My Parents are getting older and I don't think I'm ready

May 2, 2022

Hi there! It feels great to be able to post here today. I haven't been able to be active here for the past 2 days because things just got hectic. In a way, this platform is like a stress reliever for me being able to share my thoughts and feelings and here I am sharing my thoughts again.

For the past few years, I have been living life blithely oblivious that time is rapidly passing. I've been trying to enjoy myself and live in the present and sure, I do see myself growing older and I'm extremely grateful to have my parents beside me supportive as ever. But it never really occured to me until recently that my parents aren't as young as they used to be.

We had to take my dad to urgent care not too long ago. He had a mild stroke which was caused by heart failure. I was really scared. He was unable to speak and move so we took him to the hospital right away. In that moment, I had a realization: My parents are getting older and I don't think I'm ready for it.

We spent the Holy Week in the Hospital. The first few days were tough. My dad often got seizures and involuntary tics from time to time due to his medication. It was very heartbreaking to watch but I held it in. I tried to be strong for my dad. Thankfully, my dad got better overtime. Now we're back home. He can speak clearly and can now move. His right hand still has limited movement but we're working on it with a physical therapist.

My mom on the other hand is relatively healthy. She and I take turns in taking care of my dad. I personally think my mom looks great for a 50+ year old but when I do look closely I notice wrinkles slowly appearing. I get worried because of the amount of stress she might be dealing with right now. That's why I help out as much as I can.

When we were growing up, our parents are there to take care of us. They are the ones who have the wisdom and the knowledge. For things to get flipped, feels kinda weird to me. But I know that it's the cycle of life. Eventually, children grow up and take care of their parents in the long run.

Realizing that my parents are getting old is kinda scary. They're the light and the strong foundation of the family. I never want to think that their time is fleeting. It's heartbreaking.

I want to enjoy my time with my parents. I will never turn down any requests from them. I will stop myself from getting frustrated everytime they ask about how to use modern technology. I will listen to all their stories frm their younger selves even when they tell them over and over again. I will always kiss and hug them no matter how old I get. I will always make sure that they know how much I love them.

I hope that my parents live to be 100. So then they will be able to see their grandchildren grow up, graduate, get married and maybe even have great-grandchildren. They are the best parents that I could have ever asked for. They taught me the meaning of true love, sacrifice and hard work. They mean everything to me.

There's not a day that I don't think about how great of a blessing it is that we're together and I am going to soak up each and every moment. They were always with me when I needed them, and I will be there for them until the day they no longer need me.

Thank You for taking time to read. Hopefully, I'll be able to post at least one article per day. Have a nice day everyone and don't forget to take care of yourselves. ❣️