I thought its the end, but its just the beginning

Every student is excited to finish their study so that our problem will come to end and start working, everything will be alright, I remember back then when I first stepped and enter the gate of our university, I was excited but deep inside, I was scared, I don't have friends, knowing I came from a local town highschool which I'm used to see neighbors and friends on our campus, now that I'm already in final stages of my academics, I'm in a larger school right now, in fact a university, everything is new, everything is unfamiliar, I'm starting back again, in my mind, "knowing that this university is infamous of failing students especially on math , most of the subjects are related to mathematics, and the catch is, I HATE MATH, I'm slow in solving math problems, I don't think so If can make it to the finish line and graduate"

But I did, I did the impossible, all the techniques, I studied last hour in every exams, I passed and get a 75 or 3.0 grade in most of our math subjects, back then in highschool when I get a 75 or 3.0 grade, I feel despaired, feeling unworthy, but now in college getting 75 or 3.0 grade is happiness, I passed just right to the minimum passing grade.

I did my best, I know in myself I still did my very best, even most of the time I dont spend studying, instead I play online games, DOTA, PUBG, ROS, COC, Im not the typical student who runs out of the pathway when its already late, Im just a chill person walking like a boss i dont mind if Im late haha but I didnt struggle in my academics except in algebra, trigonometry, differential calculus, integral calculus, Physics, thermo dynamics and many more related to numbers hahaha I HATE MATH.

Legend once said: How ironic I hate numbers but I love money

lets not talk about how I make no kodigos and other cheat codes in school,lets skip to the good and crucial part, When I'm on 4th year college, we had our thesis, its the hardest, mentally and physically doing our research studies, spending too much time and still not enough, we are graduating, in our batch from 160 students in first year, we end up 8 students left in our 4th year, some of them failed and lost hope to continue their studies, so on our thesis we are divided into two per groups, its hard to make thesis just two people for all the expenses and time investment doing paper works and prototype, unlike other courses which they end up divided into 6 students per group, lucky they.

I thought its the end but its just the beginning

We did our best to pass all our academics and especially our thesis, we just need to pass the defense and its done, when we tried to defend our thesis and pass, I cant imagine how happy I am thinking, its officially over, we can graduate to college, all our problems are coming to an end, Im free, freedom is life.

And we graduated tadaaaaaaaahh

Thats what I thought, I thought finishing our college is the end, but its just the beginning for more hardships in life, for more battle to take, I thought finishing college is the final level, but reality sucks, its just starting for level 1 myghaaaad

I can still see my face how happy I am back then...........

When I graduated, I was very happy, even though I only had my grandfather and my mother to accompany me to our graduation venue, I can only bring two person to avoid over population inside our gymnasium, I'm happy and all my remaining family members are waiting to the nearest mall, its indeed a memorable day for a student like me, I officially end up my status as a STUDENT I'm officially JOBLESS the magic is gone when we started finding JOB!!!

OMG its so hard to find a Job, I don't know how to start, I spend 4 months searching for job, when I find one, I was below minimum wage, I don't have a choice,but to accept the offer, I just need money and work experience.

My thoughts in life, we most not set out limits, lets not expect about something magical to happen, in life, I succeeded, I failed, I get insecure I almost feel like dump, 6 years later, I still have unstable job, I know its not the end, some of my friends and already successful some of them have stable jobs, I know its bad to feel envy but cant helped it. Im just human, every person has their own path, I know its not the end, I will continue striving hard until I reach my own peak of success. CHEERS FOR THAT