🎵When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse🎶
When you have tried everything at your absolute hardest, travel the farthest journey, suffered the extreme pain, for someone else, but it does not work out the way you wanted it to be.
You find yourself so fixated on your expectations, that you can not fall back. You are stuck in quicksand, thinking the only way to get through it is to make yourself as light as possible and reach for someone's hand to pull yourself out.
Persuading yourself that you still have a chance to heal something that is irrevocably broken, because you would be dreadful if you surrender on something just because it is tough.
🎵When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?🎶
This implies that you have been hurt so much that you cannot hold it anymore, tears will just suddenly stream down uncontrollably. You have been heartbroken but you still can't move on. You still want him in your life and reminiscing all the happy memories you have shared together makes him irreplaceable in your heart and your mind.
You have invested too much love and you never felt the same feeling in anyone else, but it just goes to waste. Because that person never invested the same feeling to you. A one-sided love that hurt you so badly, yet you are still loving that person and hoping that he will come back to you. You are waiting even though at the back of your mind you are saying that it is impossible to come true.
Could it be worse? It could never be worse and the loss of someone will gradually bring you to strive and withstand.
🎵High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth🎶
You fail at something you really love and you feel down. You made a great mistake that blew things up. You tried to let him go, fix yourself, and pretended to be okay, but every time you mend a wound, another two open. Until it burst out the once masterpiece of yourself and shattered on the floor. Then while staring at it, you realized that you can not be at your best, but you can be good enough for yourself. And that is how you find your real worth.
🎵Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you🎶
The chorus implies that you know by yourself that you can never put the broken pieces into their place anymore. But you feel better at peace, that you do not need to spend your whole life trying to fix it.
You continue to hope that one day, you will be blessed again with one true love. Someone that will mend your broken heart. Someone that will fix your shattered masterpiece. Someone that will put everything right again. Someone that will make you complete again.
While I was listening to music this afternoon, the song "Fix You" suddenly played on my playlist. That was my first time hearing this song. It is actually released last 2005 by Cold Play and written by its four members.
The song is not only about a broken-hearted person but the other meaning is also about losing someone you truly love like a family member. In fact, the lead singer Chris Martin used an old keyboard from his late father-in-law when he was unable to gain access to a church-style organ which was supposed to use for the track.
The message that Martin sings throughout is of encouragement: 🎵"Lights will guide you home / And ignite your bones / And I will try to fix you." 🎵 He sings about recovering from grief in the song.
While reading the story behind this song, I remember my two cousins who are in grief right now. I can imagine how they felt from losing their mother. My auntie passed away just this week, a single mother for more than 30 years. A mother who tried her best to raise her two kids on her own. The two kids grew up and became responsible persons who are currently working as nurses abroad.
She recently retired from her post as being a public school teacher since both her children already have stable jobs. They even have their own business already and currently renovating their house. My cousins really tried their best to pay for the hard work of their mother, but it seems too late already. And the fact that they were both abroad when their mother passed away was truly heartbreaking. They didn't even saw the last smile of their mother before she crosses the bridge of death. Many felt sad about her sudden death - a good mother and a good teacher. Seeing her two kids standing on their own feet, for sure she is so proud and would be at peace in leaving this world.
I know it would be so hard for my cousins to move on. But I also know that someday, they will be able to fix themselves again.
Life is too short. We do not know when our end is. We should value every single moment we have with our loved ones. The same as being in love. We feel the love at first but we are not sure if it will last forever. So always value yourself before investing your whole love in someone. And learn how to mend your broken heart once it is shattered into pieces. You can not be at your best, but you are always good enough for yourself!
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