I feel like giving up

Sometimes this life treats good people badly and treats bad people good because some people are in this life that has the power to help but because they are bad people they will want to take something from you before they can help.

While some people really want to help even though they don't have they will still do the little they can

My question now is why do bad people have more than good ones?

I guess it is only God that can answer that question because He is the only one who knows why this life is like this

Back to my topic "I feel like giving up "

As I always brag about my dream shop and how supportive my fiance George has been ever since I met him but now the shop is finally opened but the debt on my neck doesn't allow me to think straight anymore and this afternoon around 2:36 pm I just thought that maybe I should run away from everything.

Don't get me wrong am not talking about death all I just want is to pay up all my app debt and be free from the everyday call from them.

Tomorrow 24th of February my ( $400) debt is going to be due and I don't know how to pay it back the only hope I have now is God because am from a very poor family which means no one can help me out on this one.

I just wish I can run away to somewhere nobody can reach me even the app but I can't if I remember how hard it has been I do really want to hope for something great after all this hardship.

While am inside my shop thinking about all my debt someone passing on the road branch and asked me for money to eat at first I told him I don't have but when I looked inside my shop I knew that there is still hope for me so I called him back then gave him what I can.

This life is not just balance and it can never be balanced, after two minutes I called someone that I know for help if only I knew I shouldn't have called when he picked he said: let's hang out and have one night stand then I will give you all the money.

I felt bad because if I were to be in his shoes I will definitely help a lot as far as I can and this person am talking about is married but what I don't understand is the fact why does God give him money when He knew that this man won't help people that need his help.

What will he gain from sleeping with someone before helping them does God take anything from him before giving him the money?

I guess he doesn't understand that God gave him the money to help and not to lavish it on adultery what is this life self turning into so nobody can help willing anymore without expecting something in return well if that should be the case I will rather stay still the hardship is over and keep praying till I pay up the depth.

Don't mind my article this afternoon but this is where I can pour out my mind because I don't want to talk to someone that will mock me for being in-debt at the end of everything but I believe with God all things are possible for me.

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Am just tired of everything sometimes I wish I don't pull the string at all but I guess God has a better plan on how it will all be because if I say it is my power I just lied and if I say I know what to do next then am such a big liar.

Though am still at the shop hoping for sales and my last thing to say is that I must make it no matter what because I won't give up on this my dream even though it is not easy at all.

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