Hey there folks! Well, its my first time to publish here and I really want to share with you the things that I really want, but with some insecurities there's nothing I can do. First I just want to thank my friend who introduce this site that could really help in just little by little.
So I would Start first with my life. When I was just a child. I grew up just like a princess, well Im not the youngest but I am a daddy girl who really being with him. Everyday, I patiently waiting for him at our footstep that even in the evening I will wait him for us to eat dinner. I am so very clingy when I am with him. And On the other side, I am not close with my Mom. When my dad is not around she would beat me and shouting that Im stupid and saying that I am the reason why my two siblings beaten up by my father whenever we fight. I am used with that! And then again, I would just wait for my father to come home and hug him so tight that I want to come with him wherever he goes.
My life isnt perfect, but when I'm with my dad, I can say that my life is perfect back then. But those illusions and perfect moment with my dad changed! Until it came at this horrible life that we've experience. My dad left us and be with GOD forever. I was just 5 years old when my days would be bitter and bitter. I could still remember his eyes, nose and face most especially his hair that everytime he do haircuts I would stay at his back and place my palm into the top of his head and enjoying the little pain that I could touch with his hair.
The day when my father died, I could'nt imagine my life with my mom and later on I decided to live with my grandparents in my father's side. And back again I could felt that I am they're little princess because I am the only girl in the house except with my grand mother. I am very happy and I thought It would not change after all. I stayed there for almost 2 years in my life. I fell free from all those fights with my siblings and as always they spoil me with the things I want and they provide me those neccisity that I used everyday. And then again I never longed for my father.
But later on, my mom had a boyfriend who happen as the Chief of Hospital in our province and I coud'nt take it to be with them so I lasted 2 years with my grandparents . But my mom get me and said that I would stay with them. When I get back in our house many things changed! The structure of our house and there are so many appliances that I could see and most of all the fridge is so full that they have to buy another one just to put the grociries that they just bought. From the life that we've been and with the life that we are in. People say that we became rich because of my step father because we have now a brandnew auto that they can see.I am so shy when I am with my step father. And the good thing he did, he buy a ticket for a movie so that we could become close as with my siblings.
The wealthy life that we have just vanished when my step father got sick and immediately died. My mom was so devasted at that time that she would do crying all day at her room. She doesnt know what she would do to raise us. But my mom is so brave that she would do anything just for us.
We sell foods and RTW or Ready wear clothes and appareal. We start again and I can say that the bond that my mom got together again. But in a few months later, she found out that she was carrying a baby in her womb. And we thought it as a blessing and a month after my mom brought us a very beautiful baby angel. Yes! you read it right, it's a girl❤ Tye baby symbolizes our hope that everytime we see her, we could see hope and love with her eyes that saying we can get through this roller coaster life.
And now my mom decided to abroad just to sustain our needs because I am now in college and also my younger sister. My older brother stop and decided to enter millitary next year. And Next year would be the scheduled year that my mom would be back home. We are so excited about this thingm And by the way I am not staying with my grandmother, because my grandfather just past away lasr month and I am here to take care of her to erase the pain she felt with the absence of my grandfather.
See you again folks! In my next publish.
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