Spirit epistle of desperados

I apologize for any skipping tracks It's just the last girl that played me left a couple cracks I used to, now I'm over that 'Cause holding grudges over love is ancient artifacts

If I could only find a note to make you understand

I'd sing it softly in your ear and grab you by the hand

Just keep me stuck inside your head, like your favorite tune

And know my heart's a stereo that only plays I think I finally found a note to make you understand

If you can hit it, sing along and take me by the hand

Just keep me stuck inside your head, like your favorite tune

You know my heart's a stereo that only plays for you

I only pray you never leave me behind

Because good music can be so hard to find

I take your hand and hold it closer to mine

Thought love was dead, but now you're changing my mind

I take a sip of Hennessy and then get pissy drunk

I ain't a drinker, I'm a thinker, call it what you want

But if you turn your back, know that you just missed your chance

to witness the realest shit that's ever been told to man

I found myself losing focus at a Sunday service

Embarrassed so I started questioning God, what is my purpose?

He say to live the way he did, that's all he want from me

I said alright, enthused that my Lord gave a listen

I opened my bible and searched to be a better Christian

and this from a person that never believed in religion

But shit, my life is so fucked up man, I can't help but give in

I'm giving testimonies to strangers I never met

Hopped on the pulpit and told 'em how I was truly blessed

Felt like I'm free from all my sins when the service was over

Single black parent from Compton raising children of four

That's four innocent bastards, cause papa they don't know

Her day consists of working back and forth with babysitters

Can't find no one to watch her kids so she pay her sister

Her baby daddy ain't bout shit, that nigga ain't bout shit

Spent his daughter milk just to cop a new outfit

She pray to God every night hoping that he'll mature

Baby wanna go back to school but she need some help

because it's hard tryna pay the bills when you're by yourself

She thought about credit card scams till she heard a voice

that said the Devil is a lie, make a better choice

And so it's back to McDonald's and every month dealing

with them crazy ass people at the county building

Looked to the heavens and asked 'em to make a better way

I appreciate the opportunity to vent my nigga

This about how faith works, yeah, murk it...

I had dreams of holding a nine-milla to raise Killa

Ask him why as my eyes fill up

Each day it gets more realer, orangutans bang like gorillas

It's jungle when the niggas ensue

The rat's lurking, vulture's circling the serpents

Cats lying through they teeth, my nigga

This for my people that stressing whenever times is hard

Your mind's slipping, wondering is there really a God?

Knowing you shouldn't think that way and tryna freeze your brain

But whenever it's pain, that feeling forever remains

We can't believe what we can't see and reality seems stronger than prayer

cause you tried to change your life, and now you live in a wheelchair

And your son was born with cance and he live in urgent care

at the tender age of twelve, and you feel that no one cares

Searching for answers, that's human nature, you ain't in the wrong

Just know, when you feeling that way his spirit's in the room

I watched people I know pray and catch the Holy Ghost

and wonder why I ain't never caught that feeling before

Maybe they know him better, or I don't know no better.

Don't you know I'm no good for you?

I've learned to lose you can't afford to

Tore my shirt to stop you bleeding

But nothing ever stops you leaving

Don't you know too much already?

I'll only hurt you if you let me

Call me friend, but keep me closer

😞😞😞😞 and I'll call you when the party's over.

Don't mind the spirit.......