Who Am I?
Who am I? A woman on her 30’s trying to live a happy life. As I was browsing the internet, reading stuff, and looking for inspiration and ideas, I saw this question flashed in one of the websites that I visited. Who am I? I asked myself. One, two, three, four, five…..my mind doesn’t have an answer. I don’t know how to answer this question.
I kept on repeating the question in my mind. Who am I? I am Imee (my real name), but I need a deeper answer to that question. My mind still can’t think of anything maybe because I am nothing, but a 30-ish woman with attitude (as they say). Dependent and good for nothing. A fool dreaming for a better life but just hiding away. That is what they think of me. No talent, no skills, and will only rely to my family. My self-esteem and confidence had been trampled. I was shouted and mocked at work- in front of other people. I cried for days. Inpitoed myself tonthe extent that I would like to vanish and end my life so they will realize that they are wrong.
Who am I? A garbage.
Looking back. I was a happy person. I believe that everything can be learned, attainable and a dreamer. I dreamed of living on my own, which I did achieve but the pandemic happened. Back to zero. I looked for positive reasons in every hardships I encountered in the past, and that made me become better person. Trials and challenges in life? I just smile and tell myself that it too shall pass. Life back then was simple but I was happy.
Who am I? I don’t know anymore.
I somehow relate of how you describe yourself there. We are on the same page. I don't have much to say, because most of the things you have mentioned above, that also describes who I am. But, I'm trying to cope up. God is with us!