4th death anniversary

Its been four years since my grandmother passed away, even though its been 1460 days had passed, its still fresh on my mind, I remember everything, every emotions, I was at work that time, I'm still provisionary at work that time, to be able to become regular to the job I need to work 6 months without absence to have a higher chance to be absorb at the company I'm working, I am aiming to be regular, to have stable job but for 3 months I don't have rest day, I work monday to sunday, because as new worker, the company wont give us rest day, to test our loyalty and skills.

The unwanted call

As a worker mechanical engineering department at a food factory, we can bring phone inside the plantation, all production workers are restricted to bring phone except us. I remember I was at the warehouse area, hiding and resting when my phone rang, my tita called, she said grandmother is not feeling well, I know I picked the right decision to absent for a day, to visit my grandmother, bought her some foods and gave her money even though I know she cant use the money anymore because her condition is getting worse and worse.

2 weeks had passed

That time I hate to hear my phone ring because in my mind what if theres might be bad news, so the message I was wishing not to happen, happened.My tita called, my mother called, they say our grandmother already died, everything falls apart, Its still not sinking on my mind, hoping its just a dream.

I know to ask for 1 week leave at work lessen the chance to become regular, but I never think twice to give a letter asking for a week leave at work to mourn.

While travelling at home, I feel like ai was floating, still I cant believe, I dont want to believe, but when I arrived, I was meters away from the house, I could see people outside , white and bright lights surrounding our house, I was thinking not to cry, I would hide my emotions to everyone, but when I entered the door sering the coffin, my tears are falling automatically, its like the tears has mind on its own, falling without my consent, my emotions took over my mind, I lost my senses and started to cry out loud, everyone cried too watching me mourning .

Its been 4 years but I still remember the feelings and emotions I felt that time, Im totally fine now.

TIME HEALS

I do believe time heals through acceptance, its been years we already accepted the unfortunate event happened on our family, now we are here again, at the cemetery, with my family and with own family

Its Ari's First time, to visit our grand mother, ari enjoyed walking to a vast field of green meadows, full of beautiful green and healthy grasses, we bought foods and ate at my grandmothers tomb, everyone is already smiling, acceptance is the key to move on and move forward, we need to keep moving forward to finish our task and missions in this world.

The green and fresh air, makes us relax, its like every breath we inhale gives us energy to enjoy, ari enjoy the place so much, but sad to say we fall short on schedule as the clouds slowly turns to dark, we are planning to go home early to keep Ari from the rain coming.