Dear World,

I know I did not try my best because I am too out of drive. The majority of my idle time were just spent thinking of how everyone would react once they see me fail. I still remember the words you kept intact in me, that it's okay to fail—at least I did my best.

Well, in my case, I know I don't give my best. I grow sleepy once I look at the materials and it's miserable forcing myself to learn all of this. Time is flying so fast and I feel like I still did not do any good.

Until the end though, I'd give it a go.. Let's see where this forced drive would bring me.

Until then, whatever the outcome is, I still hope you'd not feel disappointed in me. I did what you want, and I know I tried.

God, please give me strength. Amen.