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@CarnessialOnNoiseApp

Joined 21 December 2022 · 120 posts

Industrial dancer, goth, and individual freethinker.

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@CarnessialOnNoiseApp

The last three hours of my shift right now is absolutely crazy. 😠😡🤬 But I am so glad it is Friday and I can relax over the weekend. 🥱😴

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The following is a lyrical description of the track, "Dear Mrs" by Johnny Cash. It is not a song, but a narration that describes a man telling story of a prisoner who suffered the worst life possible by being forgotten and abandoned. This track really hits me hard because it reminded me of how much similar my situation of being forgotten by everybody I had thought were my friends. Here is the link to the video: https://youtu.be/3Mglos3c7Gc Dear Mrs though we've never met I know very much about you I know that you've got hair that shines like the morning sun You've got eyes that hold the blueness of the sky And of the deepest sea on a clear day and a smile that has a sparkle of a diamond I know that because I've heard him say those things about you These're the thoughts and the words of a man Who spent many heart breaking years behind prison walls The father of your children the man who worshipped the very ground that you walk on He had a picture of you Mrs it was old and faded and torn But you could tell at a glance that he never exaggerated in his thoughts and visions He never left his cell without first checking to see if he had your picture with him He was a young man when he first came to prison And he talked a great deal about you but as the years passed he talked less and less And during his last year here I don't believe he ever said a word to anybody He had the appearance of a man much older than he really was He walked with his head down and his shoulders saggin' And the walk itself seemed to take a great deal of effort He never received a letter or had a visitor while he was here in prison But never did he stop looking and waitin' Every day at mail call you could see him standing close to his bars With the look of a child awaiting a reward Even after the mailman had passed his cell his pleading eyes would follow beggin' As always he'd feel of his shirt pocket and then just stand there Staring at the emptiness and as always I could somehow feel the lumb in his throat And the burning in his eyes you know Mrs like just before you start to cry Well I thought you might like to know that they buried his body today Just outside the prison walls They buried him there because nobody cared enough to claim his body You know there was even a couple of old convicts there that actually cried No not because they cared for him but for what he died from they cared for Loneliness every prisoner knows loneliness but some know it more than others The man that they buried today had died many times Every day he waited hopin' and prayin' for a letter or a card Or just a note or anything to let him know that somewhere out there Somebody cared for him That assurance never came and today he died Mrs He died from loneliness starved for love a love that nobody ever wanted You see no man woman or child is immune to the need of love or to be loved No matter how terrible his crime might have been The death he died from today was more inhuman But his suffering is over now and he's resting in a pauper's grave in a prison suit And in his pocket is an old torn and faded picture of yes of you Mrs

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Wow. I am on a roll. 🤘🤑🤘 I'm glad I am able to help out others with my donations.

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Here is my hometown of provo, Utah. This is my town at night. Even though I don't really care for Christmas, I think these lights look very good.

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I really hate getting up in the mornings. I know deep down I am a 🦉 night owl.🦉Night owls rule the Earth at night while the early birds are sleeping. 🌚

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I had only been here for about two days and I have received so much free tips I was able to tip other people so much that I earned $1 in Bitcoin cash. Thank you everybody. 🤘😆🤘

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This is a coworker at my job who is one of the many examples of people who are suffering in the economic disaster we are currently living.

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When you can relate to Michael Douglas's character from the film "Falling Down", you know your life is not going well. For those who don't know the movie, Falling Down is about a man who is dealing with so many frustrating people and situations that goes too far when the wrong people messed with him and goes on a rampage. I'm not saying that I will do the same thing, but I can't help to think that there are people out there that are closer to the brink of losing control.

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Halloween 🎃 or Christmas 🎄 I'd choose Halloween over Christmas anytime.

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It's raining free tips for me on noise.cash. I've been giving away a lot to the beautiful Filipina mother @Fritzie2894.

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One thing that I'm realizing while I'm lying in bed right now is: my job is holding me back. I realize this because when I got sick with a cold two weeks ago and I visited a doctor, I was told to stay in quarantine. I was in quarantine for 5 business days, not including the weekend. And during that time, even though I had a cold and was feeling like crap, I actually felt really relaxed and I was even able to practice my hobby of industrial dancing, something that I was not even able to do before or after work. I no longer woke up with a stiff body that I had to take a shower with hot water just to relax my muscles. But after the week went by and I went back to work, as soon as my shift was over I felt really tired and my body felt like I worked an entire week. It feels like I'm not just physically exhausted, but also mentally exhausted having to dedicate 8 hours of my time and being paid a fixed amount for that time as well. That is the reason why so many people are quitting their jobs here in America because there are so many ways that a person can support themselves without having to slave away their time and work at jobs that treat people like shit. I realize now that I want to be part of that movement, but it would be really difficult because I need health insurance to take care of some of the medical issues that I have never been able to deal with. Plus, my job has a very annoying work culture that promotes the idea that we are not co-workers but family as well. I really hate that it is another place where you are pressured to be friends with your coworkers, which is a nightmare for me because I'm introverted and I like to choose my kinship a lot more selectively. I have so many things that I want to do and places that I want to visit that I dread the idea that I would never be able to do those things. Life is more exciting when you get to do something that makes you forget to eat and sleep because you're having too much fun working a job or project that you like to do. That is something that people should be doing.

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It's been a while since I've logged into noise.cash. I think it had to do with remembering that I'm not really that much of a fan of social media sites, even if I'm getting paid. But I thought that I should come back and give noise.cash a chance again. I already got a free tip just from logging back in.

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So, this man had survived an exploding anti-tank rifle with an inch of his life. It is a miracle that he is still alive. I am still in disbelief that we almost lost an awesome YouTube gun expert. https://youtu.be/1449kJKxlMQ

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Nothing is more horrible than losing motivation and energy. The past couple of weeks are about time wasted and not spent on productivity. I was too lazy to even make a post here on noise.cash. I know it happened when I worked at a ten-hour shift about two weeks ago. I was so exhausted that I was asleep for 16 hours each day for two days. I had planned on working for four more days to save up some very needed cash. I feel my strength is going away. Something really is wrong with me.

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Sometimes I wished that I am no longer depressed. But at the same time, I realized that I have learned a lot about life while overcoming depression. It makes me feel conflicted on whether or not having depression was something good or bad that happened to me. I guess what I am trying to say is: did I learn about the harsh reality of life the hard way because of my depression or would I have been able to learn about everything the same way if I never had depression? Either way, depression still sucks and NO ONE deserves to suffer from it.

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We all have our bad days. When I decided to smash my laptop just because I was watching a YouTube video about finance and it decides to freeze, I did it because I couldn't take anymore annoyances that I am dealing with my very stressful life. I guess I just need to lie down and calm down.

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This is why I want to leave America so bad. These people claim to fight for social justice, yet they harass people who were just simply eating outside a diner. Also, I'm sure these people were the same ones that were ready to burn down and loot businesses. And people wonder why I don't support BLM. Nothing will NEVER be enough for these people. https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/blm-protesters-surround-white-nyc-diners-and-demand-they-leave-the-city/ar-BB1fTC7Q?ocid=msedgntp

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I was eating this ice cream wondering why it tasted a little funny. It's not until I decided to look at the expiration date and I think I will have stomach problems for the rest of the day. Always look at the expiration date before you purchase any food.

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The world may see a reduced amount of cases of covid in many countries, but we are still in the pandemic. Even if I am the only person in this shopping center, I still wear my mask.

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I would much rather die with not being able to accomplish everything than to die having done nothing at all with my life.

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I'm feeling good today compared to how I was feeling the whole week. I was so exhausted just from working one job on Monday that I spent the last couple of days mostly sleeping.

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No one deserves to suffer from depression. A murderer or rapist does not deserve to suffer from depression either. They deserve the punishment of the crime, not the torture of the mind.

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I don't know why people are mean. I can just accept that people will always be mean.

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I just wanted to say: thank you everybody for the tips. I never thought I would be able to do it, but I have made it to $1 on bitcoin cash. Thank you everybody so much again. A dollar may not seem so much to a lot of people, but to me I felt like I finally have started to accomplish something. For that I feel extremely grateful. And also thank you David Bond for introducing me to noise.cash.