My Ultimate Crush: My First Heart Break

August 2, 2021

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Two days of being inactive, but I'll make bawi na this time hehe this would be my 4th article on the month of August, which is my boyfriend's birth month hehe. He is not my ultimate crush and this story is indeed not his, but soon I'll make an article of our love story.

Enough with the introduction, now let's get started!

I remember the day when my uncle can't stop teasing me for not having a boyfriend or even a crush, he just said, "weeh di nga, and taong walang crush ay abnormal". I almost believe him for that, and to be honest if I were to be given an award it would be "Most In denial girl in town", well duh I do have crushes, but it wont last, I just avoid issues, and I can't bare the feeling of being teased, it makes me feel irritated and uncomfortable.

I was in my 3rd year high school, when I met this man who's not definitely my type. He was a 4th year high school student, but I was taller than him yes you heard it right he was too short to notice, he was so naughty and his boastful attitude makes me sick, but there was something that I like him the most, he is a good dancer, he looks cool when he moves, and he got the looks actually. I met him during the day when our teacher/adviser announced that our section was chosen to join and participate in the said ethnic dance competition in our locality for the "Araw ng Sta.Cruz" which is celebrated annually. Just so you know guys dancing is not my thing, my moves are disappointing and ungraceful, (tulog ata ako noong umuulan ng kagalingan sa pagsayaw😅). Back to the topic, yes as expected me as a useless being I was assigned as one of the propsmen, well not bad though haha, every single day, during our practice he always gaze at me with an awkward smile, and when I passed by, he calls me with lots of endearments such as labs, my loves, baby, and his friends tend to tease us and I just feel disgusted. It's been two weeks before the competition, still he never gives up teasing and following me whenever and wherever I go and I get used to it day by day. One day, I went to the canteen with my friends to buy some snacks and I didn't notice his presence and its unusual for me not to hear a single word from him. "Good thing he is not around" that was in my mind. I find peace finally, but I felt a sudden feeling of sadness on that day (I miss him). I ignore those feelings because I know it will only go to waste and l'll might regret this at the end of the day. When tomorrow comes, I saw him hanging out with his friends and I am just happy seeing him which is already enough for me to relieve my worries. As usual, he tease me over and over again and the same feeling of annoyance but I felt "kilig" inside.

The day has come (COMPETITION DAY)

The time has come, that we will face the true battle, we gathered in the gymnasium and we wish each others luck. I was looking after him to say goodluck and do his best and fortunately, my expectation was fulfilled, he run after me and wish me luck too and for the first time I smiled to him, well why not? This might be our last day of meeting. The competition is over and the moment has come to announce the winner, and viola! we won, we were so overjoyed because our efforts and hard work are paid off. As we rejoice in winning, he suddenly hug me at the back without my consent and says "CONGRATULATIONS" , my world turn up side down and the atmosphere goes like slow in motion, they saw us and tease me like there was no tomorrow, I feel like I wanted to cry because I didn't know how to react. He was the first man who ever hug me other than my dad. On that day, I cant help but fell in love with him, no matter how I tried to hide this feelings I have for him, but nothing has changed, this emotions are unbearable.

J.S PROMINADE

J.S Prom is everyone's most awaited day and so do I. I have this feeling that he would invite me to dance with him, I get so excited and prepared a lot to impress him. The day has come, we arrived in the J.S Prom reception, and I saw him, he looks good in his suit, I was hoping that he would notice me too. Luckily, I heard someone calling my name, yes it's him he ask me beforehand to be his first dance, I didn't say a thing and got blushed, its just so awkward you know.

An hour passed, finally a slow music was played and my heart began beating so hard (This is it pansit!). I saw a lot of men asking for their girlfriends and crushes for a dance, and yes I am patiently waiting for my turn. Sadly, he wasn't able to ask me, and it made me feel disappointed. When one of my gay friends asked me to dance, at first I dont have the will to accept his offer because I am not in my mood but I have no choice, while we are enjoying ourselves dancing I saw the him (ultimate crush) dancing with another girl as well while passionately hugging her, my world stops and my heart was filled with pain. Huhu, that should be me (Insert Justin Bieber😭), I got jealous of course, and that was my first heart break 💔. I cried the entire night, thinking it would be my best memoir, but it turned out to be my worst nightmare. The last time I saw him was in his graduation day we both smiled each other as a sign of farewell. Few weeks later, he added me on facebook, I wanted to chat him but I dont have the courage to do so, yes we never chatted each other, he was now in Ilo-ilo and happily married with his lovely wife, and I am happy for him. I never regret meeting him, he gave me a lot of joy and pain at the same time, but that pain itself brought me to the man of my life right now.

There you have it! I hope my story made your day. Thanks for reading. God bless you.

“Love is so short, forgetting is so long.”

– Pablo Neruda

Have a great day!

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