Looking back to the days when I was a kid. I was now at my point where I can say I was not able to enjoy those childhood days of mine, why I said so?It's because we are living afar from what we called neighbor. Yes that's a simple and very silly reason but I think having able to socialize with many people and to the kids will build you as you grow up. It will make you enjoy your childhood days, laugh as hard as you can and play until sunset .
It is not been that clear to my memories my younger years but all I have remembered clearly is the words coming from my father.When I was at the age of 5 my mother did already teach me how to write. There was one time that my father is teaching me and he sees I am a fast learner. He then told me to do good in school and that I am his only hope. I am his hope for our family to be lift from the eyes of those who is very eager to insult the lives of the one who is below in their standards of living.Yes,as if I am his last knight to save the king in the game Chess.Hearing those words was like my world stops and as if those were written deeply and clearly in my heart and mind.
When I started schooling , those words just automatically pop-up in my head as if they are always reminding me to do well in class and that there is this responsibility I am carrying in my shoulder,the Hope of my father.
As time goes by ,yes I did not failed my father, I belong to the top of the class and with that I think I did fullfilled what he wants, As I grow I studied so hard I worried that someone will replace my rank in class that I forgot I was a kid who also loves to play, to be called my attention with the teacher because of being talkative,to be punished of being naughty. I was not able to experience those. I was once a shy ,behave and silent mode girl. I was too excited to grow up that I forgot to enjoy the life of being a little one. Is this a regret what I am feeling right now? Well, a little regret but I am still thankful who I became today though I did not enjoy my childhood life.
Moving forward I grew up to be a woman with bravery, trust in myself ,courage and standards that as a woman I know how worthy I am and that no one is allowed to broke into my peaceful well being.I am so blessed to be a woman I am today.
I think that would be in my childhood,I just share what i felt and the principles of life I was with when I was a kid.
In life, we grow better not just by how our parents raised us, sometimes it is how the people treat us and the bitter words that made a difference in our lives.
