@CarnessialOnNoiseApp 30 November 2021

One thing that I'm realizing while I'm lying in bed right now is: my job is holding me back. I realize this because when I got sick with a cold two weeks ago and I visited a doctor, I was told to stay in quarantine. I was in quarantine for 5 business days, not including the weekend. And during that time, even though I had a cold and was feeling like crap, I actually felt really relaxed and I was even able to practice my hobby of industrial dancing, something that I was not even able to do before or after work. I no longer woke up with a stiff body that I had to take a shower with hot water just to relax my muscles. But after the week went by and I went back to work, as soon as my shift was over I felt really tired and my body felt like I worked an entire week. It feels like I'm not just physically exhausted, but also mentally exhausted having to dedicate 8 hours of my time and being paid a fixed amount for that time as well. That is the reason why so many people are quitting their jobs here in America because there are so many ways that a person can support themselves without having to slave away their time and work at jobs that treat people like shit. I realize now that I want to be part of that movement, but it would be really difficult because I need health insurance to take care of some of the medical issues that I have never been able to deal with. Plus, my job has a very annoying work culture that promotes the idea that we are not co-workers but family as well. I really hate that it is another place where you are pressured to be friends with your coworkers, which is a nightmare for me because I'm introverted and I like to choose my kinship a lot more selectively. I have so many things that I want to do and places that I want to visit that I dread the idea that I would never be able to do those things. Life is more exciting when you get to do something that makes you forget to eat and sleep because you're having too much fun working a job or project that you like to do. That is something that people should be doing.