My tired is tired

Hey beautiful people,I have not really been engaging for two days now,I didn't post too,alot have been happening with me lately,and it's overwhelming,I really didn't know what to do.

I believe life is in stages,alot happen each day,we had election in our state on Saturday so everyone was at home, enjoying the moment, some students who were scared went back home but I decided to stay in school because I wasn't scared,I knew nothing could go wrong.

But that Saturday night stroke Sunday,I was okay,my emotions were down,it really betrayed me,I was just in door,I couldn't eat,I was just thinking about alot of things, Sunday was father's day,it made me to remember my father again,I posted him,I was so sad because there are things I need and would ask him but he is not here anymore,so when I saw people posting their dads and wishing them Happy father's day,I was just wishing him there in heaven happy father's day,I was completely tired,then it took me to when he was alive,when he would joke and joke about almost everything,we don't normally have a dull moment at home because he was there,but at the moment he is not here with us anymore,he can't crack joke anymore,he can't even pray for us or shout at us anymore.

A father figure is very important, people will say but I don't really understand until when we lost him,then we understood that father is very important in the life of their children,there are things my younger brother cannot do before but now that my dad is no more he will do it because he knows my mum will just talk and that's all about that. Some of my friends will say it's better for them not to have a father than the father they have right now, because they said their father is not useful,but I always tell them seeing him alone is good,but they said what is the usefulness of seeing him alone when he's not responsible..... Well to them,I know how they feel,the bible even said a man that cannot provide for his family is worse than an infidel,so I understand them. But my own daddy is responsible and great,so I would love to see him everyday of my life.

So I was down since but I think I'm better today,I miss him so much,I miss father figure in my life and family, I'm just trying to help my mum out because everything is just on her,it's not easy,but I pray God makes it easier than before.

Thanks for reading,I really appreciate your time and effort.