Greedy

My grandma once had a bunch of properties under her name. My mom said that she came from a wealthy family and her parents inherited her some lands. However, my grandmother wasn't able to finish schooling so she doesn't know how to handle money that well. She thought that a small amount of money is a huge amount already cause she doesn't know how to count. She also has this attitude of selling everything she has for a small amount of money.

I am one of her 6 grandchildren and when I get older I can't help but get annoyed by her decisions in life. I grew up renting, we almost got kicked out of the house we're staying in because we cannot afford the rent when my dad lost his job.

When I got older and I can't help but think what if she just gave us even 1 of those properties that she sold for a small amount of money. Maybe we're not like this. Maybe, the only problem that I have right now is saving for the construction of this house.

I can say that she's a greedy person.

I remember when my mom told me that my grandmother's mindset is like it's better if she sells those properties for a cheaper price instead of giving it to us, to my mom. Look at her now, she's living with us for a long time. After she sold everything she had, she keeps on building a small room beside every land that we rented and even connects to our electricity, and sometimes her food is on us too.

I understand that she's getting old and she needs someone to take care of her but at the back of my mind, she's still that greedy person. My mom is her daughter and she let her experienced being mocked and ridiculed by landowners even if she has properties where we can build our home. Last time, we were eating lunch and my mom told me that she's going to give our leftovers to my grandmom because they don't have food. I agreed but I got annoyed because it seems like their food is my problem too.

I'm not mad at her for no reason. She always tells everyone in the neighborhood everything that is happening inside our home. Our family doesn't get along with the neighborhood that much because the only thing that they wanna do is gossip. They love to talk about everyone's lives while they can't even manage to have a decent one.

There comes a time when my dad finally got the chance to have a few possessions. My grandma told him that he will not able to attain those without us, his children. I was like, and now what? I think my dad deserves to have all these things after all these years. and what important is we don't ask anything from her.

I want to build our home away from them.
I want to build a home away from this neighborhood too.
but how can I do that if my grandmother is always building an extension of her house beside ours? I don't know anymore. I wanna abandon her like the days she still has everything. I don't care if she keeps on telling people that we are treating her unfairly because she always comes back to us.

My mom was the total opposite of her attitude and I am so glad of that.

She keeps telling me that she doesn't want us to experience everything that she experience when she was little. Everything she experienced from my grandma.
From going to school without anything in her pocket and not supporting her with schooling so she ends up only finishing 2nd year in secondary education but still managed to give us a decent life.

:'( that's why I'm working really hard to give my mom a better life. she deserves everything and I love her so much.

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