It was a long road of comparing myself to others, feeling frustrated at not being perfect, focusing on what I didn’t have, trying to be at the “next level” and be someone better. All of this can be found in a deep, dark hole that is easy to fall into.
A lot of things have shifted in the past few years, so I can’t be sure what exactly shifted my mindset. From childhood to adulthood, it’s very frustrating thinking that I will be able to make decisions of myself and eventually build my own path to fulfilling my dreams.
It started when I was in high school, it is the shifting point of my life since way back in elementary days I haven’t really thinking seriously what I should be in the near future. I am that easy go lucky guy who always finds time in playing with friends, making troubles and eating. Sometimes I also do a lot of school works, but I play a bigger role in our house since I am a boy and it is my responsibility to guide and protect my family. There are times that I also feel the emptiness inside me since poverty is inevitable and our family deals with different problems like financial, health and others. That is why at a very young age I am exposed to such difficult situations of life. We may deal with more and more problems, but I see my family as my strength and also God who also guides us. In high school, I had built myself. It was then that I realized that I need to work and study harder to be able to finish my studies. I always seem to be more determined of reaching my goals and make my parents proud. My hard work pays off and I always belong to the honor students every end of the school year. In my 6 years of stay in high school, I’ve had many bad decisions that makes me unhealthy in terms of how I could follow my dreams but at the end of the day there’s one good decision that I made that is to pursue my dreams and don’t give up. After that, I continue my studies and finally I am now in college. This could be the way to make my dreams happen and to help my family as well as I can make them feel proud. I am taking the course program of Bachelor of Science in Agricultural and Biosystems Engineering (BSABE). I hope and pray that God will guide me throughout my journey.
I thank all of my family for giving me the strength and guiding me through and especially to God Himself who is always there to support and protect me for whatever path i choose to go, for whatever decision i make, and for whatever things that might come. I will be more responsible and hardworking for me to reach my goals in life and help my family at the best i can do.