Amy's Wish

For me, true love can be seen in our mom’s eyes. Their look upon seeing their newborn child is very priceless. The baby’s cry will fade all the pain and struggles. It's like everything doesn’t matter as long as the baby is good and healthy.

By the way, I am Amy. A registered nurse. And yes, as I have said earlier, I have watched countless moments about giving birth. But the feelings I get are still the same. Sad but thankful.

If I could turn back the time, I will go back to the time when I was born. Why? To see what could be my mom's reaction when she see me. How I wish our lives can move backward even for a moment.

My mom died after giving birth to me. All I have is her picture in the frame that I hold close to see her face every day. So I don’t feel to celebrate any of my birthdays since I get older. I miss her so much.

Well, my dad showered me with all the love that he could give to me. I knew he loved my mom so much that he’s still hurting. I once saw him sobbing while embracing my mom's picture.

Sometimes I kinda feel that I hope I was not born so that my mom and dad will have their happily ever after. But fate wasn’t that good to us.

Christmas is just around the corner. And this is the time when I always felt jealous of all the complete families in the whole world. Because December 25 is Christmas, the day I was born and the day my mom sleep eternally.

You will never know how I feel unless you were in my shoes. But life must go on. I already graduated from college and got a stable job. My dad didn’t fail in taking good care of me that I grew up into a God-fearing woman. Despite everything that happens, I am so thankful for what I have and what I am today. I owe Him still a lot.

Since Christmas is coming, Simbang Gabi is coming too. I also believe that if you completed the 9 dawns then your wish will be granted. But ever since, in my 24 years of existence, except for the worldly wish, there is only my great one wish that still God hasn’t granted it yet or He has a greater wish for me than that. Well, I hope so.

I didn’t fail to complete all those 9 dawns. And I don’t lose hope that maybe this year, my great one wish will be granted. As long as I am still living, I won't lose hope.

Time flies so fast and tomorrow is Christmas Day, my birthday, and my mom's death anniversary. This is the last day of Simbang Gabi, and I’m glad I completed it again. I hope tomorrow, that time God will give me my wish.

Since it's just me and my dad, every year we just order my mom's favorite food from a famous fast food restaurant and have a picnic with her at the cemetery. Before I sleep I have already prepared everything for tomorrow.

I am in our porch’s house staring at the starry sky when a shooting star suddenly appeared. I immediately close my eyes and wish. The weather is cold so I’ve got a lot of hot chocolate in my hand. I wish my mom is here beside me. I knew every mother is the warm that every child needs even though they get married and have kids too. Nothing compares with the mothers' warmth.

How I wish I could embrace my mom even for once in my life. So I’m almost done with my hot chocolate and decided to get inside when suddenly the rocking chair I sit started to rock. I feel nervous but when I look at it, it's my mom rocking the chair.

My tears feel like racing. I couldn’t believe what my eyes are seeing right now. She's all in white and has a very warm smile. “Mom,” that’s all I can say. I wish the time will stop.

“Oh my darling Amy, what are you doing there? Can you hug mom? It is very cold here.” My mom said.

I'm still crying that I don’t hesitate with my mom's request. Since the rocking chair is good for 3 people, I sit beside her and hug her. This is the moment when I feel my mom's warmth. I just enjoy the moment.

“Look how fast you grew up, Amy. Moms sorry for not being with you through your journey in life. I am happy your dad didn’t fail to do all his responsibilities to you.” My mom said again. I only want to listen to her. I feel like when I talk she will be gone again.

“Oh stop crying, Amy. Are you not happy to see me? I want you to remove that burden your heart is carrying. Be with someone and get married when he’s the one. Get yourself a family to be happy.” My mom said with the warmest smile I have ever seen in my life.

“I miss you so much, mom. I love you very much!” this is what I have wanted to say to her.

“Mom too.” She said and kisses my forehead. And then I wake. It feels surreal. When I touch my face, there are even dried tears.

I can't help but cry. But this day, it's tears for joy. Thank God for granting my wish. I could not ask for more. I am very lucky.

When I went downstairs, I saw my dad preparing our breakfast which is very unusual. He got also a very bright smile that I haven’t seen for a very long time. We happily eat our breakfast without talking about what happened but by the looks of it, I think we both have the same dream.

Life can be cruel at times but always remember God won't let that happen without reason. Everything happens for a reason.

“To my mom, Merry Christmas. Thank you for visiting us. I love you so much. I hope you will continue to be our guardian angel.”

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