Darkness

I am back again in despair, Feeling hopeless, feeling lost. I tried to be jolly, but the emotions inside me, eats me. I felt worthless, and a burden to my family.

I wanted to cry, but my eyes seems so dry. The emotions inside me builds up, and find it hard to express. I wanted to run, but my feet stuck in the ground.I cut my hair, throwing my frustration away but things doesn't change.

Every night is a sleepless nights. Thoughts eating my conscious, that all I could think was all negativity. I tried, God knows how much I've tried, but everything seems so hopeless.

Friends? Family? They seems so far away, and can't save me, because I know they won't understand me. Even I, I don't understand myself. I don't know where this loneliness came from. I don't know where and when this hopelessness appeared. All I know is, one day, trouble came in and slowly it's swallowing me. Darkness is surrounding me. I can't find the light, so I can't escape. No one tried to extend their arms and ask why, Ask if I am okay and doing fine.

I felt I am alone in this dark world.