You still have a purpose, that's why you're alive.

If you're still alive it means that you still have a purpose in life.

They said that cats have nine lives right? Well, I guess I'm a cat haha. So here it goes, sharing my stories being in danger many

times but still alive until now. As I getting older, I always think what's my purpose in life, I think it's already there it's just that I'm too blind to appreciate and see it. When I was young I had asthma but we don't have much, my parents can't afford to buy me a nebulizer. Whenever I had an attack, we go to the nearest clinic for some (pausok) steaming, they put medicine for me to inhale? I don't know the exact term in English. I sit there for 15 minutes until my breathing backs to normal. I vividly remember my

worst attack, when I was 10 yrs old. I'm so stubborn when it comes to chocolate, and sweets triggered my asthma. My parents, we're always at work so after school my older sister and I were alone in the house. I ate too much chocolates that day, and I wasn't aware that there's something wrong with my breathing because I'm already sleeping. My parents noticed that's I experiencing shortness of breath. On the way to the clinic, we're just walking because it's not that far, I remember that I literally sit on the ground because I'm gasping for air. I remember I said to my mom "Ma, hindi ko na kaya, hindi na ko makahinga" (Ma, I can't take it anymore, I can't breathe.) Thankfully there's a tricycle nearby and speed up. I'm glad that I don't have asthma anymore, I just can't remember how it was gone.

I had acute appendicitis when I was 12 years old, stayed in the hospital for a month. When I came back to school, they're already practicing graduation haha, I'm glad that my teacher was kind and understanding.

Another instance when I almost drowned in Tanay Rizal. We did hiking and side trip on the Lake in the area. They said that when you're dying you'll remember your loved ones., it's true I experienced it at that time. No one's coming for help and I start to visualize the faces of my family. My friend thought that we're just playing and she didn't notice the three of us(in our group) were drowning. I accept the fact that I could die at that time until my friend noticed us finally and started to shout for help. I had a nightmare after that incident, I guess 3 nights straight. I am a free spirit and adventurous person, but I think I've experienced too much adventure in my life so far haha.

This accident happened way back in 2017, I had a sleepover at my friend's dorm because it's near our office. Around

12:00 midnight I woke up with the noise outside and because of my wild imagination and love for thriller suspense stories, I thought someone was being murdered, but when I look at the window, there's a fire. Yes, the area/ houses were burning. We're three in the room, me, my friend and my fiance. My fiance was the only composed back then, my friend was crying and I'm trembling. We can't go to the main door because there's a fire outside. Thankfully my friend has a window without grills, there's a lot of lumber in the ground and the plan was to jump in the lumber so it's not that high. But I failed, because I'm holding a laptop, it's company's property and it's MAC, I can't afford to pay it, plus all of my files were there so I saved it first haha. I jumped but I didn't reach the lumbers, I fell straight to the ground. When I landed I looked for my eyeglass immediately haha while I'm still holding the laptop, I protected it with my life lol.

I didn't notice that I was injured, maybe because of adrenaline. We decided not to wait for a firetruck, we left and abandoned the place with the things that we saved, that's when I realized that my right arm hurts and there's blood in my shirt. We went straight to St. Lukes Hospital. I'm on sick leave for two months because my right arm broke. They had to put half cast. That's when I realized a lot of things and decided on my new goal in life. To own a business. Anyway, my friend said that without us he maybe dead by now, he sleep deeply and didn't even hear the chaos outside.

Year, 2019..I've been hospitalized and had a surgery. (will share it on my next article)

I stop asking for my life purpose anymore. I used to wish not to wake up every morning during my depression days before but after reminiscing all these experiences and realizations, I will love life to the fullest. To appreciate life despite struggles, because struggles are really part to have a balanced life. If you're alive, there's a purpose for your life, and not everyone is given a second chance to live.