September 11, 2021. Saturday.

Memories are the biggest blessings that were given to humans.

Memories became doors for many to remember for a lifetime someone that they have lost in time.

Memories of love, of moments, of peace, and of friendships.

Memories that were all molded by time.

Even if nothing seems to last forever, memories have been there to remind us that even if it ends, the fact that once in our life "something" and "someone" happened, is enough to keep us going.

However, while we treasure beautiful memories for a lifetime, we have been trying to close our doors to the lonely ones.

Memories of love that ended, of moments that we missed, of peace that we failed to achieve, and of friendships that we lost.

The pain, the regrets, and the sorrows that followed those memories became part of us.

The grief that came along those memories have been drawing lines. Lines that reminds us that it's over.

Some of us may have been blaming ourselves.

"I could have told him how I really felt. It could have been me who's beside him"

"I could have done this for her before another man did"

"I could have taken care of mom before she died"

"I could have accepted my son before I lost him"

"I could have been stronger before I lost myself"

Those words.

Those are the words that carry the most burdening feeling on us every single day.

It makes us feel so tired even if we did nothing particular for the day.

It makes us feel worthless even if we have been working so hard to move forward.

It makes us feel so lonely even if the skies have the most beautiful stars tonight.

It makes us feel how much we want to reset it.

The uncontrollable pain.

The heaviest sorrow.

The flooding tears.

The loudest cries.

We all want to reset them.

To reset and to forget.

Those painful memories that we want to erase forever. How we wish we can reset them all.

Reset them so we could have avoided the time we first met them.

Reset them so we can do what we have to do.

Reset them so we can take the steps to keep them.

Reset them so we can start a fresh start with them.

In other words, we aren't actually trying to reset them to lose them. Rather, we lost them that we are trying to reset them to retrieve them.

Why?

For those memories of pain, of loss, of regrets, are the memories that we get to build with the most precious people in our life.

A reset is a tool we are trying to use to be able to build the courage to tell them how we feel about them.

A reset is a tool we are trying to use to go back to the time when we had a fight with mom so we can at least say sorry for all the mean things we have uttered to her.

A reset is a tool we are trying to use to build more memories with dad so we can cope up with the short remaining time of his life.

A reset is a tool that we are trying to use to give ourselves the chance to speak and to be brave, instead of allowing those bullies to fuck us up.

A reset is what we want to have, to compensate for the pains of the past.

A reset is what we aim, to give ourselves the second chance.

However, it isn't our second chance.

Reset is just our own excuse to escape from the extent of this dying soul inside us.

Our second chance is right in front of us.

Our second chance is the future that is waiting for us.

Just like time, memories are treasures that we can never take back.

It will always remain on the pages of history.

Memories will forever stay the same engraved moments in our hearts.

The only way that we can compensate for everything that we took for granted is to take care of what we have right now.

For whatever you have and whoever you are spending your life at this moment will someday become a memory.

A memory that you are bound to remember, forever.

That's why we need to start sorting everything that is in our life in the present.

We have to start looking at how we are living our time and recognize what really matters to us.

That way, we won't be able to repeat the same mistakes and feel the same pain.

Instead, this time, we are giving ourselves the chance to protect what is important to us and keep those that we don't want to lose.

The true reset button is not the one that recovers the trashes on the bin.

Our reset button is the button in green, written on lighting bulbs, telling us to...

R E S T A R T.