The last breath with regret

Hello everyone, hope you had a nice day and not stressful. Well my today's mood is in different direction with my article, I'm so happy and I can't contain it but I'll share it tomorrow.

~Neck on the rope and message pop up on Luca's smartphone and at that moment he regretted his action.

Luca is a straight A student right from secondary school, moving to college he lost his dad and sponsoring of his education began to waver but he didn't let that affect him, he struggled more and did some part time job just to support his education, after his college he came out first class in his department but he couldn't get a good paying job due to the situation of the country that connection is needed for most of the things and he lacks connection.

He got a job which is not enough for hi daily meet not to talk of his mum, but they kept on managing afterall half bread is better than none. The house they were living was a rented apartment and the rent was due but there was no money to pay for it, Luca went on to get a loan online and he was able to cover that of the house rent.

One fateful day after his shift was over, he went home and saw his mom laying on the floor and he rushed to meet her and tried reviving her and after about 5 minutes of constantly giving her CPR (cardiopulmonary resuscitation) she was revived. Then he rushed to a pharmacy nearby and the nurse came to his house and ran some test on the woman and said she was having heart issues due to the fact that she's always staying beside smoke daily because she sells roasted corn, the nurse further went on to say she's also having ulcer because she doesn't eat well. After hearing all this Luca was down casted and felt like the world was closing on him.

But he tried to summon courage to go meet his boss to lend him some amount of money so he can use it to treat his mum, but unfortunately for him, his boss told him that he hasn't paid some of the debt he has been owing.

Everything was running through Luca's mind daily, slowly he was losing his sanity and he was going into the darkest place of life where he couldn't recognize anybody and the place where he'd shut himself off from the world.

Luca's mom passed away because she couldn't receive treatment. Surprisingly, he didn't cry because it's like he has cried away all the tears in his eye but deep down he was dieing.

He then sat down one certain day and was thinking "God, is this fair? I thought you said you had a purpose for us all, what have I not done? I came out with first class and I've submitted my CV (curriculum vitae) in almost all the company in this state, I've been doing good, I pray daily and I've done all laboring jobs but it's still not enough, seems I'm not one of your creature, I guess I should just end this dreadful and wretched life". Luca was so deep in thought and one day he made up his mind to end the life he has been living.

He came to the living room and put his small phone on the chair, he has tied the rope so firmly to the fan and he sat down and cried and was thinking if he should stop or not, but there was nothing like hope to stop him from not commiting suicide.

He then climbed on the stood and put his neck on the rope and threw the stood away with his leg, he was strangling and the air in his lungs started fadinf away, his life force started going and suddenly a message pop up on Luca's phone but he was able to see it, as it was a message from one of the company he submitted his CV to that he was given the job he wanted and it was a good paying job and in that moment he regretted his decision that if he could have waited a day more he might have had a good life but it was late already.

Author's message

No matter what you're going through, no matter how depressed you are suicide should never be an option, there's always a bright light at the end of the tunnel no matter how long the tunnel is. Just don't give up and be positive. Thank you