Being The First Born

Is being the first born a blessing or a curse?

This is the question I always ask myself whenever I feel stressed out

I use to wonder, what if I was born second or last or just somewhere in the Middle

Would things have been different for me?would i have been more happier or would I be more sad or more....well more of whatever younger siblings feel?

I understand that, as the elder, is only natural that you take the lead and set example for your younger ones.

You're expected to take charge in family matters, represent the family, protect the family, make the family proud, make your family proud by making other families proud, make your family proud by making your relatives proud.

But what about making yourself proud?

You see as soon as we're born we're burdened with too much expectations from our parents before we even ignite our own ideas.

The father may say my boy is going to be a doctor or an engineer or a lawyer, an accountant, a banker.

Our parents begin to make plan for us what they wanted but failed to achieve for themselves, hmph... ironic, right?

Is like as soon as they set their eyes on us all they see is the reincarnation of themselves, them in a new life in a different time.

And this time their life is going to be different. Different from the one they're currently leaving. And all they have to do is make sure they put all their undivided attention on this kid.

Teach him to be a father a mother a brother a sister a friend and a leader even before he has his own child, before he make his own friends, before he understands the world, before he knows himself.

He learn to take care of others before he could berely take care of himself.

Is like we're prototypes. We get shaped and structured, and then restructured and re-restructured many times until we are a perfect creation.

I guess that's why we are able to quickly adapt to changing conditions.

They make us dive and catch like goal keepers all kinds of cool and also the shitty parenting ideas. But I guess is fair

We have to be the human guinea pigs

for the sake of our siblings

I wish we had our own guinea pigs

before they pushed us out into this world. If that is even possible while we remain first borns

Why do first borns suffer twice or more of their families difficulties?

I guess that's why we're smarter and stronger emotionally, spiritually and physically.

And If just like the shred pieces of a carbage and an onion that covers the outer layer of the body like a shield taking on all the world's nasty dirt so that all the protected inner layers can come out strong, hot, Sweet, clean and neat.

Then I'm proud being the first born.

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