Let it go… Let it go…

Can’t hold it back anymore… Let it go… Let it go… Turn away and slam the door! I don't care what they're going to say. Let the storm rage on… The cold never bothered me anyway… (Did I sing it right? Sorry, no voice clip for now.)

Yes, yes, yes, I have to let go of all these toys scattered around the house. They’re no longer good anyway and I have to tidy things up for safety’s sake. I slipped on one toy and I can’t risk slipping again on another. I screamed of the pain it brought up my thighs. So I have to throw these toys away and just segregate those that can be doled out or retained for the children.

Likewise with my old habits that are not giving me anything good, I have to let them go. There’s no time to waste and I also have kids to attend to.

I think about focusing on necessary things. I just don’t sit and relax. If I do sit and relax, it will be because I wanted to be more productive. But other than that, I use my time productively even if not for house works. Maybe for reading. For writing. For checking students’ outputs, and so on.

Years ago, I’ve been the unproductive type. I would sit on my desk pretending to work but actually I don’t do anything. I imagine more than I acted. But I also realized that fantasizing things are helpful in planning the future. How we’ll be and what we are going to do given circumstances. So even fantasizing is a part of the plan? Oh yes, it is. I believe so. So it goes to say, nothing’s ever wasted.

If we know how to appreciate, all that is to life would be lessons learned. If not, income gained.

What I did mostly, say about three years back, was watch animes and movies and series. I may not have gained a profit but I wouldn’t say my time was wasted because even if story lines are not perfect and realistic, they somehow give us ideas about things that are happening in the world. Also, stories give us lessons about other nationalities.

I learned a lot from the Korean novelas that I’ve been watching before. I just had to tell myself that those were not necessarily true and applicable to life. But it gave me ideas about a lot of processes. Example would be, how they use a utensil. Because I don’t really search on how to use this and that on YouTube. But if I see something on the movie I was watching then at least I was a little educated. Anyway, I had to let go of such things to give way to other hobbies and to focus more on my job.

I have forgotten about almost everything that I have promised myself. Each day was like that. I didn’t forget but I forgot what I promised the world. What I wrote on my blog, what I told my husband, or my friend, or my colleague. But one thing remains the same, I will always remember that each day is an opportunity to let go of the past and start anew. I do not know what has happened to my brain. I used to write everything. But I’ve been tearing pages and burning them. Telling myself to let go and just make a new page. Buy a new ordinary notebook then write a better list of things. I still can’t explain how I do things but somehow, in letting go, I’m becoming a better version of myself. I hope for that at least.

I told my children to keep their toys the moment they’re done playing so that they would be called responsible youth of their generation. I’m just not sure whether they get what I mean but I always pray that they will get what I mean.

At this point, they may not yet understand the point of letting go but in time they will be able to get a hint of what that thing is. So happens that my daughter has been playing the Frozen song on YouTube which gave me this writing prompt. Yep, I also watch Disney movies. They’re wholesome on my opinion and interesting and cute, most of the time.

And now I sing… (Sabayan niyo po ako.)

“Let it go, let it go

Can't hold it back anymore

Let it go, let it go

Turn away and slam the door

I don't care what they're going to say

Let the storm rage on

The cold never bothered me anyway”

Lyrics Source: https://genius.com/Idina-menzel-let-it-go-lyrics

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