I've spent the entire weekend thinking about what to write. It seems I've grown too used to not writing that I can't even think of a single topic to write. It's sad. Honestly, I miss writing so much. I don't know why I can't find the perfect topic. I have so many things in my draft (on my PC) but all I can do is write a single or two sentences and that's it. I can't continue. I would if I can.
I spent all night thinking about how to continue my stories. I have, I think, 2 stories that I haven't finished yet. And because it has been a long time since I wrote, I forgot how the story goes. I can't find the right mood on how to continue the story. It feels like the characters left my heart. It's frustrating. I want to finish the stories so much. But I don't want to force myself just to finish the story because I might end up not giving justice to the characters. I don't want it to sound like it was hurried.
So, this is what I came up with. A freestyle. Stating just how much I missed writing. Just writing my thoughts right now without even thinking. Continuous writing.
Since I wasn't writing, I felt like there's something I want to do but I can't pinpoint what it is. I realized it was writing when I was asked by my boss to write and record training materials for the newly hired VAs. Right then and there, I realized how much I writing and how much I missed the interaction here at Readcash.
I feel left out, to be honest. Like I don't know how this works and that I am starting all over again. I don't even know if my friends are still here. Those who used to read my stories. Those who used to comment on my articles. Those who supported me back then.
It's like coming back home but you don't know your neighbors anymore and you're looking for your old friends.. It's like coming back home but everyone grew old and you're stuck. Like you're still this kid that didn't grow. It's like coming back home with cobwebs around the corners of your home. It's super sad. I didn't realize how sad this feels until I started to write and started to reminisce.
I wish I find the right enthusiasm to write again. The perfect inspiration to write again. I wish I can feel the mood again. I wish that I can finish my stories. I wish I can be encouraged again. I wish to write more. I wish to write regularly. I wish to interact again. I wish to hear from my friends again..