There are times that you feel so tired. You think of things that you can do to make it right. Thinking that there has to be a way to make them loyal, or faithful, or just to ease up a pain. Thinking if you deserve the pain and why you feel the pain.
Love can be so consuming. Love can be so tiring. It comes with it. Love is not rainbows and butterflies all the time. There's THICKNESS. That's why we say 'Through THICK and thin'. But sometimes the thickness falls on one person more than the other. The other just doesn't care.
No one says that love is simple. It can give you a lot of different emotions. Some may be very exhausting. Love is challenging. It pushes you to your limit. But when you're exhausted, you don't need to push yourself more. You can take a rest. Take a time off. Be alone. Reject all the negativity. Reflect and stop chasing. This is how you can survive.
Don't force yourself to face troubles you can't for now. Gather the strength and face it when you're ready. It's not wrong to quit when quitting means you have to turn your back to things that hurt you. It's not weakness. Or if it is, then make your weakness be your strength. You can do it. Others do it.
You are in control of your life, not him, not them, but you. They will do what you allow them to do. Stop insulting yourself and respect the fact that you need respect. Be your own hero. Sometimes we can't rely on others to save us. We have to save ourselves. Honor yourself even when others can't.
It will be hard. I assure you that. It's already hard when you are in pain with their actions, why not face hardship for your goodness instead? You can do it. You have friends, family, and other people who value you more. If you think you have none, then maybe at least you can think you have yourself who value you more. The most important thing is you. Selfishness in that way is good. We need that to survive.
It's not easy. It's not a piece of cake. And it will never be easy. But you can start now and eventually everything will fall into place. Take one step at a time. Just like a child learning how to walk. Don't try to run if you can't walk. Don't rush things and be patient. It will not hurt forever. You will be alright. You will be healed. I know, you will be.