November 3, 2021. No. 55
“It is you who watches over my dreams, who keeps them away from the darkness that threatens these days of the world. The lamp of your spirit warms my room and softens the melancholy that assails my window on a rainy afternoon. I imagine the almost imperceptible movement of your lips in this moment of reading, and I feel the privilege of your intimacy: of being the human closest to your eyes, which commits me to the maximum purity of which I am capable, to the atrocious sincerity, to the greater detachment, because you deserve that I give you what I cannot reach. I try - collecting treasures of art - that your life is poured out towards others with more love: that would be your happiness. Mine is to feel that I touch the next morning, whenever you whisper, with a taste of friendship, a nickname..." The illustrated devil
Today my day was one of the worst I have had in a long time. I haven't really had a shred of inner peace all day. It turns out that when something can go wrong, it obviously will. Maybe I'll get up on the wrong foot today. Tomorrow I will have to do my best so that when I get up, the first foot that touches the ground is the right one. I'm not superstitious, but I think I should try.
What triggered this euphoria, was nothing simply that my claims were too high. I started the month of November in the worst possible way. The incredible happened on my noise account. Two complete posts in a row and nobody, absolutely nobody, I look at them in almost 3 hours. It was unprecedented. Not to say that his rewards were almost negative if this could be possible. I have never gotten along with noise, I have never been able to find the middle ground between what is correct or not. Even now that other users are "afraid" to support a post, it is much more difficult.
Obviously, my biggest impact was here at read.cash, after seeing firsthand that it does not always spring around here. Although my income is still very high, compared to how I started, I felt a slight decrease in the visits of our friend. I was used to a higher level, and the desire to start the month this well created some stress for me. I confess, a bit wrong of me. The thoughts that if there was something wrong with my account again flooded me, and this even had an impact on my personal life, on my way of facing the day even.
Later, talking with various friends, it turns out that something is real, and that is that Mark has been absent for a long time now. Hopefully, everything is temporary and we can continue to enjoy read.cash for a long time. He had already commented on other occasions that, as this platform on the internet, there is no other. So we can only wish that it stays forever.
Eventually, I was analyzing the situation, and I realized that it did not come down from the clouds. What had happened to the boy who for every penny earned was a blessing? Where did it go? Excuse me, I am human, and I also feel bad from time to time, for such silly things as these. Think again, with the help and comments of friends here and little by little I stopped seeing the notifications and always waited for our green friend to appear. There are bad days, and good days, it is not always spring. So I will put everything aside, and will continue writing, with the same enthusiasm as the first day, even more. I will continue to enjoy each of your articles and thank everyone who in one way or another supports my articles. Although sometimes, they are as simple as this. Tomorrow I will go to work, with my mindset on the future, and without being aware of my notifications 24 hours a day. Every little penny, even once in a while, is welcome.
I hope that, despite everything, this will serve as an experience, especially for the newest ones. I still consider myself new, although I still have a week to go to complete 2 months here, I still feel that I am at a very basic level in terms of knowing all the ins and outs. Also, one should never stop learning. Enjoy every little blessing, better times will come. Just keep writing from the heart.
This is all friends. Today I was thinking of writing about another topic, but the truth is that I did not feel well until then, so it occurred to me to leave you with this experience that I had only just lived since the beginning of the month. That's how it started, not how I would have wanted it to, now we'll see how it ends.
Thank my sponsors and especially those who renewed their sponsorship today: @scottcbusiness, @CoquiCoin, and @bmjc98. Many thanks!
Thank you all for reading me today.
Clarification from the future: Maybe now you check my profile and say: “But what does Infinity think? if you look at how well he has done with his articles ”and you are absolutely right, it was very selfish of me. Eventually, our friend reappeared. But that is not why I wanted to stop publishing this facet of my life, and so that more than a few may find it useful as an experience. From now on, to work more, without expecting anything in return. So they always surprise us.
You all need to remember that the pot of money to be distributed by youknowwho does not increase whilst the amount of users has gone up dramatically in the last couple of months. I get nowhere near what I routinely got say three months ago. The more users taking from the same pot will mean less, be thankful you have been doing well. Whatever we get here is a blessing, but don't rely on getting anything.