Miguel and I have been friends for as long as we both started talking to each other.
I don't know how it all happened or started.
All I can remember is someone storming into my inbox for some kind of assistance. I couldn't help but I didn't leave him stranded either.
At first, he seemed meek and for that reason, I decided to help him out with his challenge. And that was it.
But after that night, he kept coming back, chatting me up and everything.
I returned the chats and gave him accurate responses.
It continued for a long time. It was supposed to be just a one-time thing and after the assistance, I didn't see him ever coming back but how it happened is what I still couldn't fathom.
Hi Flora!
Miguel texted me one midnight.
But only for him to ask if I was sleeping or still awake.
Of course, I was awake but thanks to my turned off read recipient he couldn't tell if I was or not even when I read his message.
I didn't know what to answer so I pretended not to have seen the message.
I was like why is he coming to disturb my life by this time?
I was busy surfing the internet and finding some information about a particular thing I was looking up only for his message to come through that night.
I waited till in the morning to reply to his message.
And guess what the reply was?
Oh sorry, I wasn't awake. Already slept at the time you sent that message
Not so bad for a lie. I mean I do this if I wanna escape some dramatic and draining conversation with people.
I am not a liar so don't give me that looks but I escape some unnecessary conversations especially with people I don't find really fun or exciting to chat with.
Good enough, Miguel said it was okay that he just wanted to check up on me.
check up on me? for what? I thought.
Why would he be checking up on me? I never told him I was sick or something. Well, that is history so I guess.
We spent a few minutes talking and communicating about our night and plans for the day.
All this with a zero mindset. Like I mean I didn't really care any less about what he will be doing with his time and I wasn't sure he cared about mine either is why drag on the conversation? So I had my way, yes I found a way to put an end to the conversation cause I felt drained already and I needed my space and a break from all the unnecessary talks.
I wished him a very pleasant day and accomplished plans and tasks and I went away.
This continued for weeks, the same old process and story.
Sadly it got to a point that we fought about so many things. And when I say fought I mean an argument, disagreement about something, and the rest.
The so gentle and meek guy that stormed into my inbox asking for assistance became my worst nightmare over time.
I couldn't chase him away and I couldn't shut him up either.
So my usual way of doing something better than the two things I mentioned was to always leave my inbox for him and come back after so many hours and by then he will be offline.
I guess Miguel couldn't keep up with this anymore or perhaps he got pretty busy with his offline works so he didn't storm into my DM like before. He didn't chat me up or even drop a message. I was glad, finally happy that he didn't bring up his numerous argumentative topics and matters to address.
Along the line, I forgot all about Miguel.
I concentrated more on my online business and stuff. Trying to balance my life while making ends meet.
One faithful day. Miguel came back. Yes, he came back into my life.
We started talking again but it wasn't as annoying as it used to be so I just gave in.
We talked more about important matters and we didn't argue about a lot of things as before.
Slowly things changed but I don't know what it was. I just felt different.
It wasn't intentional but he always comes to mind every time I let my mind wander around or be a little bit adventurous.
I needed to control it and not let the thought flood in.
But I realized the more I tried to get him out of my mind, the more memories of him keep flashing and I couldn't tell what exactly was going on with me.
Am I crazy or something? Could it be that I like Miguel? No, I don't even wanna think about that right now.
Liking someone at this point is causing me more harm than good, I thought, so I waved the idea away and kept on with my normal and usual business.
It wasn't very long before Miguel started acting his part out.
I don't know what he is up to either, I can't tell but I don't know if I can judge him by his actions, follow my instincts or let fate have its way...
....to be continued
