Why Dog hug is a must have?
March 20, 2023
Annyeong Chingu!! How are you???
I am on the reading mode for tonight and not planning of posting something but a post madee feel sad. I will not share her name but she is a dear friend here that is very talented. Her story makes me sad but I am glad she is overcoming or maybe overcomed the feelings that are attached to it.
Whole reading her story, suddenly my disappointment return again. I thought I am okay already, already give up ans will be making a decision about a certain situation but that story of her refreshes what I was hiding inside. It is not her fault guys, she is just sharing it, I just happen to remember I haven't move on from what I am trying to buried in my heart.
I am disappointed with one person and it is sad that he is very dear to me. At night, I talk to God and I already give it all to him, but I don't understand why I have the feeling that I want to cry. I am broken hearted too but I think it is not valid so I am trying to forget it, but....
When my dog saw me with little tears on my side eye, he put his head under my arms, just like in the picture. He is like telling me "No, no, no, enough of the drama let me smell your armpit".
After that he started to kiss me on my cheek and forehead so I snap this photo but she doesn't want to look. I was still on teary eyed but she turn her body to me, signaling me to hug her tightly.
I can tell that she felt that I will be sad, that I will start crying again so she did it. She even had a long sigh because she knows what will happen next.
She made me stop from crying. She look me in the eye to tell me "just hug me". Hugging a pet releases oxytocin. Oxytocin is known to be love hormone or a cuddle chemical. It instantly changes the mood. It did. Instead of crying, o started to remember I have dishes to start with, but I am doing this draft before doing it.
I also snap some pictures of her because I appreciate what she did. It is not today that she helped me with my emotion. Even when she was young, she always feel when I am sad. She even knows when I am scared. She loves to be the shock absorber when it comes to my emotions that is why I love her to pieces. She is very dear to me.
That is the reason wy a pet hug is a must have. Pets will not give you advises, but they will help you to ease the pain and the depth of what you are going through by their love for you. They know your sadness and for sure wants to be part of something that will make your relieve from that. Hugs your pet and you will be okay.
All images are mine
All Original Content by @Grecy095
What are you Good at?
March 19, 2023
Annyeong Chingu!! How are?
Yesterday, I tried to rest for the whole. It is a miracle that I didn't go to work for an overtime. Since I am losing some oxygen recently and was dehydrated, I decided to rest. To rest is the key!!
I also limit my social media activity yesterday but before I start doing that I happened to see some of the amazing young people and their achievement. This made me question myself, what I good at. First, this question makes me feel cheesy because I am too old to ask myself what I am good at, but I realize I still should analyze myself of what I am good at, to maximize my strength and to work on it.
Second, knowing the things I am good at, could be the reason I could be proud of myself. Lately, I don't trust myself. Sometimes I go for a pla, write it and do it on the first day. After that, I already forgotten. I am not sure if I jinx myself in writing it or by doing it, or I am just a total loser of my own plans.
Third, maybe I could find an inspiration towards it. Maybe I am good at something and I never realize I could develop that skill and be used in the future, like a future work or a business perhaps.
So while resting, in the hard floor with a pillow, lol, I had this thought of what I am good at. I take down notes of the things I am good at, virtually, of course, because I am just lying on the floor (see how lazy I am?) or I do it only in the mind. It is just a silly thought everyone don't take it seriously.
I know how to dance but I'm not good at it, or maybe?
Yes, I am happy when dancing. I am just lazy and always tired. I can dance but I am not good at it. I know the standard of good to excellent, and even to passionate dancing, is there are such? I can tell I can dance. I can step into a tune. I can follow a choreography. I can move like the way other dancer though but with 2% effort because I am physically heavy, fat, ugly, whatever. But I tell I can dance. I can groove, but not as good as the dancer.
At the office they tell me to start a zumba class with me as the choreographer, omg!! I am just waiting for someone to have it organize ans I hope it didn't bother schedule. I can tell I am good in zumba by the way, for me it is easy. It is a possible income for me when pursued.
I am a Good Data Analyst
Hold your horses, I am no specialist on that area. I just learned it from experience. You know the kind that you research and get the data, and organize the data for easy reading. I prefer Excel and I use pivot for the digits. That simple things only. However, this is the Year of digital. I might be a good candidate for a Data Analyst.
I saw a specific platform that offer courses about Data Analyst, Web Developer etc. The name is Refocus and it seems legit. I attended free seminars and the only problem is that, you need to take a course and the tuition fee is humungous. It is really expensive. Right now they offer installment but still can't afford it. I realize, I can still enhance my Data Analytic skills with the twich of using free platforms such us YouTube and TikTok. Of course these will not telle everything for free, but that is for now.
I can sing but I am humble so I will say I am not Good at it
I am a choir member for more than 20 years. I became a choir since my grade school to college and some happened on my workplace. Due to some priorities ans being introvert, I decided to sing in the shower and enhance my voice also when doing the dishes.
I am Proud to say that I can sing Korean songs because I like Kpop but I am not sure if that is acceptable especially on how I pronounce the word. I am just happy that I can sing songs from other language like Japanese, Thailand and Korean because of love for their good music. I can use this talent in TikTok actually. I can hold a live singing other language song and earn from it. I will start saving up confidence first.
Other than those above I am good on lots of things like, washing the dishes, bathing my dogs, eating lots of food, sleeping, watching Netflix, fangirling, gossiping, doing the laundry, walking, overthinking and online stalking, lol.
So it is getting long and I started to be talkative online again. I stop from here. It will be a good discussion if your share what you are Good at. It could be a good writing prompt too, so join me guys!!
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All Original Content by @Grecy095
Ang init!!
Nakaka pang init ng ulo ang init!
Ibang klaseng init to lalo na saga tao sa labas at kahit sa mga nasa loob ng bahay.
Grabe, Kung ngayon mainit, pano pa kaya sa mahal na araw, eh kadalasan grabe ang init sa ganun.
Why I failed to rescue these kittens?
March 17, 2023
Annyeong chinggu!! How are you today?
Actually, I am not fine. My anxiety was up to the highest level earlier this morning because of these kittens. While going to work, a heard a cry of a kitten. The sound is really a cry of a baby one. I tried to find it and I found it on a gate. It seems that the kitten is trying to sneak out. The places it is staying is a busy road. There are lots of vehicles around and even people are in and out. I am afraid the kitten will meet an accident so I tried to get it.
I was being careful but the kitten was too scared to trust me. Instead of giving me a chance to hold her, she run and hide in the motorcycle. I still tried to hold her and I even talk to her but she doesn't allow me. She was so afraid and she got angry. Then she got a chance, she started running fast and hide in the pot of plants. I still tried to get her, but she started scratching me and she even wants to bite me. I take a rest from time to time because my goal is to get her but she didn't give me a chance.
This is her, hiding in the pots of plants.
this is the closer view.
I still stayed there hoping she will calm down but the more I get near, the more she feels my existence and she become really aggressive. While I was trying to get her, I heard another cry of a kitten. I started looking for another kitten because I saw that the kitten I was talking about was just breathing and doesn't make a noise, so where the hell is the other one. Then I saw a yellow tail showing in a gate. She was there crying. I can understand what she was saying and she was saying to me to leave them alone.
This is her in the gate.
This is the closer view of the kitten. She is looking at me.
Since the other was all stress out and aggressive, I really told God to take care of them instead. I fail to rescue them because I am late at work and I can't stay for them. Even if I tried a lot of times, they don't allow me. They are aggressive. I gave up and left the place.
Here at work, I can't stop thinking about them. Just recently, I witness a kitten hit by a van. I saw it on my own eyes. I was trying to rescue the kitten that she ran so fast. Now, another kitten incident and I am having anxiety now. You can say I am a weak person, but I am, I am really weak when it comes to cats and dogs. If I can help them, I will help them. And I can't move on when I failed to do that. It really affects me.
I am sharing it here to relieve my stress because if I will just sit in the office and worry, I can't be okay. I need to be okay because I have lots of work to do, but the feeling is getting heavy. I can't rescue all the animals I see on road and I always fail. I just leave it all to God.
All images are mine
All original content by @Grecy095
Kitten Died in Front of Me and Jungkook's Saddest Live
March 16, 2023
Hi! Annyeong Chinggu! I kind of feeling low as of the moment because of what happened to me last March 14. This is a sad story. If you are a pet lover I suggest stop reading. For sure you will feel bad after, I don't want to ruin your mood. If you want to know what happened continue reading but reader's digression okay?
As I was going home, I was walking in the road when I saw a kitten running. I hurried to get it but it was very quick that it run so fast. I was carrying my heavy bag that is why I can't run fast, and before I have the kitten in my hand, it was hit by a van. I almost have it. I almost grab the young one but a fast van came up and it happened. I was almost hit too by a motorcycle because I was trying my might to get it but...
I don't want to continue...
I was okay on that Tuesday night, trying to meet my 5k steps a day that is why I was walking instead of being a passenger in the vehicle. I am not expecting something that will drain my energy. I instantly become weak and tired after witnessing it. Why do I have to witness such gruesome....
On that night, same sad stories continues. I was delighted to know that one of my bias from BTS, Jungkook is having his Weverse live. Weverse is an App in Korea that focuses on Korean Idols. I happened to see the notification that Jungkook is having his live.
It was funny because he made his live in three part. There is part to part 3. He changes clothing just to differentiate his live. Normally Jungkook sings during his live and he has interactions with Army. During this live he also did that, but the difference is he changed his attire. He came with black, then white polo and the Violet ski costume.
However on the third part, near the end of it, Jungkook was drunk already, trying to make Army sleep. He started to play mellow music, I think I am heading theta waves or binaural sound waves he is playing on the background. He started to look at the screen for a minute straight. I am not sure if he is reading the comments of the Army watching him then suddenly tears fell from both of his cheek.
He wiped his tears, look at the screen and waved goodbye.
As a Virgo, I have a high instinct that there is something going on. Even on his recent live, I can sense he is going through something deep. I don't want to say he is having depression because who I am to judge him, but I feel it. I am just assuming. I can feel his sadness. I can feel he wants to tell us something. On the other hand he was drunk, but I also sense some drinking habit occurring and it has connecting to what is happening to him.
He waved goodbye and ended part 3. You can see his tears still falling while he is saying goodbye. I was left wondering what is happening to him. Of course I'm so concern because I am his Stan. I love Jungkook to pieces. I feel bad that he is sad. Then suddenly I felt anxious. Everyone, every fans reacted on Twitter. Everyone were worried. I felt scared.
I received a notification that Jungkook came back for part 4 of his live. He said that he forgot to say goodbye. He started for less than 5 minutes I guess or shorter than that. Then he said goodbye and I was left scared. I will just share what I felt during that live though because of I will include it here for sure you will just yawn because this blog is getting to long.
Anyway, I will stop from here. I shared this sadness because it is getting heavier when time comes. I wish it help me a little to get rid of the negativity that is started to crawl in my system. See you on my next blog, annyeong!!
All images are my screenshot from Jungkook's live AT #weverselive
All Original Content by @Grecy095
Celebrating my Bias' and Bff's Birthday!!
March 13, 2023
Hello everyone!! Annyeong haseyo chinggu!! This article is very late already as I should post this last Saturday but due to tiredness I forgotten it. I also had a rest on Sunday. I rest from everything.
As you know, I am a fan OF BTS and my Bias Min Yoongi aka Suga had his birthday last March 9. Me and my bff celebrated it late because we combine the birthday of one of my bff to celebrate Suga's birthday instead.
This is what happened. Last Saturday, March 11, we prepared a simple celebration for my bff's birthday and Suga. We did it at one of my bff's house. We just prepared cake, chicken and spaghetti. We also decorated their dining room.
This is me sticking Suga's poster on the wall. And below is the birthday celebrant. See Tofu, the dog. He is so happy seeing us inside our house. I love that dog so much.
Actually we get tired of putting all the letters of happy birthday because my bff, who is the celebrant, was so slow in putting it all. We are all hungry that we don't want to help her anymore.
Above is the nonsense decor she finished for herself. It comes from noncreative mind, as in walang kwenta lol.
After 3 to 4 hours of decorating and preparing food, we started the celebration at 3pm.
These are their cakes. The cake of Suga was ruined by the rider who delivered it. We gave him bad review.
Below is the cake for my bff, but since 8 don't want to ruin Suga's face in his cake, I put the Suga topper on her cake instead, lol.
These are the simple but yummy foods prepared.
We watched BTS concert 5th Muster in Seoul in their big television and we enjoyed the concert so much. For real, that is what we usually do during our BTS DAY, we will watch BTS content, eat food and we will talk for hours.
After that, we went to Starbucks West Avenue and stayed there for 4 hours! We talked a lot and it seems we haven't talk for ages. One day is not enough for us.
I snapped a photo of my new BTS pictures. Above are pictures of Suga and Jungkook. These are all my favorite era of my biases.
I went home at 12 midnight. I watched The Glory until morning after that.
It was a tiring but full of happiness. I am like recharged again because I was with my favorite people.
All images are mine
All Original Content by @Grecy095
Things that I am Too Old For..
February 27, 2023
Hello everyone! I hope you are feeling good and safe. I have more absences due to doing something personal. I keep looking for alternative for this site. Extra earnings are now doom and I only have a wishful thinking that everything will be back to normal, like they used to be. I even thought I am the jinx because every time I join an online earning site, something bad happen, lol.
Moreover, I was busy studying Korean language yesterday when I overheard my mother talking about someone. Outside our house, there were also people talking about someone else life. I get tired as my energy is draining because of the topic. The topic keep repeating from ages. I'm tired of all that kind of drama. I realized I am tired of so many things. It seems that I am really getting old. I even listed down things that I am too old for and the things I don't want to do anymore.
Things that I am too old for
**Talking about someone's life.**
I don't have time to get to know other's agenda, much more if that does not involve me or any of my family. Stories could share from people to people. Not all information are given to become an information or will be stated as fact. Not all stories being shared are even true. There is always two sides of the story. It is much better to talk to people involved, face to face, to clear the issue than share it to someone that will only enjoy the scene because most people are only listening for entertainment purposes. I rather spend my little time in sleeping or resting that listening to other's stories.
**Having too many friends and be active in GC**
GC, stands for Group Chat. Since the start of pandemic, and even when it was not there, I have been a member of different GC. I have all the kinds of people inside the GC. Not all GC are helpful to me, in fact most of them only eats my time. I rather stays in three GC and these are my family's GC, my closest friend's GC and work GC. I don't have the time to read and mingle. Even if I try to be friendly, my time does not allow me. I also appreciate if someone ask me first if they want me to be included in a GC, before adding me.
**Saying YES to an invites, even if it comes from a Relative or closest friends**
I am too old for saying yes and be a burden to myself thinking I had hurt someone from saying No to their invites. I am tired of allowing myself to be in a place when I will feel uncomfortable, talking with someone I am not of interest (yes, even with some relatives, I am not interested to know what is happening on them, lol) and sometimes even if it is for camaraderie, I say NO. I am a person with limited time to rest so my remaining time everyday should be for my sleep and rest. But I say yes to tacos all the time.
**Buying stuff I don't need**
When I was young, when I saw someone buying books, I will buy those books too. When they buy dresses, shoes and other trending stuff, I have to have it too. That is the reason of losing some savings. Since the time that I am earning money and start saving, I focus on buying things I really, really need. When I am checking stuffs online, I will think for 3 days before deciding to buy it. I even write reasons before I go for it. Money matters to me now. My hard earned money are only for the stuff that are much needed by me and my family. I don't care if I don't have anything that is trending as of the moment, as long as I can wear a decent close and shoes, my bags are okay, I am okay. I am too old to follow the trend.
As I begin to reflect whole doing this article, I have lots of things that I stop doing at present. I will share more in the future post. I think I become adult already that what matters are only that things that will help me to grow more. I more think about myself, not to the point that I become selfish. Sometimes putting ourselves first put us in peace and comfort, that no money could buy. I stay this way. Do you have the things that makes you think, I'm too old for that?
All Original Content by @Grecy095
Images are from Unsplash
My Serious Issue at present
February 17, 2023
Hello to my loving readers and members of this site. I hope you are doing good, safe and sound. This is the start of the weekend so I hope you will have a good rest.
I am kind of having uncertainties, feeling uncomfortable and some disappointments. Just this week, my favorite Kpop Idol, who is one of my bias, announced his solo concert tour. He is Suga of BTS. I am so happy when I found it out, but the smile on my face instantly gone when I learned that my country is not included in the concert.
Above is his tour announcement poster.
And this is him, Suga of BTS.
I am disappointed that I didn't read about my country, although it says on the poster that it is to be updated but it was written on the country Japan only. I am having anxiety if the poster says "to be updated in Japan only" or to be updated to include some countries. It is really vague for me to understand as my mind becomes cloudy or foggy as soon as I read it.
Many fans from my country shared their disappointments on Twitter and also very confused if our country is not included for now or not included at all. They are all complaining and begging for us to be included. Not only from my country, but fans from Europe and other Asian countries are demanding to be included. I really hope Suga will consider.
Since I really love Suga, my heart broke instantly. While being hurt, half of my brain is beginning to plan just in case our country, the Philippines is not included. My BFF helped me in analysation for the plans. She said we can go to Singapore and she will not watch the concert but only accompany me since it is my first time flying.
I felt good after that. I started computing the travel allowance, the plane ticket and I assume about the price of the concert ticket, and then I remember I cannot ride an airplane.
I never experienced riding an airplane and even elevator that is more than 10th floor. I have nerve problems and having ear issue is added to my difficulties. Also I am claustrophobic and aerophobic. I think I cannot get inside the plane at all.
That is my biggest challenge. You might say having fears is all in the mind but this something I need to fix before the big day, but still I'm not ready and very scared. I just hope that when it is updated, my country will be included.
I will solve this issue of mine, but for now all I can do is to wait for the next update and I will start my decision from there. Wish me luck!
All images comes from Bighit Accounts on Twitter.
All Original Content by @Grecy095
She is not that happy..
February 16, 2023
Hello to all of the remaining readers and writers of this site!! I am glad you are still here and I know we are still here until we are allowed too.
It has been lots of days that I was missing writing in here and the topic I want to shared had missed out lots of times too. Today I will share my thoughts about it. February 2, is the birthday of my mother and she just turned 70 that day!! She recently receive a huge blessing that she shared to us her children. We still celebrated her birthday the way we normally do because she doesn't like buying lots of food. She always wanted a simple celebration. Because of that we just ordered her favorite foods and her new favorite cake.
One thing I noticed is that, I feel that she is not that happy. Maybe because we didn't gave her some gifts that we usually do. She just received a large sum of money, including her siblings so me and my sister assumed that she doesn't need a gift anymore. However, my mother will be using that money for the reconstruction and renovation of our house and we, her children, decided that we will just pay it back in installment because we want her to enjoy her money. I am happy for her but being a Virgo woman, my instinct is strong that she is not happy. I feel that she is not really happy receiving that large amount, however, it has been helping us in regular spending for our needs. I still give her the budget at home twice a month and it has been normal for me give my share even though she said I should give what I can give.
I am happy for her because she is now 70 and she just received a huge blessing, but if I come to think about it, that kind of amount is very cheap and one could spend that in a day. We will stick to the promise to pay back whatever we spend from that money.
I am thanking God for giving her strength everyday to face the day. She might be old but her body is strong. Not only that,she is very smart too. I cannot live a day without her. She has this wisdom that school and books never told me. I learned a lot from her with practicality in life. I am grateful being her daughter. I become strong because of her and relying on her is one of the best move I ever made. I wish I could be like her. I love you Mama!
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All original content by @Grecy095
Why Turkey Earthquake causes my Anxiety to get severe?
February 10, 2023
Before I start my story for today, I am asking for your prayers to all the people affected by the recent 7.8 magnitude earthquake happened in south-eastern Turkey last Monday, February 6. The death toll now is 15,000 estimated and it was declared that it the most dangerous earthquake in our history.
I cannot look at the news whenever the devastation is being shown. It is really the biggest disaster we ever faced. I am really shock and afraid of it. I can't avoid not seeing it though, as it is all in social media and I can't help but cry and pray every time I see a post about it. It really broke my heart. My anxiety starts right after. I am not at peace anymore because of this.
It is really traumatic as the bodies they are getting are mostly dead and it is such a blessing if they rescue a person that is still breathing. Just before I started this article, I was in Instagram and I saw a dog being rescued.
It is still alive and was in shock. The rescuer is giving him a water but he kept looking to everyone. When his buried body escaping the rocks he started crying. I cried too. The anxiety starts after seeing it.
The one dog above is another dog in the same situation. He was rescued too.
For sure there are lots of situations like that there. There are still people who are alive under the collapse building. There are still pets and people that are trying to breathe while being buried alive. Imagine that scenario happening to you. It made me think that we are all not ready for this kind of disasters. This will really kills everyone.
The 7.8 magnitude earthquake is scary already but it made it more deadly because of the tremors. There were lots of after shock after the strong tremors. There are lots of people being affected and died because the earthquake happens early in the morning and people are still sleeping, it was hard for them to escape it. Right now, everyone from Turkey needs are prayers. They need foods, clothing and money. Let us donate in whatever we can. I apologize as I don't know where I can donate so I am just praying in my little room as God can make the impossible. God will able to help them.
I pray that the search and rescue operations continues and all of them, that are still alive will able to be found alive. I hope all of the bodies will retrieve death or alive. I am still in tears knowing there are someone out there, being weak, needs food and water but they are still buried alive under the collapsed building. I pray they will not give up and be hopeless, especially the rescuer. I pray that God give them enough strength and will to find everyone out there. I pray also for the passing of people and I pray for their family. This is the time when we need to let go all of our problems for the meantime and be one in praying for all affected by this earthquake. Please include everyone for your prayers.
All original content by @Grecy095
All images are screenshot from Animalshot account in Instagram.
These two, Thank You!!!
February 3, 2023
I have something to share for today, a story about my mother's birthday and why I feel like she is just partially happy. I don't know, but it is a weird feeling that she should be happy because of the blessing she received. But, but, but, let me cancel that story and share that for tomorrow instead. The reason? Because I received a surprise, a big blessing here.
Let me mention the name of the first person who is consistently supporting my article. It makes me happy that someone from here that is willing to wait if I had written something and he will share his blessings to me. It really helped me to move forward and keep on writing. He made me feel that I should not stop writing and should continue my passion. Not only me, but lots of my friends are receiving tips too. He become the Random rewarder after RR say his goodbye.
Regularly when I always come back here after a day, I can see the movement of my balance. It might be a small amount but it made me inspire to write everyday. I might be very busy lately but tonight I am here and I want to post this one as a recognition to them.
The first person is @Coolmidwestguy He is so kind, a very kind hearted person to support my random thoughts. I feel he likes reading because my articles are just about what I was doing and thinking. You know that kind of stuff but he still able to be present in attendance in sharing his tips. I am always thankful to you Mr. Cool for always supporting me!!
Another person is @ewyr, am I correct with this one? This is the first time my eyeballs grew bigger when I come back here. He or she gave me $15 in total for my three articles. I don't know what she sees in my articles but I hope he or she enjoyed it, haha. I really hope so. Thank you @ewyr for supporting me. That was a big amount. God bless you. It will be a great help!!
For the writers who are still with us, keep on writing, for we have two good people that could support us. This makes me feel I need to be active and improve my writing. Also it makes me feel that being here might be giving me the roller-coaster ride of experience but it will be the best experience at all. Not everything is permanent though, so I need to enjoy while it last. Again, these two, kamsamhamnida (thank you in korean), I cannot survive my writing experience without you.
Now I have more $15 on my balance and now it is time for sharing it!!
Image one is my edit. Picture 2 and 3 are from Unsplash
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Your Resident Badjao Girl!
January 28, 2023
Hello Everyone! I hope you are still fighting for your life and choose not to give up. Lately, I have been reading some post on social media about the challenges some people are going through. I have a Facebook account on my other phone that I browsed last night before going to bed. That is very wrong actually. It is advisable not to browse your phone, especially any social media because it could affect your thoughts that instead of you to focus on sleeping, you start to think again. That is truly me, that is why it is a no no for me to use my phone 30 minutes before going to bed.
But again, guys, this is not really my topic. First, there are good news that my mother received this week and it pushes through until Thursday. I was not here yesterday because I was busy with all the purchases and grocery at home. My mother received a big amount of money. She was so surprised and we are all happy. We are all happy because next week will be her birthday, it is so fun!!!
I remember my money manifestation that I had done last November and December. I might not get the amount I am manifesting, but I am happy that it is happened to my mother, now we can renovating our house. I am accident for my own room!!
Second, this is really the topic guys, I apologize. I had done a makeover to my hair. I had it cut short and I replaced the color. It is a mix of blonde and pink, but of course it will not be always successful with my hair. It always leads to different color. I can't achieve it. It always needs a bleach in order to achieve the color I want. Anyway, I like the color results. Let me show you.
Resident Badjao Girl!
Why do I come out with the name? Remember I was blonde before? It was the first time I had a blonde. I always have a darker tone due to I am not trying to use a bleach. When I had my blonde color it is with the help of bleach. Well, the neighbor were all talking about the color of my hair. They said that I am too old for the blonde hair and it doesn't fit my skin tone. They said that I am not fair in complexion so I should not have blonde hair because I look like a Badjao.
Badjao are the people living near the sea. The color of their hair are blonde or chocolate because they are always in the sea and under the sun that changes the color of their hair.
My very kind hearted neighbor who are always "concern" and updated with my life, aka "Marites"(aka Karen's ) calls me a Badjao, because I look like it, according to them. I didn't react to that and even my mother happens to know it, she was just laughing about it because the bitterness of the "Marites" are reflected to the name they are giving me. At least this Badjao girl is more beautiful, elegant, hard working and earning money. How about them? I am laughing at them back because they don't have a regular job that is why they all have the time to mingle in the street talking about other's life. I just hope they will get a job that will keep busy and earns them good.
I noticed that they are always like that when something good is happening in my family and I thank God that He continuous to give us blessing. When we will start to renovate our house and have it finish, the "Marites" will die a natural death due to bitterness, so I hope they are enjoying their life now.
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I discover something new today. I was figuring out how to delete my drafts ever since it was piling up and now I accidentally got to know how. Just go to the article you need to delete. On the side, you can see three dots, click it and you will see edit article. Your article will open and on the upper right side of your article there is Publish. On the Publish part, right click the three dots again and there is a Delete Article. That is the way to delete it.
I edit myself to something I want to achieve in the future!
January 26, 2023
Hello everyone and happy Thursday to you guys! I am here at work and now I am thinking going home because I am tired already. It is like I am working because I need to earn money but no achievement at all. I am just thinking of the money I will save if I still work, that's it. So before anything else, another prompt from @Coolmidwestguy that I saw yesterday and now I am joining this one because I have something to share. After this article I will get back to my stressful life at the office, lol.
What do you think is the best thing that happened in your life so far?
I can say that having two jobs and consistently working on it everyday, except Sunday are the best thing that happened in my life. I said this because I can regularly provide for my family and I can save money now. I can able to continually provide for my family's needs, even for my pets. I even treat my dearest closest friends too. I can get something for myself. I can buy what I want without even looking at the price. I can eat or dine-in in a restaurant without looking at the price but on the most ordered food. It is like the results of my hard work from my life before and I never thought I worked hard too.
What are some of your favorite things ***(i.e. travel vacations, food, hobbies, etc)?***
Actually, the real favorite things for me is to sleep and rest. I want to lie down on bed or in the floor with all of my pets around me. That is my favorite things. However, in the future, I will seize the day doing these things below.
**Visiting Jeju Island or any places in South Korea**
You see the picture above. I edited myself in one of the beautiful places in Jeju Island. In the future, I will be there and this selfie will be real. I also want to visit Seoul, Itaewon, Gangnam, Daegu, Ilsan and Busan. South Korea is the first place and it will not take long I will visit Japan and Thailand. I need lots of savings for that.
**Watch BTS in Concert**
In the future, or surely year 2026 I will watch one of BTS concert. Hopefully they will have one concert here in the Philippines, if not, i need to travel to other countries if they held in there. It is one of my dream to be part of the purple ocean as an Army. I don't care if I am near the stage or not, but I will be there one day. I even edited myself on one of their concert because I will make that happen. I will make a selfie the same pose I have there. One day I will be part of the purple ocean.
By the way, above is the photo of Purple Ocean.
**Be an Employee at Hybe Labels**
I don't know what is happening to me that I edited myself that I was in Hybe building hallway. I am imagining myself working there. That is the reason I am studying Korean, so that when I go there, it will not be hard for me to communicate and if I need another Korean formal class, it will easier on my part.
I think I can be of use in Hybe's purchasing department because I have experienced with the kind of job and I am an Order Entry specialist on my online job. One day I will be working with them, either onsite or online.
Your Best Day Ever
A best day for me is when I am not that stress at work, I able to go home on time, I able to sleep or take a nap during break time, I able to sleep when I get home, I able to help on household chores, problems are solved and I will sleep early. That is my best day ever, but of course if I will see BTS in the future, that will be ultimately counted as my best day ever! BTS makes me happy and hard working, lol. They are my source of energy and the reason why I laugh so hard!
**Something you haven't done but wants to**
Travel. I really want to travel but I still need a procedure done on my ear in order for me to survive it. It is a long story though. That situation of mine stops me from riding an aircraft and even an elevator. I need a procedure done to my ear first and then I will see from there.
Also, I have been to job that I really love. I think I am more on the creative side and production side, like everything that involves performing. I noticed that I lead every time there is a performance here at work. I think I am in a wrong side of a career that is why I feel toxic most of the time.
**Someone who has meant the most to you in your life so far**
It is always my family, pets and my BFF. Most of the people I am meeting everyday contribute to me being a good human but still I go for the people I cannot live without. There is no perfect relationship in all aspect but my family, pets and BFF are very dear to me. I will
You can join this prompt by visiting this link https://read.cash/@Coolmidwestguy/my-turn-fd5205c1 and thanks for @Coolmidwestguy for giving us an idea of what to share about ourselves.
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My Dog Knows
January 25, 2023
Hello everyone!! Before I share my thoughts for today, I would love to ask you, how are you? I'm really serious on this, how are you? I know all of us are having a tough times in any levels of our lives and it is hard to fight alone. I want you to know that in connection with me asking you if you are okay, is a prayer for you too. I will pray for you because it is hard to walk in the battles alone. I wish you good luck and please do everything to survive!!
Last night, I was talking to my BFF. I shared to her some of my tough challenges at present, that includes my frustrations and being always feeling tired. I am tired of being tired with my life but it seems that I cannot do anything about it but to let it pass me. I don't have any plans of working it out because even if I will try to solve, I know I will not be consistent.
While talking to her my dog, I looked around the house to find for my dog. My dog Unnie is like a daughter to me. When I feel sad she feels it. At the moment that I was looking for her I didn't notice that she was just in front of me, looking at me.
I know she knows that I am talking to someone and sharing some stories. I know she knows that I am talking to a closest friend.
I asked her why she is looking at me and she looks the other way. While chatting to my friend, i never thought that I will cry. The tears just flow in my cheeks. My mother was beside me, watching Maria Clara and Ibarra. Good thing, the drama is showing sad part, which lead me to freely shows my tears. I wipe my tears a lot of times and wipe it with my shirt. My sobs can be heard too but its okay, my mother will not know what is really happening to me.
Only my dog who is still looking at me could feel the weight of my shoulder. She can tell from the sound of my sob. She knows what I was going through. From the look on her face, she seems know that I have problems.
Until I felt okay after I shared what I felt with my bff, she was still looking at me. She never left, she is just in front of me. Later on, she lay down beside me. I can feel that she is hugging me when she put her hand on my legs. I can feel they she's telling me that she is there, she will never leave me. I cried more. I know that my dogs knows. I know that she is worried and hoping she can understand my words when I share it to him. She can only understand the feeling I am sharing. I just wish she is my real daughter, the one I can talk with regardless of her age, but still I am thankful that I have her with me and she loves me unconditionally. I am a very lucky fur parents.
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Have you found your color?
January 23, 2023
How you all doing?I am had a good Sunday because my sister did a therapy to me. It was a whole body massage that relaxes my whole existence, lol. She did it for an hour, had my lunch and I was sleeping the whole afternoon, in fact, I just woke up from a long sleep! It is really good. We really need this kind of massage per week because it indeed makes us happy. I am happy today!! I am relax and rejuvenated!
Anyway, that is not my real topic, I only shared what I felt for today. My real topic is I found my color! Nope, this is not really necessary to anyone, however, to me, a color radiates me. It obviously explains my little beauty. I had lots of colorful shirts that I thought look good on me but the comments of my friends when they saw me wearing this color is awesome.
I had orange shirts before and even up to now. I thought I look younger and the color describe what I feel inside. I am little energetic when I am wearing orange color by the way. It gives an additional youthful energy.
Yellow is my favorite color. When I am wearing yellow, everyone knows that I am in a good mood. Yes, I am. I wear yellow at work. It gives me a good shine.
Blue is my comfort color. When I am wearing this it means I am ready to get stress at work or in life but I'm going to be chill about it.
My other color is black, but black has a fail connection with my hair. I look dry in black, but black is comfort color too. When I am wearing it, I don't feel insecure because I know it hides my belly fats. Also, if I am wearing black it means that I will have to hustle all day that I don't need to check on what I look like. Black means I will be ready for the day without checking if I look good.
But this one, this color, I really love it. It shows the real me. I describes who I am. In this color, you can really tell someone is reserved because she is an introvert but she is ready to face a possible new friends. She might be silent and shy , yet those characteristic will make her shine. Actually, I don't know if you get what I am saying, I am just appreciating the color that really fits me. It makes me stand out during the time I don't bother to stand out. I am happy that when I need to choose a color of a dress, I could pick one easily.
What do you think is your color and how it describes you?
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I was affected by Mercury Retrograde!
January 20, 2023
Just before December ends last year, I was feeling demotivated in life at all. When holiday starts on December 30,2022, even before that, I made plans on what to do during those times. I plan to take a rest and do some things at home like organizing my BTS albums, some of my unused clothes and some stuff. I had a feeling that the holiday is the perfect time for me to do it all.
When the holiday begins, I found myself lying down in bed and sometimes just lying on the floor. My pets will step all over me, treated me like a rug, but I don't care. I was still lying on the floor, sleeping or just entertaining being tired. I don't care about everything. The plan had vanished.
That demotivations and steady tiredness continuous up to the next year, year 2023. While everyone was doing their New Year's Resolution I was still lying on the floor. Even when I go to work, I still feel demotivated. As soon as I get home, my body will lay on the floor and sleep. I was like this up to the second week.
Then while watching Tiktok, a certain content said that Mercury Retrograde is already ended and I can see from the background my zodiac sign, Virgo. I don't know about Mercury Retograde and I am not really interested to know, however, I remembered I was all tired, weak and demotivated so I got curious and made a research.
According to the one posted the content, Mercury Retograde starts December 29 and finished on January 18, 2023. If you felt you are tired and disoriented these past few weeks then you are definitely affected by Mercury Retograde. As we all know, Mercury is spinning around the orbit and from what I read, during Mercury Retograde, the spin is backwards. Disclaimer, please do not rely on what I read, it is risky, lol. You can do your own research. This is just based on what I understand.
During Mercury Retrograde, I also read that it is not spinning backwards, but we only see it look like backwards because Mercury spinning in the orbit around the sun faster than any planet in the solar system. When this happens, it could affect everyone living on earth. Some situation are like these, unresolved drama, decision making is affected, unsettled situation, tiredness, disorientation, miscommunication, frustration and technological mishaps. Everyone should be careful in making decision making and contract signing because it may turn into a problems in the future.
That is exactly what I experienced. I am not saying that Mercury Retrograde is the culprit, but I was affected by it. I became moody and disoriented. Suddenly I was like lost in translation with what I plan to do and I don't care if I will accomplish something. I don't want to move at all.
At present, I am not sure if I already get over it because as it stated the Mercury Retograde already ended, but I can say that I am not like that before. Right now things are starting to fall into place one by one and I have an idea about my plans. I wish I could start doing it.
Do you experience the same mood during December 29 to January 18, 2023?
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This is what happens to my hands now
January 18, 2023
Hello everyone. I was missing in attendance here yesterday due to chronic muscle pain. My arms down to my hands are all in pain. I had a volume of documents finished yesterday. I really pushed to finish it because I feel that the pain on my hand will last for days. And I was not wrong because today, I was half day at work because of it. I rendered half day and my morning time was on SL due to dizziness due to pain and hand sprain.
To lessen the pain and to be able to work in the afternoon I cover my hands with bandage. This is to support my hand and for me to stop typing fast. Both of my hands are suffering. I also have mild carpal tunnel syndrome that I think is already severe because of my habits of typing fast. I can do 70wpm if the volume of documents are needed to finish in a day.
I have no choice but to still work in the afternoon because there are lots of documents that are still needed to finish. Yearly, I am suffering from this pain. Plus, the weather greatly affects and causes the pain because when I am using water, it is so cold. I have to admit that sometimes I am washing my hands while working, due to I'm using a restroom. It becomes a habit to always wash my hands.
I used my hands for typing. My hands will rest only if I am sleeping. As soon as I woke up, I'm using my hand, I think everyone does. The amount of rest versus the amount of usage of my hands are not equal. My hands are always overwhelmed. Now I seriously realized how important our hands it. It is equally important with our feet too, but I used my hands most of the time. Like every seconds of my time, I used it. Just like now I'm using it to type my article here.
Having a carpal tunnel is difficult and challenging. Sometimes pain reliever medicine will not help. I really suffer from pain. This is the kind of pain that I cannot tolerate. I need to rest my hand for a while and I will be back again guys. I need to heal it because having hands is really vital.
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Why do we need to do Mental Decluttering?
January 16, 2023
In our present life, there are lots of stress and anxiety we experience everyday. We are not aware that even our own habits are the first contributor why we can't get rid of stress. For example, why we have headaches as soon as we woke up? Having pain in the morning will truly give us stress and worries immediately, but why are we experiencing it? We will realize that too much using our mobile phones in the night that we should be sleeping is the culprit of losing sleep that causing the headache. In this area, the cause of pain is the habit that we develop that we could change.
Personally, I am experiencing it and I am very willing to change my habit for a better living. I searched ways on how to do it and I will be sharing it with you.
Set Boundaries and Schedules
Let me be the one as the example. I get stress from everything I do everyday. I get stress when I found out the price of commodities, fare and some taxes. I get stress from work from all the problems. I think being available to almost everything contributed to all of my worries and anxiety.
To help myself, I need to set boundaries and schedules. On boundaries, I should be not be always available to everything. I limit myself to knowing it all. I limit myself to working my own task at work and for taking care of the problems of some. I hate thinking all the time. It makes me tired. I felt sorry for myself after realizing that I should not be involved in it in the first place so now I setting my boundaries.
Journaling
I remember when I was young, I was writing a diary. Even when I started working, I was still doing it. Being busy and being not available to write is the reason it became irregular. Ever since I was young, I know that journaling can help in escaping some unwanted thoughts in my brain. It is really effective when you don't have anyone to talk to, too. In journaling, I will able to write all that is in my head and put it on my journal. All the thoughts that are cluttering will be cleaned and thinking about it could be halted.
Meditation
Meditation is the act of thinking or contemplating. This is done regularly before sleeping or before or after daily task. This simply relaxes our brain from doing all the thinking within the day. It also serves as a reset so that we can filter the ones that we need to think about.
Having Enough Rest and Sleep
The reason why we are grumpy in the morning and most of the time is lack of rest. Having complete and enough rest will help our brain to have it's rest. Having 6 to 8 hours of sleep will rest our brain too. We already used our energy for the day and it is advisable to rest to replace those energy that we used. When the rest and sleep is enough, our energy is enough also to do any task and decision making. It will not push our brain to think what we need to think. Definitely, we can handle any stress that comes along.
Social Media Detox
One of the reason we are stress and our brain has lots of clutter is because of information overload. That is what we get if we use social media platform more. We read most of the time and watch contents that feeds our mind. It is also the cause of stress because sometimes we get emotionally attached to what we are reading because of past experience. Curiosity kills that cat, but it definitely kill humans too. We should only have schedule from checking the social media. If there is specific social media that we know could cause our brain clutter, we should avoid to visit it regularly. Might as well avoid negative content if you will visit social media too.
Talking to Someone
Talking to someone is an effective ways for us not to hold our phone. When we don't hold our phone, we will avoid to visits our social media platform. When we don't visit our social media platform, it avoids us for having information overload. Plus, talking to someone personally will enhance our brain. It could make as happy and calm. It even relieves stress when we are sharing our problems to the people willing to listen to us.
If our brains or minds are full of clutter, it will make us less productive and overall burnout. It uses lots of energy when we are stress and experiencing anxiety. It makes us less secure and comfortable. We need to free our mind from all the clutters so we can perform at our best. Decluttering is saving our well-being and a primary self-care. Let us save ourselves now!
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Ang ganda nitong dalawang jelly case na nabili ko from lazada. Overseas yun supplier kaya medyo matagal ang dating. Pero sulit ang paghihintat kasi mukang bago ang phone ko. Na aadict ako mag palit na mag palit ng phone ngayon.
I am Proud to be here in Read.cash!!
January 14, 2023
I am back again for another prompt from @Coolmidwestguy from this link, https://read.cash/@Coolmidwestguy/read-questions-readcashrain-announcement-1d9df457 . I will maximize to use this prompt because I have lots to say. But before that, I love to invite you guys to join us in this prompt because it is good for the heart to know the thoughts of our fellow writers about the site. From the title they use I can really say that they are using this prompt. I love to know that we are one in this kind of topic and we love Read.Cash so much.
From his prompt, I will answer his question below.
What are somethings you are proud of that you have done here?
I have to say one thing that I am proud of doing that I had done here is replying to an article that needs help. Most of us made this site as their outlet. They are sharing their problems here. They are sharing some things that made them hurt. They are sharing their lost and rejection. They are sharing their pain. They are really bold in saying they become coward and made lots of wrong decision. They even told us that they haven't anything. I am too. I admitted I am Jack of all trades, master of non. I think I had wasted all my life to do lots of things but I failed to achieved anything.
Our writers here has their freedom to share what is inside their head and in their heart. As a writer and reader, if something that I can relate, I reciprocate. If someone needs advise, I suggest. If someone needs my help, I help in my little way. But all of it are done in the comment section.
I became a member of this site year 2020, but was not active until the middle of 2021. I have to say that I have commented in lots of articles that needs advises. Those are mostly about life's choices and decision. I even made a topic about my own rejection and bullying session when I was young and some of the members can relate. They made me feel okay. I also made them feel okay because some of them realized it is okay to share something personal here and people will not judge you but hug you tightly because that is what humanities should be doing to each other.
I am proud to say that with my life's challenges experiences, I helped someone who were having difficulty. That my life's experience become useful to someone. My life's experiences and difficulties are not only for me to experience but for other's to realize something, understand and be the guiding points of their decision. I am proud to say that I stood up and talk about my opinions so that it will be an eye-opener for someone. I am proud to say that I did my share of help when someone needs it, depending they will be using the help I gave or can be used for their decision making.
Also, I am an introvert. I am not into socialization but I am here, sharing my life and someone could read it and could be my friend. In fact, it did happened. I gain virtual friends here. I am proud of myself for showing the real me and people, despite the differences accepted me and befriend me. I have to say I am more talkative virtually than in person and I enjoyed it.
Thanks for Read.Cash for existing. You had helped so many especially during the pandemic time. Some person was coward before but they learn to fight for themselves after having you. You gave a great changes to my life and to the life of the many writers here. You had helped so many financially. Now, I feel proud to be a member of Read.cash!
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Let's eat snack. This is my snacks when I was at work last week. We had our yearly inventory and everyone has free meals and snack. The work is not easy it requires a great focus that is why I was always hungry after. It is a chicken sandwich and a Starbucks coffee.
Read.Cash allows me to be Me!
January 13, 2023
Happy Friday the 13th everyone. Stay safe and dry. I am here at home and on sick leave because I felt dizzy early in the morning. I am losing a great amount of blood due to losing sleep. As much as I try to sleep, once there is a little noise I will be hearing around, I will wake up and I can't get back to sleep. I'm really suffering from it.
But, let me talk about that topic in some other time because I had found a good topic for today to talk about. I have the same topic of this here in my draft but I cannot see it anymore so I am doing a new one.
This topic is initiated by @Coolmidwestguy here in Read. This person is so generous sharing his earnings to us remaining writers here. Actually my main reason I stayed is to let everyone know that we still have active writers here and the site is still here.
https://read.cash/@Coolmidwestguy/read-questions-readcashrain-announcement-f7f5eeda
The link above is his initiated topic about Read.cash and he is allowing for us yo use as a prompt in our future post. I am joining this prompt for today.
The question I would love to answer is..
What is your favourite about this platform?
The site was not a friendly user site to me year 2020 when I got here. Thanks to my good friend who guided me all throughout. I am a person who loves to make blog because I love sharing about my thoughts and reviews. When I got to navigate the site, I found out it was easy and the rest is history.
Being paid for the things you love to do is the reason why I stay and my favorite about the site. I am not paid as high as before, I am paid a little, but still having a continuous rewards is a big thing. Actually it is something to be taken care off. Now I am pushing myself to write regularly. I am started to be motivated again because there is someone who are willing to read my below average writing and stories.
I feel welcomed. This site does not reject even my opinions. This site accepted my differences and short comings. They are not strict about grammar but strict when it comes to originality. There are lots of friendly people of different races and I met good people same as my race.
Learning the beliefs, culture, food and some good places in different countries, I happen to know them all here. I got to know the beautiful places and culture with pictures because the writers here are all passionate enough to show you all. I miss those articles actually. For now I havent seen anyone sharing new ans I hope we doesn't stop doing it.
I have more to say, but for now let me end it with saying that this site allows me to be me. It is my good and comfort place. It is a place where I share my stress and worries and readers will make you smile with their concern. It allows me to share my long story and my aspiration and people will start supporting my plans. I am hug tightly. When my tears falls, virtually someone will wipe the tears with their words and everything will lighten up. I feel okay here. This is my comfort place. This site allows me to live. This site allows me to survive my mental health.
I hope this site stays!!
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Blog No. 6 What is Toxic Positivity and why it is bad?
January 12, 2023
Have you been always positive in life? I have to admit that I was never always positive. I can count through my fingers on how many times I have been positive, counted is when I was become positive to Covid19. I was positive thinking that I can able to surpass it, but I have to admit, I was all negative at first. I don't embodies positive attitude ever since which I think helped me get anxiety, but being negative is not really bad at all.
I learned about Toxic Positivity term just recently but I already know how to feel toxic when everyone is feeling positive despite my dark and heavy situation. It happened when my father passed away. Relatives were around me making me feel I am not alone, but I felt more alone knowing that I am expecting someone that could understand how I feel yet everyone is saying I should be happy that my father is now at peace. I don't know exactly how I felt when they start saying it, but it left a big hole in my heart. My father's passing made me a different person, I was never the same ever since. The people around me that time only hurt me more than understanding how I really felt. I expect someone will tell me to just keep on crying and be sad because that are the normal emotions I should feel. I think they are expecting me to jump in joy, maybe I am overacting, but that is what I really felt that time.
Anyway, to further understand it, I will share some signs of what Toxic Positivity is for sure you already experienced this being treated with other people around you.
When you Ignore your Problems
I have one person who always says "*Bahala na si batman*"(let Batman do the work!) when it comes to problem. I am not sure if she is escaping the feeling that is attached to the problem or something else. When I start sharing her about my problems she will always say "*Kung ako yan*, *Bahala na si Batman*". This person doesn't want to listen to whining because that is negative to her. She said that she lets the problem passed her because she can't handle it on her own. She advise me to do the same and be positive.
First, Batman is a fictional character created for entertainment. Batman have nothing to do with your problem and will not solve anything from it. Second, escaping the problem might lead to a bigger problems in the future. Third, I can accept more if she tells me that she doesn't want to hear about my problems than advising me on something that will not truly help me. I am only sharing my problems just in case she have ideas to help me but clearly she doesn't have anything because she stop me from saying "*Kung ako yan, Bahala na si Batman*". Nothing wrong with being positive when you have problems, but totally ignoring it thinking that some fictional character will able to solve it is a big NO. Solve your problems that is the right thing to do.
Being Guilty for being sad
I have another person who always call my attention when I become sad about some things. She always says not to be sad and don't entertain anything sad. I lost my kitten and I was sharing her that I feel guilty for not taking care of my kitten and out of nowhere she started talking to me like "don't be sad, you are always sad". I am not always sad and I am not always happy either. I validate my feelings because that is what I really feel at the moment. It is being true to myself. I feel sad when I read sad news, bad news and even the story of others that are sad. If there are things that could make me cry, I will cry. I find her very toxic whenever she says that I am always sad. I want to spunk her in the chin.
She always wants me to feel guilty when I am sad because she never feel it, as she claims. Is there a person who never get sad? Well, if that is true lucky her, but I dare not to believe.
Advising me to be Positive when the situation is really Heavy
Same as above. When the situation is sad or heavy, some people will advise me to be positive. To be positive on what areas? Can I just feel the sadness for now and be positive after. Some people even tell me to stop crying because crying is negative. Crying is never negative. It is a normal situation. There are people who doesn't allow you to feel what you really feel just because they are positive and feeling negative is always bad. I hope they watch Inside Out movie to understand what I am talking about.
Hiding what you really feel
I have to admit that I really do this. I hide what I really feel especially in the environment when I have to be professional like at work. When the surroundings or event is happy, I hide my feelings too. I pretend I don't feel bad. But when I am alone, I cry. I show my anger and I show my pain. Some toxic positive people around me will always advise to hide what I feel because it will not help me. I wonder how? Crying really helps me a lot to lessen the heaviness in my heart and for them crying is just a waste of time. I don't understand them at all but I don't believe in what they say.
Being insensitive to other's pain because you are a positive person
Whenever you are being insensitive to other's pain and situation and you insist to be positive despite it, I will always find you as one of the toxic people around. It feels like you are clowning yourself and not really looking at the truth of life. Being positive is always helpful in certain circumstance but with the right timing. One should learn to be sensitive of other's feeling despite it is negative. Help them to overcome it by not getting straight positive about it. Everything takes time and always have the right time.
Again, on a sad and heavy situation, despite being a person who is always positive, it will not help other's to be positive right away. Allow them to feel what they really feel. Being there for them until they gather their strength is the best thing to do. Understanding the situation and what they are feeling will help them overcome their situation. When they are ready again, helping them to feel positive again will give them help.
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I don't know what is happening but I wrote an article and saved it as draft and I haven't seen it in my unpublished articles. I keep on refreshing and it is not really there. I get frustrated looking for it. Is there anyone having the same problem?
Celeste Cortesi, Ms. Philippines candidate for Ms. Universe in a Darna inspired costume. It really fitted her. It resembles a modern independent women that could be a super hero in their own way.
Blog 5. A Tooth was removed by me in my dream
January 10, 2023
I am going to be straight to the topic but I will say hello, and hope you are doing fine. I slept last night or it was early this morning. I had a very short sleep as usual. I do remember I had lots of dreams but I don't exactly know what happened to those dreams. One dream I remember was when I lost a tooth and I removed my tooth from my gums. It was not painful, or can we feel pain in our dreams? I don't remember if the dream has a color. I only know that I removed a tooth from my gum and I am just sharing it.
Does sharing it might control things that might happen? I remember when I was young, my relatives and even my friends said that when you dream about a teeth being removed someone from you know will pass away. I even had a full teeth being cracked and loosen up in my gums when I was little young, but I don't remember if someone died after I dream about it. I am sharing it because I also got to remember that sharing it could control what might happen, yet I don't know how it will take effect. I am little scared but still I am sharing it. I am sharing it to know your opinion and experience about it.
Another meaning I learned while I was growing up was, removing something from your body means you are about to remove a certain bad habit or a decision will happen that will change you or everything. When I come to think about my decision, I don't have anything or plans of removing something from me, but I want to change my sleeping habit because I get tired always. I want additional energy and having complete sleep will save me from it. I am not getting any younger. Losing sleep means unhealthy and I might get sick so I am preventing it now.
Aside from that, I remember something like, removing someone from my life. I am removing some toxic people in my life and some of them, I am not totally removing them but avoiding them instead that is why I am not in Facebook anymore. I deactivated my Facebook to prevent me from visiting that social media account because I will see their post. I am adjusting myself to a new toxic free environment.
I don't want to think about the meaning of my dream. May that dream be like some of my normal dreams. I do believe it will give me a sign or a warning, or a clue that could happen to me or anyone. I do believe that dream could help us in our present decision in life.
What do you think my friend? What is the meaning of that dream? Does it happens to you too? Kindly share your experience.
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Blog No. 4 How are you?
January 9, 2023
I remember I started writing this year but forgotten to ask question, how are my friends here? I am not sure if all of my friends are still active on this site, I am not either, but for sure some of you will visit the site from time to time and checking what is really happening on here. I cannot blame everyone from turning their back on the site. I was demotivated myself to write too. I think for December, I've only written 2 articles due to being busy at work and again, being tired all the time.
How are you?
The big question is, **how are you**? How is your life? We maybe have some bad news on this platform, especially RandomRewarder left the site , but it doesn't mean that the site will be gone too. At present, there are authors who supports articles. I am happy to receive even 0.01 in my articles because it shows that the site has still people willing to share their points and reading the post. I decided to stay and treat this site as my place of sharing my thoughts and feelings. I already set my expectations too "***no one will read your article for now***" standard so that when there is no reader at all, I will not be hurt. That is what I am doing right now. Thanks for the people who are reading my article, still! It means a lot to me.
How I am?
I am not sure if my grammar is correct but if you ask me how I am, or how I was, then this is the answer. Last December, I was busy doing money manifestation. I am not sure if I happen to share it in here or on my other blogging platform but I started it last week of November till December 14. I was active in doing money manifestation with the guidance of content creators from Tiktok. There are well established people who have been doing the money manifestation ever since, as stated by them.
I followed their instruction. I develop a habit about money and my beliefs about it really change. I found myself chanting money in my head. I even listen to money manifestation for an hour before I sleep. With the little help of consistency and determination, I had done it for 24 days.
The reason why I am doing this is, I want to receive a bonus from our company, I want to win in a raffle and i want to share those blessing to my family. About my Christmas goal, I am very happy that I had accomplished the goal amount and it was done!
December 14, 2022, it is our Christmas party at the Head Office. The employees of our company in different line of business were gathered in one place and that is where the owner of the company lives in Forbes Park Makati. I was so thrilled and still chanting the money tree manifestation and the results, I didn't win anything.
I don't feel bad because on the next day, we have our own Company Christmas party. I still have chances I said to myself. On December 15, the day of our Christmas party, I still didn't win in the raffle, but, ....but, the financial officer announced that we have a bonus!!! The amount is lower than the amount I am manifesting but it is still a bonus. I didn't win anything as well. I already give up the fact that winning in a raffle is not really for me.
Another day passes, Christmas day passes, and I learned that on Tuesday, December 27, 2022, we have a department Christmas party. It was just a simple celebration where we will celebrate the birthday of two of the people in our department too. I failed to attend because I still have work to do and all of those works are very urgent during that time.
I went home without even saying goodbye to my team that were partying in some area in the office. I just went home but I was not sad, yet I was really tired. I went home and slept. After 2 hours I received lots of missed calls by one of my office mate and she told me that I won a Microwave oven in the raffle. I was really surprised because I am not lucky when it comes to raffle. If I will get pick, I will only win a very minor prices, but this time, it was not a minor one. I am so happy!
This made me remember that I manifested for these. I manifested for the bonus and for the raffle. It was not I expected, not the amount I manifested, but it did happen. Now I know what to do on some things I want to happen in my life!
So How I was? I am happy. I might be demotivated and always tired because of my job, but I accomplished something. Something happened that made me say I did a great job! Now I know what to do.
I am just sharing the good news and some could possible ways to make things happen for us. We just need to study how our brain works. Now, I learned that manifesting, with consistency and determination, could give results. At present, I think I will work on smart work not hard work, lol.
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Blog No. 3 Why people got angry at Donnalyn Bartolome?
January 7, 2023
How are you guys? I am missing a platform where I can share my thoughts and what is on my mind. For today this is my thoughts. Very recently, Donnalyn Bartolome , a very famous content creator and Blogger shared her thoughts on Facebook about getting back to work of 2023. She became trending because of what she said. Some people are triggered because it looks like she shared her thoughts in general were we all know not all have the same job experiences.
That picture above is her exact statement and let me translate it for you.
Why do you have a sad reaction because its back to work now? Isn't should be happy because you have a chance to make your life good for you and your family? I really would love to work on January 1 because it is my superstition to work the whole year. You should be grateful because you have work. If work makes you unhappy, I hope you find a job that will. The one that gives you butterflies in your stomach and sheet. Anyway, this is just a reminder that having a job is a blessing besss change mindset, its 2023.
There are lots of people reacted to her statement. Obviously not all are really feeling okay of getting back to work because of all the stress they are experiencing there. In behalf of those people who reacted and reacted violently to her, I love to share my thoughts about it.
When I happened to read her statement, I didn't feel bad about it, however, I do not question people who reacted badly on her statement either. Not all are happy having their jobs, but they dont have a choice since they need to earn for a living.
It is all a matter of timing. I think it was posted after the holiday where lots of employees are having their very short vacation. For everyone of us, workers or non-workers, we are deserve a good rest. Rest is very vital to us. Not all want to go back to work because they love to rest more.
Donnalyn said "bakit sad?" or why you are you sad, where you should be happy because you have job, you have sources of income so you need to work, you need to be happy. That is her point. However, not all are happy in their jobs. However again, not all who have jobs who are not happy in their jobs means they are not grateful about it. They are for sure but the experience is not that good.
What are those experiences?
Over work under paid.
Commuting, poor transportation
Mental health and toxic environment
Work difficulty
Many to mention
Those are the things, the reason why people don't want to go back to work immediately. Those are the reason of the "sad" reactions.
Donnalyn suggest to look for job that will sweep off their feet, unfortunately not all can replace their job instantly because some are being paid good in their jobs but the challenge is the job itself. They are staying because of the income and stability, but they are risking their mental health. I can truly relate to that.
It is easy to say you should be happy and grateful, and for sure everyone is feeling that but not regularly. We all have moods and sometimes it is bad. You cannot dictate someone to be just happy because they have jobs, but allow them to be real with their emotions and what they really feel because that is the way to release all the negativities to make them feel okay again.
Donnalyn is uplifting everyone and telling them to be appreciative of their jobs,but the real world is not always like that. In the real world, we have the biggest challenge ahead of us and we are trying to fight to survive. That is the sad part. That is where the sad reaction came from. We are not all privilege just like Donnalyn. We are not all rich. We are not popular. We don't have our own cars. We need to meet all the odds everyday and survive. We don't have our dream jobs yet. We are still working on our dreams and it is hard for everyone to make that happen. Her uplifting words does not apply for everyone in general.
I will end this thoughts now because I have lots to say but it will only make this long. I stop from here.
Do you have the same thoughts?
Images screenshot from Donnalyn's FB Page and PhilStar Twitter account
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DAY 2: Happy World Introvert day!!
January 2, 2023
Hello everyone ans happy Introvert day to my fellow Introverts. I love to be introvert and I love saying I am introvert because some people are turning their back on me when I say that. Some extrovert doesn't like Introverts. Some think that they will no enjyloy being with them. I have two friends who are Extrovert and I can sense that sometimes they don't feel me being with them. Moreover, whatever happens I am okay with being myself and I am comfortable being on my own most of the time.
Credit to Philippines Star Twitter Account
So what is being Introvert, and why I certify myself that I am introvert? The following are the reason and qualifications.
Credit to @kindnessandstories
I love Solo Activities
I noticed that even in my grade school, I am not comfortable working with someone. Some of my classmate likes to talk a lot that lead them to not finishing the assignments. I get used to sitting at the back and I would love if I don't have seat mate. I don't care if don't have friends, I just want to finish the day at school to get out of it and have my "me" time after.
It changes when I went to secondary school , but still I will find time in the afternoon to be alone and one with nature. Being alone makes me breathe healthier.
I love listening to music
At the end of everyday, I still find time to put on my earbuds and listen to music. In fact, while working at the office, I turn on my playlist and listen using earbuds because some of my officemates loves whispering. I have trust issue. Whenever I can hear a whisper or a murmur around me, I always think that they are talking about me. Unfortunately, I have anxiety that is why I need to adjust to them. I don't want yo know if they are talking about me or other people, what I hate is that it bothers me to focus on my work. I am glad my manager allow us to waer earbuds or headphones as she can communicate to us using viber anyhow.
I love being at Home
I have this kind of habit even while I was young. I love being at home. My home is my sanctuary I feel safe. I cannot sleep over, I can't sleep in someone's else house. I can't imagine myself living in other's house. I only live in one house all of my entire life. Home is where my heart is. If I will got out with my friends, I make sure I still go home even it is late already. I am certified home buddy.
I make time with pets
I am a pet lover and I think one of my main purpose is to take care of them. I have a daughter dog and I had shared her many time in my blog here. When I am with my pets I am loved. I feel calm and genuinely happy. It is like the time to recharge when I am with them.
Those above are the things I enjoy being an introvert. I didn't include the Deep conversation and time to recharge because I sometimes don't love having a conversation at all. Time to recharge is sleeping for me but I haven't done it lately.
Again, to all my co-Introverts out there, I am greeting you and telling you that no matter how differ you are with others, we are getting bigger in numbers and you are loved!!
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