"How are you today?" this is the usual line my close friend asks whenever she messages me on Facebook. She is one of my best friends. It's been 18 years after high school graduation. That was the last time we saw each other. I'm a bit confused now if I really want to see her in person. I'm afraid that changes will happen the way we talk virtually. If you call someone a friend, is it necessary to see each other often? Or is it okay not to make an effort to see each other?
Confusing, yes. Since I feel that I will not be comfy enough to see her now. I don't know maybe because I'm afraid to confirm that everything has been changed. Well, every time we chat, seems like nothing has been changed and I want that to stay the same. I don't know really what this emotion of mine is coming from. Maybe because life has been tough on me lately, and I don't want anyone close to me to see it how rough I am going through right now. Enough that she knows everything I am experiencing nowadays but I can't allow her to see it with her own eyes.