hand.
"Jena, we've been friends since we don't even know when. We've been through so much. I care about you. I... You know that right?" he said. Jena just nodded. "Jena, I ... I love you. I love you not only as my bestfriend. I love you.. I love you much much deeper than you know..."
Jena's heart started to beats fast. Now she's confused. She cares about Hank. She knows she loves him too. All this time she knows she loves him as a brother, as a friend. And now, hearing Hank's confession makes her uneasy and confused if she also felt the same way or is it something she can't give him back. And with this confusion, she didn't realize her tears started to flow...
"I... I d-don't know what to say.. I don't know how to feel... what I feel.. I'm confused, Hank..." she slowly said.
"I'm sorry, Jen. Morgan was about to propose last night, and I freaked out, I got scared you'd say yes and lose you... Bu-"
"I'm sorry, what??! Morgan's supposed to propose last night? And you did all that just to let me stay?" Jena yelled. "well, that's kinda selfish, don't you think?" Now she understand why Morgan was so upset. And she hates that Hank fooled him into staying last night.
"I'm sorry Jen.. I'm sorry..." he pleaded.
Jen looked at his eyes. She cares. She loves him. She can't stay mad at him. She sighed. "Alright...Okay, I forgive you... But.. I want to be alone for now.. Please.. I want to be alone. Just go home."
Hank stood up and reached Jena's hand "I'll call you later. Let's talk later. "
"No don't.. I will call you when I'm ready... Hank, you know I care for you, right? you know I love you. I just have to figure out how deep." she doesn't want Hank to get hurt. She doesn't want to be the reason to. But she also doesn't want to hurt Morgan. She's so confused. She also stood up and went to her bedroom door.
"Lock the door when you go, will you?" she said as she walks towards her bedroom without looking back.
A/N
Now that Hank confessed, who would Jena choose? Hank or Morgan? Let me know what you think...
*****If you haven't read the previous parts:*****
**Let me Love you Part 1** https://read.cash/@Jdine/let-me-love-you-38570e3d
**Let me Love you Part 2** https://read.cash/@Jdine/let-me-love-you-part-2-59b440a1
Thanks for reading!
Distribution of Prizes!!!
Hello guys! The day for the contribution is now officially set. I am requesting everyone who won to comment down below for me to know that it's okay for me to know if you're active here or if I can send you in a different BCH address.
Again guys, I'm really sorry if it took too long for the distribution of prizes. But.. Better late than never, right? :) I know some of you have been waiting for this for so long already. Some are disappointed, some are okay with it. I totally get it. I understand. And I'm happy that I already have final dates for the distribution. This is it!
The distribution will be on Monday Jan 11 PHT (or earlier) and all winners have until Monday to comment if you're active. If you weren't able to comment till Monday, I will send you tip when you comment. Just so I know you still have access to your BCH wallet.
The winners for the Contest are:
****The Grand prize**** goes to: $15
@Charlotte
***1st Runner up*** goes to: **$10**
@Hykheinysha
***2nd runner up*** goes to: **$5**
@Sarahmay
***Consolation prizes:*** **$1 each (Everyone done)**
@avie018 `(done)`, @Eybyoung`(done)`, @Mark012207 `(done)` and @curlypopp `(done)`
Voters who gets 0.10 each:
@Nameless , @CryptoConsultant , @Zerg , @bbang ,@Omar , @Mitch123 , @TomZ , @CryptoLemon, @Marky75, @Mark012207`(done)` , @Cristy , @Sarahmay `(done)`, @ladyhanabi , @Psychez , @Mr_Yoso , @BitcoinBCH , @Eybyoung`(done)`,@Durjoy , @bheng620`(done)`,@Jeaneth `(done)`
Done:
Consolation Prizes $1 each: @Eybyoung(done) @Mark012207 (done) @avie018 (done) @curlypopp (done)
Lucky Voters: @bheng620(done) , @Jeaneth(done), @Eybyoung(done), @Sarahmay (done), @Mark012207 (done)
Thanks for joining the contest and I'm really sorry for the delay...
We all know about how the pandemic affects us all even with the big companies. I know it's not enough to justify the delay, but I still want to share. It has been a crazy past several months for me, for us. But still we choose to stand up again and this time, firm. We choose what our future holds us. So I'm choosing to end the disappointment of my supporters and give them what they deserved. Not only just to end the disappointment but also because I know that what you won is truly what you deserve. What you will get in tips in this contest is the prize of your support and hardship. What you will get in this contest is what was promised to you.
I want to start 2021 right and with hope. I want to settle all unsettled things in 2020. 2020 was tough but this 2021, we are tougher.
I also want to take this opportunity to thank everyone that waited so patiently and those who understood me. Those who still supports me even through my flaws. Those who still believes in me. I will and will always be grateful to you guys... :) I will not still be here if not for you all. I love you guys!!
Okay! Enough with the drama and let's begin with the celebration. I will be waiting for the comments. I may distribute the prizes right away or on January 11 PHT. But I will make sure that all winners will get their prizes.
Thanks again and stay safe!!
Is this how I'm gonna end my year?
After months of unfortunate events... after all that's happened.. the pandemic.. the breakdown.. How Am I really gonna end my year today?
This is the last day of the year. A day that we can say goodbye to all the bad things that happened this year. A day when we're supposed to look forward for tomorrow. for the year ahead.
I want to end the year happy. I just want to feel hope for next year. I want to end the year with full of positivity. I want to end the year with someone I can move forward to. I want to end the day with faith.
I feel blessed that with everything that's happening in the world, I can still end the year breathing. I get to end it alive. I feel blessed cause I have all the support I need. I feel blessed because the people I love is still here beside me. I feel blessed because He gives me so much blessings.
I may not have all the things I wanted, but I have all the things and people I need to continue. I have won battles I never thought I can.
I may feel blessed but I'm still human. I still feel weakness. No one knows that I still fight battles and cry like a child when no one can see me. Not that I am ungrateful but because I feel.. I can feel things that hurt me and strength isn't given yet. Maybe He's making me process things first. Or is teaching me things first before he grant me the peace I needed.
It's not much of a pain. Just a little worry I have inside. Not that much of a deal. And before I end this year, I claim that my wish is granted. I claim that everything will fall into place. That when the clock strikes 12, I am newly born with more hope, faith and peace. I claim it.
It's not that I am devastated now, maybe a little bit sad, but not to the point that I'm depressed or any sort. I'm a little sad. Once in a while we all feel this way. Once in a while we are given this feeling to balance our life. Balance is everything. Too much happiness is not good, same with too much sadness. But with a little but of sadness when you feel so happy is okay, I think. And happiness when you've been sad is okay as well, I'm sure.
Nevertheless, I still want to end the year happy and that's what I'm gonna do. With my family, we will look forward to the year to come. 🤗
Happy New Year, Everyone! Whatever your battles are right now, I wish you also win it as I win mine. We can do this in the name of Almighty! Be happy and have faith!
In your love
I saw you standing there. You're so breathtaking.
Your brown eyes that stares at me melts the ice inside me that was built by someone else. One smile and I can feel my soul melt. Your scent so sweet that reminds me of morning bliss. The way you walk that looks so satisfactory. Your hair that shines through the sunlight.
I just want to be with you. I want to get lost with you. I want to run away with you. I want to hold on like this and never let go. I want to spend the rest of my days with you. I want to see your face first thing in the morning and feel your warm hug while sleeping to end my day. I just wanna love.
Let me be your barista. Let me prepare you drinks you like and serve you snacks you want. And be your chef to cook for you. Let me be your blanket when you feel cold. Let me be the reason of your smile and inspiration. Let me be your Queen and your Princess. Let me be the girl you turn to when you feel lost. Let me be your guide, your light, your walls, your everything. Let me be the woman you want. Let me be your sunshine.
I will do anything for you. I will support you whenever. I will love you like you've never loved before. I will do you like you've never done before. I will give you everything I can. I will be submissive and be a good girl. I will be your Eve in present time.
Be mine forever. Be my Adam.. A man so loving and strong. Be with me through thick and thin. Be the light in my darkness. Be the King of our castle. Be my plus one. Be my better half. Be the missing piece in my being that can only complete me.
I've never felt this way before. An intense feeling of love, you have awaken. I love all the things you do for me. I love that you calm me down. I love your charm and I can't resist it. I love the magic I feel when you're near. I love the feeling that the love you give is meant for me. I love that I don't have to be alone with you.
Carry me. Carry me till the sun sets down. Carry me till the sun rise up. Carry me while the moon lights up the night. Carry me while the stars brighten up the skies. Carry me through the storm and carry mw under the rainbow. Carry me in your thoughts and heart every single day. I will do the same.
I see in your eyes the beauty of love, I see in your eyes the beauty of life. I see in your eyes my future. I see in your eyes the sincerity of every moment.
You are my hope. You are the what I dreamt of. You are the one that gives color in my life. You are the reason I keep on going on. The reason I come home.
It all came so sudden that I realized I love you. I don't know why, I don't know what I feel. I tried to explain what's happening in me but I can't find the perfect words to express it. I hope one day I can explain how much you mean to me. I hope you feel the same way too...
I think I loved you already in my past life. And I know I love you so much now.. And I know I will love you more everyday... When I say love, I meant deep. It's so deep and true that I can't move on with my life without you.
Come close to me now and listen to my heart. Come close to me now and hug me so tight. Come close to me now and let's close our eyes. Feel the vibrations, feel the intensity, feel the love. Come, my love. Hold my hand and hug me tight.
Happy New Year Everyone!!!!
Jdine 💕
Watched him fall for someone else...
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else. It is never easy. It can be very depressing.
I have been friends with him the longest time. We share a bond that no one else can replace. A bond that can't be easily destroyed. A bond that has a connection that only two souls can understand. Or at least that's how I felt.
I love him. I don't know how or when it started, I just felt it. So I think that means I love him since I can remember. I remember when we were still kids and he'd defend me to the 'bullies' (as to what he calls them). It doesn't matter if I'm wrong as long as he sees me disappointed, he'll tag the other person as a bully. We often talk about this and laugh at our childishness those times.
We have our moments.. Those sweet ones. But we also do have bad times. We also fight. And what makes me love him more is that he knows how to make me feel better. He know what to do. He knows how to tame me. And he does. He always does.
I never had the chance to tell him I love him. He knows I love him. But I don't think he knows how deep. It's easy to fall in love with him. He's sweet, caring and funny. He looks good too, I must add. I don't know if I can ever tell him how much I love him. I'm afraid to lose him because of my selfishness and stupidity.
He's got his eye for a different girl. A girl I can never compete with. She's pretty and smart. I don't know her well so I can't say if she's kind. But he likes her so much. He's been courting her since the start of this school year. Me being a stupid girl and a good best friend, I support him.
Last night he called me. His voice very ecstatic. Very happy. He told me the girl he's courting finally said yes. I smiled and tried to fake a natural happy-for-your-bestfriend kinda look. Tried to push my voice out to congratulate him. He looks so happy. His smile, I've seen that several times and I know that what that smile means.
It went dark afterwards. It became so dark. I can't see any lights. I feel so lonely. I want to cry and run to my best friend to comfort me. But how can I do that if he's the reason? I want to tell him I love him but even if I have the courage now it's too late.. He would not understand. He will not accept. He will just go away. I've already lost the man I love, lost a little hope I have with him... I don't want to lose my best friend too..
I will love him still.. I know I will. Love him unrecognized. I would love him without him knowing.. I will support him. I should be happy because he's happy. I should be happy for him. It's hard. It's hard to be happy when you're dying inside. I will continue to be his best friend and he will continue to my best friend and the love I never had. The dream I never had. He will remain to be just a dream I will never come true.
#FICTION #NOTTRUETOLIFE
Lost In Your Universe
"I want to get lost.. Deep in your arms lost... Deep in your love lost..." - Franco.
Have you ever loved a song not only because of it's lyrics but also because of it's beat? This is a personal view on the song "Lost In your Universe" by Franco.
Franco is a rock band in the Philippines with original members that consist of Franco on vocals and other band members from different rock bands namely Gabby of Urbandub and 8 Toleran of Queso on guitar, Buwi of Parokya ni Edgar on bass guitar and Janjan of Urbandub on drums. However this superband lineup got disbanded in the mid-2012 and regrouped. The band now consists of Franco still as lead vocal, Paul Cañada on guitar, Dave Delfin on bass and Victor Guison on drums.
Their genre includes reggae rock which I really love. I met them once in one of their gigs and I was lucky enough to be backstage with few of their supporting bands that night. The gig was hosted by a friend of mine and almost all the supporting bands that performed that night are my friends. Spell lucky, huh.. They're so cool.. I can't describe how cool they are. They're amazing.
Going back to the song....
I love the beat.The vibe makes you wanna groove just right. Gives me the feeling of wanting to drink and chill at moonlight in an island with someone to cuddle with.. and.... yeah chill.. did I say chill already.. The beat, I can't get tired of. A beat I can play 24 hours for days and still has the same impact since day one. (Yeah I'm actually listening to it right now!)
When I first heard of this song, the first few lines, I thought, "aww the texts are so sweet..." Then came to the part that confused me the first time I heard the song. Haha Right then and there I thought it may not be a love song. But it's just one word which I can replace with in my mind and it will be a perfect love song again. So I decided to replace that one word with "baby" and sometimes when I feel like it I don't replace it cause it's still amazing with or without replacing that one word.
It's no surprise though. Franco is really amazing with their music. Even their music video... I find him similar to Negan of The Walking Dead too. Maybe the looks, the badass/cool vibe they both have. I think they look similar physically, don't you think?
Anyways, below you can find the lyrics and the video for you to listen to. I hope you'll like it just like I do. Enjoy! Tell me what you think on the comments section below!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6UnvM4d5W68
Here's the lyrics for your reference:
I catch your glimpses one by one
There's lovin underneath the sun
I want to fall in-love with you
I want to make love to you
I want to get lost
Deep in your arms lost
Deep in your love lost
Lost in your universe
Deep in your heart lost
Without ya doobie I'd be lost
Lost in your love
Your love your love your love
You're my island gyal
My wonderous star
Who set my heart ablaze
You're my luminous light
Who guide my nightAnd set my night to day
If you want to be my number one
Come run away with me
Seeen
I want to get lost
Deep in your arms lost
Deep in your love lost
Lost in your universe
Deep in your heart lost
Without ya doobie I'd be lost
Lost in your love
Your love your love your love
Lord I
I wish upon a shooting star
Ahh I
To take me with you near or far
To be with you is like heaven
You take my blues away
And you rock me all night
I want to get lost
Deep in your arms lost
Deep in your love lost
Lost in your universe
Deep in your heart lost
Without ya doobie I'd be lost
Lost in your love
Your love your love your love
Lord I'd give
Anything for us to be together
Eve wasn't Adam's first wife...?
Yes. As to what I have learned, Eve wasn't Adam's first wife...
The ancient Jewish Myth opposes that Eve was the first woman. They believe that before Eve, Lilith came first. Unlike in the Abrahamic religion belief that Eve was the first woman. We all know that Eve was taken from Adam's rib to be Adam's companion or rather, wife. But Lilith emerged from the same dust and clay as Adam.
Lilith didn't want to be dominated by Adam, she did not submit to him because she thought she was equal to him since they are created the same way and time. They both lived in the Garden of Eden but Lilith, as mentioned earlier was not at all willing to submit to Adam so she opted out to the Garden of Eden when she was given a choice. She went into exile and went near the Red Sea. God sent angels to Lilith to convince her to return to the Garden of Eden but she refused. The angels discovered that Lilith was with her children and also told her that they will kill 100 of her babies everyday if she refuse. She turned her back on God, and because of that, she was demonized.
Without a companion, Adam became lonely, so God decided to create a new woman for Adam, and that was Eve. Eve wasn't present when Adam was commanded about the forbidden fruit but she knows very well about it. And we know why they were expelled from the Garden of Eden. It is when Eve succumbed by the temptation of the snake, ate the forbidden fruit and shared it with Adam.
Lilith went back to the Garden of Eve one time and sees that Adam was happy with his new wife. They were both happy (Adam and Eve). She was very submissive. She was very obedient to her husband. She listens and do what he says. Lilith became more pissed and wanted revenge.
Lilith, in her demonized form, she has the power to give disease to a newborn child. She also told the angels that she will kill newborn babies with baby boys are at most risk with 8 days after they're born and girls with 20 days after. However, she promised not to kill those with amulets with the angels' name. So to protect the babies, amulets were given with the names of the angels that were sent to convince Lilith to return to Garden of Eve. And the shocking part is that Lilith, out of jealousy and act of revenge, imitated the shape of a snake and tricked and forced Eve and Adam to eat the forbidden fruit that caused them to be expelled from Garden of Eve. (SHOCKING FOR ME BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW IT WAS LILITH IMPERSONATING AS A SERPENT)
Lilith is also believed to be Lucifer's wife and the Queen of the damned but others say it isn't true and it's only in the movies. And that Lilith was Samael's wife instead of Lucifer. But for sure, many would agree that Lilith is a demonic figure which brings lust especially to men which also causes them wet dreams and and sexy day dreams. They said that Lilith takes the the lust and create babies when a man masturbate and spread it (lust) to the world.
Lilith's story's said to be rejected by Catholics and is not present in the Christian bible. She was often regarded as the first feminist and was claimed to be unfairly demonized and she was embraced by some feminist movement as most of the women in our history being independent and strong woman. May it be a symbol of woman's struggle or a demonic figure, Lilith's story is still of much interest.
"Resources:"
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eve#:~:text=According%20to%20the%20origin%20story,Adam%2C%20to%20be%20Adam's%20companion.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lilith#:~:text=For%20example%2C%20in%20the%2013th,coupled%20with%20the%20archangel%20Samael.
https://www.quora.com/How-are-Lilith-and-Lucifer-related
Lead Image credits to:
Eolewyn1010 from Deviantart
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https://www.deviantart.com/eolewyn1010/art/Firstborn-family-Lilith-Adam-and-Eve-655313003
Let me Love you (Part 2)
Jena told Hank that she needs to leave unless he starts talking. Hank was then forced to let his thoughts be heard and start talking about what's wrong.
Hank faced Jena and held her hand. "There's a big turn of event tonight that I might not know how to live with,' Hank started. "I'm afraid I might lose the one person I love more than anyone else and be left in regret for the rest of my life," he continued while holding Jena's hand.
Jena became more confused to what Hank is saying. She tries to understand what he's trying to point out but to no success. She looked straight in his eyes and she can see how serious Hank is.
"I don't understand.. just let it out and tell me what's really wrong. Help me understand you." She said as if that will make him say more.
He just stared at her teary eyed and eventually he cried. "I can't tell you right now. I'm not strong enough to tell you right now... I don't think I will ever be..." he moved his eyes away from her, "Can you just stay for tonight? I don't wanna be alone tonight. I just want to be with my bestfriend.." he added. He just want to be with her tonight. Even just for the last time tonight.
Jena sighed and nodded. "Okay, okay.. I will.. I'll not force you to talk for now but promise me you will tell me what's wrong tomorrow when you're sober." she answered. "I'll get you something warm to drink.. Have you eaten already?" she stood up.
"I promise. I'll tell you everything tomorrow. That's when it's best to talk about this... " Hank lay down the couch.
Jena knew right there and then that it's more serious than what she thought. She know her best friend so much and she knows that her best friend needs her more this time and that an ordinary dinner date can be moved to another date. Hank needs her and she will be there for her best friend.
Jena called Morgan to let him know and apologize. "I'm sorry, babe.. I can't leave Hank alone tonight. He seems to be in really bad shape. Let's move the dinner date tomorrow. I'm really sorry.. Or we can come over and let's us order food."
Morgan was not happy about it. They had a big fight over the phone about it. Morgan felt like he's less important and that he's in competition with someone that's hard to beat. He's so disappointed.
"You know what? Let's just take a break. Figure out what's important. Or who's important... then let's talk. I can't do this anymore, Jena! You always make me feel like I'm just not your priority. That our relationship is not the priority. It never was. I'm sorry, I can't do this anymore," then he hang up on her.
Jenna was left surprised. She knew Morgan has this issue with them but she didn't know it's this serious that he will ask for a break. Jenna tried calling him back but he wouldn't answer. She couldn't believe that Morgan was so inconsiderate of the situation. It was just a dinner date that they do multiple times a week. It's not like it's enough reason for them to fight. Or that's what she thought.
Hank knew Morgan was gonna propose. He was supposed to be in the surprise party too. He just couldn't take it. He wants to tell Jena tonight that he loves her. That he loves her more than just a friend. That he's in love with her. Something he couldn't tell her before. He's too afraid to take the risk of loosing his bestfriend. However, he thinks that he should do it now or forever be silent about it. He still believes that Jena will never throw their friendship for his stupidity. He taught he can tell her while he's drunk but he realized, it's better that he's sober for them to talk about it.
"Hey, Hank! Have you eaten already? I'm starving.." she yelled as if she didn't just had a fight with her boyfriend.
"No, I haven't. Let's go grab some food." He answered.
"With that state?" she asked, mocking him with how he looks.
He smiled, "Yeah... Why not?"
"Nah, I'll order something to eat." she hand him over the coffee and sat beside her while she dialed her phone to order food.
She rested her head on his shoulder while she talks on the phone. "Yeah hi..."
To be continued....
A/N
Would Hank have enough courage to confess when he's sober? If so, what would Jena's reaction be? What will happen to their friendship?
Thanks for reading. Hope you enjoyed it.
If you haven't read the first part yet, you can read it here:
https://read.cash/@Jdine/let-me-love-you-38570e3d
"You can't talk peace and have a gun" - Francis M
There's a trending news all over Philippines regarding a police officer who got into a fight with an elderly woman and her son that led the officer to shot them both. Even in front of his (officer's) daughter. Brutal killing as what some describe it. The tragic incident was clearly recorded by a witness. https://www.facebook.com/paniqui2307/posts/218009543164369
This isn't a news or anything. For people from the Philippines, I'm sure you've already watched the raw video of this incident. People are shocked and many people hates the daughter for her disrespectful attitude. People are shocked with the officer's violence.
They had an argument about a boga `(an improvised cannon to used as a noisemaker during new year)` which heated up abruptly. The police officer's daughter yelled "My father is a policeman!" And the 52 year old lady answered "I don't care eh eh eh eh" mocking the child. The police officer then yell and cursed the old lady and shot her then her son then shot them both again when they were lying in the ground.
The line "I don't care eh eh eh eh eh" came from one of the 2NE1's songs "I don't care" which was very popular and loved but now it became a tragic song which lyrics are the last words a 52 year old woman said before she was killed by a brutal police officer.
The tragedy made both families spend Christmas so sorrowful and regretful. Both of the families surely has regret and both wished it never turned out the way it did.
The family of the victims mourn for their 2 family members that are killed. The police officer's family will have to spend the Christmas with the head of their family in jail for double murder, their daughter being bashed and shamed. Surely there will be a huge impact to the girl psychologically. Trauma, depression, I don't know. But I'm sure she feel sad with what the people are saying about her.
She might not be good girl according to the video but she's still a child. Her parent's are supposed to be guiding her. It's her parents' fault and failure. The police officer did not only killed two people but also he hurt her daughter. He had all the chance to tell her to go home and don't meddle. But instead he let her minor daughter to stay and witness the incident. Though the girl didn't seem to be shocked by the gun shots, we never know what thoughts she has.
Police officers are supposed to be the peacemakers. But he was quite the opposite in this tragic incident. No matter how they talk to him or his daughter, he still has no right to kill them.
What're the lessons in this tragedy? Yes, as for me there are lessons in this tragedy.
Just like what the legend musician Francis M states in one of his lyrics, `"You can't talk peace and have a gun".` Kill your ego and not someone. Peace is better than killing.
Teach your children to be respectful and not mingle on adults' issues. I also don't think it's appropriate to let your child see how disrespectful you are towards the elderly or any other individual. Let your child witness respect and be a good example. No matter how mad you are, unless the circumstances threatens you and/or your family's life, you should never shoot innocent people just because you got offended.
I pray for the two victims, may they rest in peace. I hope justice for them. I also pray for the family of the deceased, may they be strong enough to surpass this tragic. May they be given the justice they deserve. I pray for the girl. I hope she learned her lesson too.
Let's all be aware that every life in this planet is important and should be cherished. Let's not be the one to end innocent people's lives. It's also the holiday season. More love less hate.
#StopthekillingsPH!!!
(CTTO)
Photo Credit to Jose Manansala
Blood Is Thicker Than Water
We all know that this phrase. We have heard this many times especially when the topic is about being a family.
This phrase is a proverb that means a family's bond is stronger and more important than in any other relationships like friendship. It's used back since 12th century in the Germany.
There are many people saying/ stating that the original meaning/phrase of this is "The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb." which somewhat contradicts what we have been used to with the meaning of the phrase. It was said that it may not only be blood-related to be considered as "blood" but it's something about your strong bond as of like a family. Friends that you share a strong bond as if they are your 'blood' can also be considered. And even just a friend with strong bond(Blood of the covenant), it may be thicker than with a family member (water in the womb). If you read the original form of the phrase you can see that it has a different meaning than what we are used to believe in. It has a meaning that has been corrupted over the years, maybe in the Middle Ages when bloodline was all that's important.
In our lives, we have these special people that we share a connection and bond with as deep as what we are sharing to our family. And admit it or not, we sometimes feel that our relationship with someone not related (especially love/romantic) is stronger than the ties we have with one of our bloodline. There are also these relatives that treat you like a stranger and/or not important. We all know that we also tend to feel more stronger bond to someone else than with a blood-related individual. Romantic love for example.
No matter what the original meaning of this phrase is, I still think that family bond is so important that you should not take it for granted. And I also think that your relationship to other people may also be considered as a family bond when you share unconditional ties with them. Like with someone you love, care about and someone very dear to you.
May it be with a blood-related individual or not, you should always value people you care about. Make it equal as much as possible. There's no law stating you can't value someone else more if they're not blood related. Be good and value everyone and try hard not to make someone feel like they are less important just because they are the 'water' in the phrase.
I want to stop...
They say we can all stop the pain we feel inside. That we can control it by thinking positive things, look at the brighter side and still have faith. I don't think that's a fact. I don't think I can get over the pain you caused me. I don't think they understand what pain really is.
You hurt me more than a person can bear. The pain is overwhelming that I can't even feel anything other than pain. You killed me inside. I feel like I'm dead but my physical body moves. Every move I make aches every muscle and every inch of my soul. Dying for real is easier. I never thought I would appreciate death more than life.
I want this to stop. I want the pain to stop. I want the misery to stop. Please make it stop.
How can I even achieve that? How can I when I still want you? Yes. I still do. It makes me go crazy thinking about the vagueness of my thoughts. How can I make the pain go away and make you stay? It seems like pain and 'you' is a package deal. Like you wouldn't exist without the pain in my life?
Why do I still want you? Why do I still cry? Why do I still care? Why do I still carry you at night? Why do tears fall each time I think of you? Why do I still long for your touch? You caress that soothes me from the pain you caused. Why? Why do I still love you?
Despite the hurt you bring, I still think that you're the only one that can calm me down. You make me mad but all I can think is myself hugging you just to make you stop the pain you caused.
What did you do to me? What kind of emotion have you awaken inside me? What am I thinking? I don't understand it no matter how hard I try. I don't know when it all started. I don't know how it started. I don't know where this leads me. I don't know what to do.
I remember the days when we were still happy. I remember the way you said my name differently. A way that can get the butterflies fly beautifully. I remember when you used to be inlove with me. I remember when I used to be your happiness.
What happened? Where did I go wrong? What did I do to make you horrible? What happened to the promises we made? What happened to us? Do I deserve this? Is this what I'm supposed to live with? Am I bound to be like this forever? Am I gonna be like this forever?
Help me.. Help me understand everything you've done. Help me understand everything that's happened. Help me understand why we end up hurting? Help me understand why you changed. Help me understand what good is this gonna make. Help me understand you.
Alone in the dark, I sit waiting for you to grab me back to the light. Alone in the dark, I cry, hoping you'll come back. Alone in the dark, I chant your name in my head. Alone in the dark, wondering. Wondering what will happen next. Alone in the dark with soul crumbled into pieces and not minding it.
Let me Love You
Jena and Hank have known each other their whole lives. Their fathers are high school buddies and corporate partners. They grew up spending each holiday with their family together.
Jena is an interior decorator and Hank is an architect. They do almost all their projects together. They are inseparable their whole lives. As what we all expect, they are always partnered with each other during special occasions. Their family constantly tell them that they look good together, that they are perfect for each other.
No matter how hard their family pushes, they both find it improper for them to date each other. It just never crossed their mind. They're not into that kind of relationship with each other. Plus, they both have a relationship.
Hank is in an open relationship with Alisha for 4 months now. Hank's friendship with Jena is never an issue to Alisha. She's cool with it. She likes her but Jena doesn't think Alisha is the right girl for Hank. But even so,, she never let them be and just supports her best friend's choices.
Jena is also in a relationship (not an open one though) with Morgan for over a year now. Unlike Alisha, Morgan is not to hyped with the two's relationship. He thinks it's too much. But he never makes a fuss out of it. He keeps his thoughts up to himself and still tries to seem cool with it. Jena sometimes feel it and see it in Morgan, though. And when she does, she tries so hard to make Morgan feel special and let him feel he should not be worrying about anything. Their relationship seems okay. Morgan may sometimes feel insecure but their relationship is fine. He also tries to be friends with Hank. Morgan thinks he has no other choice other than be friends with him.
Morgan arranged a surprise dinner party for his proposal to Jena tonight. Jena thought it's an ordinary dinner date like they used to. They always have a dinner date every week to keep the fire burning in their relationship.
While Jena was getting ready for their dinner date, a knock on her door stopped her. She opened it and Hank stood there staring blankly, drank. He looked devastated. He hugged her. She was shocked and worried so she let him in and told him to sit down and asked what happened. Hank didn't talk. He just sat there and stared blankly. She hugged him and patted his back.
She called Morgan to tell him that she might be late and told him about Hank. Morgan was not so pleased about it. He had enough. He feels like every time, she always pick Hank first over him and that this can no longer be the case. She tried to explain to Morgan the situation and Morgan agreed somehow.
Hours passed and Hank still won't talk other than when he asked for a beer. She refused but Hank got up and grabbed the beer on the fridge and drank it. She tried to stop him from drinking more. He won't stop. She's so worried for him but also kinda irritated because she knows Morgan is waiting for her. She decided she'll leave Hank and go to her dinner date but when she told Hank she'll be leaving and he can stay the night at her house, Hank looked at her and asked her to just be with him now. She told him that if he'll just drink and not talk, she'll leave and they'll have to talk in the morning. He then started to talk.
To be continued...
A/N
What do you think happened with Hank? What's his problem that he can't talk about it until Jena told him she's leaving? Do you think Morgan really understands her? How long do you think Morgan can keep up Jena and Hank's friendship? Do you think Jena cares more to Hank than to Morgan? Where is Alisha? Tell me what you think. :)
Jdine
Hello, world!!!
It has been days that I've been inactive (again). I'm back working... oh my, am I glad that I am. I've been laid off from work for months because of the pandemic. I just got back to work and I'm super busy with all the things going on right now. Work, homeschooled kids, and the] need to catch up with my sleep. I'm working the graveyard shift, that's why.
I feel blessed that I am back working again. Just when I thought that I would end 2020 in misfortune, they called me in for a client interview and I passed. That day, I felt like there are more hope and positivity that's waiting for us( my family) in 2021.
There are things that I still haven't been done doing, though. There are things that I should be addressing. I plan to address everything that should've been done early January. And I also plan to be more active in Read.Cash.
I miss sharing my thoughts, my reviews, my experiences and my stories-fiction and non fiction. I miss interacting with people here. I miss my supporters. I miss the 'old times' when I was able to share everything.
It was a rough couple of months for me and I'm so glad that everything seems to be going the way it was before slowly. I think many are not active now. Especially in commenting... People are more focused on writing than reading and interacting now. But that's fine, I guess. That's what it is.
I also see a lot of new faces around here. New faces that have a great writing skills. I read articles once in a while even when I'm not actively writing and commenting. I do read. Especially those that come up in my notification area.
I feel glad that some of my sponsors are still here, though few have opt out I guess. Maybe because I wasn't that active and/or maybe because they are also not active. But that's okay. I appreciate those who stood by and still believes in me. It means a lot to me.
So there... That's my first blog and the start of my active days here (hopefully).
Again, to all my supporters, thank you for always being there for me. Through good times and bad. To my obligations, I will get back on that early next year....
See yah!
Lupercalia and Valentine's Day, the same??
Lupercalia, as described in the Sabrina series on Netflix, is celebrated at the same time as Valentine’s day. This is somewhat true. It’s indeed celebrated from February 13-15. Lupercalia is an ancient Roman festival that honors Romulus and Remus who were saved by a she-wolf named Lupercal when they were abandoned by their parents.
2 groups of priests, descendants of Romulus and descendants of Remus, will meet in a Palatine cave where they will start to celebrate the festival. They will sacrifice a dog, like a resemblance of the she-wolf, and a goat. They will trace the dog's blood on their forehead and wash it off with goat’s milk. After the sacrifice, they will take off their clothes and run in the streets of ancient Rome where they will be whipped while running through the streets. They believed that getting whipped will bring them good luck and fertility. Men will also be partnered with women and they will have to stay together until the next year’s festival in which some of them actually fell in love with each other.
In the Sabrina series on Netflix, the witches celebrated the same thing, except that they celebrated it in the woods and they ran with their lingerie on. They ran and find their match. Whoever they find should stay with each other naked all night. It's all about fertility too. Some of them have sex that night with their partner.
Lupercalia is no longer celebrated now, I think, but I read that some non-Christians still celebrate in private for this occasion. And since Lupercalia is a festival about fertility, and Valentine’s day is somewhat about fertility too and partnering, it looks like we are still celebrating this festival in a different way minus the sacrifice part.
I find Lupercalia fascinating and intriguing. And I am at awe when I found out that Lupercalia in the said series is bloody real. It's so cool that I am starting to learn some history with just watching a series that I didn't know has scenes based on real events.I have yet to find more information about it. And I plan to study it more. I will keep you posted on what I will find out more about this festival.
Happy Birthday to my Mahal.
Today is his birthday. A very special day. The same day, decades ago, when a mother gave birth to someone I would love with all my heart. A day where everyone's happy a new baby has come.
Celebrating his birthday ever since we met was as special as any other holiday. Even now, with the crisis we all face, we still try our very best to celebrate it as special as we can.
It may not be like the previous celebration we had because of the pandemic, but the thought is as huge as we used to celebrate it. We still look forward to making the day as special as we can.
We are going to the beach this morning and have a simple breakfast with the kids. Make them play with the sand and have fun. Just for the morning, though. We don't plan to stay long at the beach. We couldn't risk staying and be with a crowd.
I am always grateful to my in-laws for raising a child like my husband. For making him safe and making him the man that I love. For teaching him how to respect, be loyal, and how to be a good man.
He may not have all the things that a woman would want in a man, he is more than enough this girl wished for. He has flaws, he's got a temper sometimes, he's not perfect. But all these things, positive and not so positive, these are the things that I love about him.
I wish him a very happy birthday and more birthdays for us to celebrate together in the future. A good health, and a healthy mind with God as our center.
And to whoever is celebrating their birthday today or those with a loved one who is celebrating a birthday today, happy birthday... May you be blessed. 😊
Tagalog Slang Examples and Meaning
Every language have slang words. And it's fascinating to discover how different languages come up with words that makes each of them more interesting. In this article, I will share Tagalong slang examples and their meaning. Some of these words and/or phrases don't have direct definition to the English language.
Let's start!
**Ngek!**
*Ngek* is an expression we use that means 'yikes', 'eek' and other similar words. We also use this when we mean to say 'come on' when we feel they don't have to bother because it's okay.
For example: *Ngek*! That's all I can do to help. ; *Ngek*! Why'd you do that? You might get into trouble!
**Churva**
There are two uses of this word. One is used as a filler when we have no words to describe something. And one is used when you mean 'JK (Just kidding).
For example: Oh, whatever, you know a lot of *churva* in your head. ; *Churva*! I'm just messing with you 😅
**Char, charing, charot**
Just like the second meaning of *churva*, it is used when you meant to say 'just kidding'
For example: If I tell you, I'd have to kill you... Nah, *charot*!!!
**Ano ba?!**
It's like saying, 'What the...' in English.
For example: *Ano ba*! Stop acting like a child!
**Anyare?**
It's derived from, 'anong nangyare?' and it means 'what happened?'.
For example: *Anyare*? You look like you've seen a ghost?
**Anak ng Tipaklong!**
English speakers would say, 'Son of a b*tch'.. '*Anak ng..*' literally means 'Son of a...' and Tipaklong is 'grasshopper'. Filipinos can change the subject (eg: tipaklong) to whatever they prefer like '*Anak ng Kamote*(sweet potato)' or '*Anak ng Tinapa* (smoked fish)' or even '*Anak ka ng tatay mo* (you're a son of your dad). 'Son of a b*tch' literally means '*Anak ng puta*'. *Whoops, sorry for the profanity.* This phrase is used to show irritation to something or someone.
For example: *Anak ng tinapa*! They got all the points we need to win this game!
**Kilig, Nakaka-kilig**
This is when you have romantic excitement. The feeling when you fall inlove or when the one you love gives you butterflies in your stomach.
For example: It's so *kilig* when he asked me out. I've been waiting for him to ask since the beginning. ; Both of them are *nakakakilig*, I'm so lucky.
**Gigil**
*Gigil* is when you want to squeeze someone or something so bad. *Gigil* is good or bad depending on the situation. You can say it cause the dog is so cute, and you feel like you want to squeeze it. You can also say it when someone pushed you to your limit and you are just furious. *Gigil* is the feeling of wanting to squeeze something as a reaction.
For example: Ooohh that dog is so cute, it's so *nakaka-gigil*. ; I'm so *gigil* right now, she should have stayed away when she knew he's married.
**Basta**.
This word is used when you can't or don't want to explain something. The equivalent phrase in English is 'Just because..' or simple 'because' It can also be used when you're not sure of something.
For example: *Basta*, just trust me. I know what to do. ; 'I think it's the gate is red, *basta* when you see a gate beside the tall building, that's it. ; When someone asks you: Why are you so mad at her? You answer: *Basta*! (Just cause)
**Lodi, Petmalu**
Oh this one is simple. It's Idol and malupet only in backwards. Malupet means extremely cool or amazing. I don't think I need to explain what Idol means, though. It's really typical for many of the Filipinos to do this. Like Nosi (Sino or 'who' in english), olats (talo or lose/loser in English), and so much more. Many also do this for their last names in social media. Fernandez becomes Zednanref, Santos becomes Sotnas, etc...
For example: That's dope! He's my *Lodi* from now on. ; He's so *petmalu*, he can get 1M views in just 10 seconds. 😅
**Hay naku**!
This is used same as a 'sigh'. 'Hay' is the sound you do when you sigh in Tagalog and '*hay naku*' also considered as a sigh. In addition to this, '*hay naku*' also an expression same as 'Omg', 'oh my', 'oh dear', 'uh oh' and/or 'arggghhh'.. And yes, it can be used as an expression when annoyed...
For example: *Hay naku* (arghhh), do whatever you like, I don't care.; *Hay naku*(omg), please be careful with this vase.; *Hay naku*(a sigh), it's been a long day...
**Beshie**
Beshie is what you call your bestfriend... She is your beshie, your bestie..
For example: Lara is my *beshie*. ; We've been *beshie*s since we were kids.
**Susmaryosep**.
Jesus, Mary and Joseph. That's the simplest explanation. An expression you use when you are frustrated or shocked.
For example: *Susmaryosep*, what were you thinking?! Why'd you do that??!! ; *Susmaryosep*, did he really jumped off that cliff?!
**Yung ano...**
You're saying something and you can't find the words to continue or can't get the words get out your mouth. This phrase literally means 'that thing'... it also sometimes states the obvious thing that you can't say. When I say obvious thing, it depends on what you're both talking.
For example: hey, can you pass the uhmm the.. *yung ano.*. uhmm the scissors. ; They did it, you know, *yung ano.*.. you know...
**Jowa /syota**
Boyfriend or girlfriend. It is the same as *Syota* but *syota* is kinda offensive cause it's the short term for '*short time jowa*'. *Syota* is like saying 'short time lover'.
For example: Is he your *Jowa* already? ; So, he's your *syota* now, huh?
**Werpa**!
Remember when I said we like to make words read backwards. *Werpa* means 'power'. It's used to give support to something or someone...
For example: We can do this, *werpa*!!! ; Girls run the world, *werpa*!!! 😅
**keri / carry!**
*Keri / Carry* is so different in carrying something or lifting something. When we say carry, we mean 'I can do it' or 'it's okay', 'it's all good'...
For example: It's raining so hard. *Keri*, I have my umbrella. ; *Keri*, I will reach the quota next week.
**Praning**
It means crazy or in the state of craziness, cray-cray...
For example: Don't be *praning*, he's not stalking you.
**Bulilyaso**
A failed task or plan due to an unexpected circumstance.
For example: She was supposed to drop by last night but she was called out at work, so, *bulilyaso*, she wasn't able to.
**Albor /Arbor**
This is used when you want to borrow something. But it's usually used when you actually want to ask if you can have something instead of just borrowing it.
For example: Oohh nice pen. Can I *albor* this? ; Do you have extra cigarette? Can I *albor* one?
**Dekwat**
While *albor* is asking the other person nicely, *dekwat* is the opposite. *Dekwat* is when you steal something or snatch it.
For example: Don't *dekwat* the jewelry while she is sleeping. ; My phone was *na-dekwat* last night on my way home.
**Dedo / Tigok**
*Dedo or tigok* means dead. Literally or when you're in trouble.
For example: The leader already know your treachery, your *tigok* now. ; Is it true? His dad's *dedo*?
**Wafu /Wafa**
*Wafu* is gwapo (handsome) and *wafa* is gwapa/ maganda (beautiful).
For example: He's so *wafu*, I can't get my eyes off him.
**Kulelat**
*Kulelat* is the one in last place during a competition. The loser in general.
For example: Red team won the game. Blue team was *kulelat*.
That's all I can think of right now. I will be updating this when remember more slangs.
Which one is your favorite? Comment down below to let me know. 😊
Thanks for reading and more werpa to all. 😅😊
Will it be okay to post a link from 123movies here to share?
My reaction to The chilling Adventures of Sabrina Series (Netflix)
Sabrina is a series on Netflix that revolves around the life and journey of a witch-well half-witch, half-mortal. Her parents (warlock dad and a mortal mom) died and she's raised by her Aunties (Aunt Hilda and Aunt Zelda). She lives with them together with her cousin Ambrose- a warlock.
At first, she resists being baptized and to sign the book when she turned 16 but she soon needs to do so for her to save her mortal friends (esp Suzie and Rozalind) and boyfriend (Harvey). As time flies she grew stronger and stronger just like 'Jean Grey' of Xmen as to what Harvey would describe her.
Her actions of protections for Harvey gone awry that led to their breakup. Broken-hearted as she is, she focused more on her witch life and soon fell in love with a warlock named Nicholas Scratch.
She seems to be a very ambitious girl. She's also sometimes becoming selfish and stubborn, but as a witch, isn't that what she's supposed to? 😊
She isn't your typical interpretation of a witch. She may be evil but she also has goodness inside of her. She still protects and saves her mortal friend and she wants her two worlds to be united. She resists being a herald of darkness.
I sometimes hate it when she gets all stubborn and makes the situation worst and I hate it when she's sometimes becoming so full of herself. But her aggressiveness is impressive and stunning.
I also learned about Lilith and I sometimes like her. I dunno why. Or maybe I was just stunned that she was the first wife of Adam and not Eve. The folktale said she was created at the same time as Adam with the same clay. It is also said that she's the wife of Lucifer and the Queen of hell. I learned it because of this series. I'm still not so sure about Lilith. Lilith in the series disguise as Mrs. Wardwell's (Sabrina's history teacher) when she killed her to get close to Sabrina and so Lilith can fulfill her duties (the will of the Dark Lord). She told Sabrina she's a witch too... she didn't confess she's Lilith.
The series is so dark in an entertaining way. Watching it does not mean you're Anti-Christ, it's just a story. It's just fascinating that you can learn so many things about witches, their 'holidays', their rituals, their beliefs, and so much more.
At first, I thought it was for teens or for those in early 20s but I was entertained. The special effects and actors are great. My favorite out of all the 'Sabrina' shows I watched.
Here's a trailer for you to check.
https://youtu.be/R2gbPxeNk2E
I read a post about the fork and I'm really confused. Can anyone help me understand it in a simplier way? 😅
I withdraw $2 worth of BCH from readcash to my coinsph BCH wallet yesterday and it didn't reflect in my coinsph wallet. Is it because of the split? What should I do? Is it still safe to withdraw from readcash to coinsph now or should I wait for some time?
I checked my bitcoin.com wallet that's connected to my readcash wallet and the transaction was there. It just didn't coke through my coinsph wallet. I'm soooo confused.
Rise up, Philippines
A devastating calamity hits the Philippines recently. It's sad that many have lost their lives, their loved ones, their pets, and their hope.
Many are in the roof of their houses because of the flood, many have drown, many are crying for help.
They humbly appeal to your kind hearts for donation for the victim of the recent calamity.
And to those who needs temporary shelter in Cagayan, you may contact these numbers, I got these from one of my relative's post. I really do it helps. They (my relative) also have an organization that participates in giving donations to the victims of the recent calamity.
TO THOSE WHO NEEDS TEMPORARY SHELTER IN CAGAYAN 📷
Name: Vernalyn Amarillo
Address: beside Balai Carmela Hotel, few steps away from Toyota Tuguegarao
Contact #: 0917 5818 019
They are ACCEPTING EVACUEES OR ASSISTANCE TO FIND SHELTERS For Cagayan residents in need of evacuation.
Kiano Mangoma - 09060874284
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I pray to all the souls of those who lost their lives and those who lost their family and all the victims of this calamity. I pray for strength for those who are still fighting for their lives and for everyone who needs it.
Let's all unit to help the Philippines rise up again.
She's stronger than you know
You can't bring her down. She has weapons you clearly don't have- truth and God.
You may talk nonsense about who she is. You may know her name, age, and other personal details but you don't know who she is. You don't know what she's been through and you don't know how she fought to be where she is right now.
She may look all fragile and easy but her courage is bigger and stronger than your ego. Don't be mistaken by her kindness and sweet smile. She is kind but you don't want to be on her darker side. She has that aggressive side of her that can fight a war. Her silence talks more words in different circumstances.
She's kind, she's vulnerable, she's innocent. Yet, she's strong, she's brave and she's wise. She keeps her mouth shut for nonsense and fights back for her truth. She does not tolerate profanity but she forgives. As unique as you. She has same potential as yours. Sometimes, she even has more potential than you.
She's been through a lot of unpleasant experiences. Some, she cried for help. She's been helpless. But after all the pain, she stood up and came back on track. She keeps her foot strong and her eyes open.
She can and she would fight alone but her friends choose to fight alongside her. She has friends and family that will fight with her. She has all the support she needs. She has everything a lonely person needs to brighten her up- to keep her going.
Your truth can't define who she is because what's true is her truth. Her truth is what defines her. Your truth and lies will always only be an opinion and rumors.
Who are you to try and make her miserable? Who are you to think she's weak? Who are you to think of her so low? Who are you to make fun of her and toy with her feelings?
She's not a trophy, she's not a toy, she's not a robot, she's not your slave and she isn't for sale. Girls may look like so soft and easy to break but they are stronger than you know. She's stronger than you know.
@Jdine
