Do I have to regret choosing you?

Life is never been that easy, you wake early one morning thinking everything is alright but it is just a deceiving memory. In our day to day life we made thousands of failures ,hundreds of wrong decisions and countless of stupid mistakes. We cannot change what has been done, what has been decided and above all the results of those decisions.

We encountered beautiful and bad experiences, happy and sad moments. In our happiest times sometimes we can say to ourselves that we'll no longer regret the decision that we ever made, the decision that made us happy, but in just a little twist of fate those happiest moments that you ever thought will be your biggest regrets.

Regrets that could somehow destroy your inner peace and could lead up to questioning yourself.

In my life it is proven and tested that regrets comes always at the end. How many times I swear to myself that i will never regrets the decision I made but in the end it is always a failure because I also keep regretting it.

At now in my present times, I did choose someone to be part of my life. It happened that we are in the same company and that I am newly hired. At first look in his eyes i did felt the spark that I was not able to felt before, I did just ignore it because I know we didn't know each other yet and so I keep those hidden feelings i have within. Everytime we look at each other's eyes as if i have those butterflies in my stomach, until such then it was valentine's day when he happened to message me and ask me for a date I just replied him a jokes because I know also he was just kidding and after that there's no more conversation at all and sad to know he was been assigned to other branch. I felt that my heart is heavy and that I will miss him but as time passed by,fate is such playful we are assigned at the other branch where he assigned to ,there he started to court me. After a month of courting I finally said yes. I accepted him because I thought he's someone I can hold on to, someone that would be in my side when i have problems, someone that is my comfort and someone who can fill the emptiness I am feeling for a longer time.

But, I think I got it wrong or should I say I am regretting now. I regret because as time passed by I felt unappreciated. I felt I am not enough at all and that this made me question my worth.I think that he's just good at the beggining. Should I let him go knowing that it would hurt me so much and should I continue even if I don't have any peace of my mind at all?.

To love and be loved is somewhat bothersome. As what they said , if you enter in a relationship you should be ready to accept the consequences of being hurt.

Do i have to regret choosing him to be part of my life?