Feeling Sick

I believe it has been a week or so that I felt so sick. I got a little better but when I was advised to work onsite I got worse. I cannot even describe my fear that these symptoms can be covid.

It started with a pain in my throat. Every time I try to eat it became painful. Then followed by cough and colds. I never really cared much but children also had the same and that gets me worried so I had to come up with a herbal for them they used to take whenever they have cough. So far I can say they get better though but for me it came to a point that I was having a hard time breathing due to clogged nose.

Then just last Friday when I woke up I had body malaise. I still have this fear of going on a check up because if I ever get tested positive, my family would suffer as they would be quarantine too.

So I decided to just take some herbal for now. Anyway, I can sense I am getting better compared to the last days. I just sleep almost the whole day though because I really feel like my whole body is in pain. I asked my Boss as well that I may not be able to really go back to site this week because I am having a hard time travelling.

For 2 days I also felt like my head is about to explode and my eyes is about to popped because of pain. It could also be the caused of me not being able to have good rest for 2 days. Imagine my shift starts 3pm and ended at 11pm. It became so hard for me to actually travel so I would have to wait for like morning 3-4AM to go home.

In the office we have this so called sleeping lounge but then I kind of feel afraid to sleep in there because a lot of my workmates complained that they get nightmares. With my current condition it would be so hard for me if in case. I decided to just sleep at my table but then it would only take about 2-3 hours sleep because some other workmates would need to use the station.

I wasn't complaining. I really love working in the office but at the same time kind of hate it because of how big is the amount I have to spend in order to just survive a day working onsite. Every food in there is pretty expensive!

If I am really COVID positive another reason that I can think of is the temporary becoming wearing of facemask as OPTIONAL in our place. When I travelled going to work I see a lot of people not wearing it anymore. Hopefully I was wrong though because I believe everyone would really want a normal life away from facemask.

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This article is supposed to be published last night but was not able to finish it since I cannot think straight and was not stable. I dunno which part is really aching for me now. All I know is I am not feeling well. Up to now my whole body seems to be aching. I feel tired all over and my throat, I like to actually remove it because it hurts. The never ending cough makes me want to also remove my lungs. Imagine I slept 4AM already and woke up 6AM. Hays!

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