It's the rainy season again. The weather makes me feel a bit nostalgic. I thought about this app and how the people I met here kept me company during the pandemic and my college days.
Now I have been working for almost 2 years as an engineer. This was my dream but now that I am living it, I find myself filled with doubts and hesitations.
Sometimes, I wish I could tell my younger self to enjoy the time when I could do what I want when I want it.
Anyway, I am just talking to the void seeing as this site is not active anymore.
Consistency is the key in changing your life. I realized this a year into my singlehood journey. Being able to consistently choose to spend time with myself has given me a lot of different perspective about the events that occured in my life.
Now that I am slowly trying to date again, I am hoping to find the discipline to be consistent with this habit of mine. I do not want to lose myself again in a relationship.
I am now officially an engineer. The sleepless nights finally paid off. I shared some of my thoughts about this achievement on read.cash. You can read it here if you are interested:
https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/achievement-unlocked-officially-an-engineer-cbbdead5
I have been so busy since I started working that I could not keep up with social media. Anyway, the best thing about rest days is seeing my pets after a long week.
Here is a picture of Presto that I took earlier. She was resting peacefully after lunch that I really wanted to keep a memory of what she looked like at the moment.
I just finished the asylum challenge in Sims 4. It was quite a ride. I started with 8 erratic sims all with random 2 traits and aspirations and ended up with only 5 sims left in the household.
The goal of the challenge was to complete a main sims aspiration despite the challenges presented with living with 7 erratic housemates and with limited household utilities.
After finishing my sims aspirations, I have her move to a large house in the same world. I love her so much and I am planning on starting a legacy cgallenge with her as a founder.
I received another order of tulip crochet headband. I must say that I am quite happy that I am receiving orders for this project since I find it so cute.
I used to be afraid of being alone to the point that I would settle with people just because I thought it was better than being by myself. However, over the last few months I realized that I am tired of living like that so I started to give myself the love that I have been giving to others.
Today, I ate alone at Jollibee. Maybe for others this is just an ordinary thing but for me who suffers from social anxiety, it is a moment worth remembering.
I ate samgyup with my friends today. I forgot to take a picture of the table with the meat so here is a picture of some of the side dishes. It was a lot of fun hanging out with them again.
I finished making the order of two crochet tulip headbands. I really had a lot of fun making it. I might try to make one for myself as well since it looks so cute.
Since I am now just waiting for graduation and looking for jobs is stressful, I started to pick up my crochet hook again. This is a commission for a crochet tulip headband. It is actually my first time making it so I am quite enjoying the process.
I have been having a great time drawing random things again. I enjoyed posting my drawings on IG stories since I can also include some music that I was listening to as I was making the drawing.
For this one, the music is I Choose by Alessia Cara. I first encountered the song in the movie, The Willoughbys. It stuck with me ever since.
It has been a long time since I last interacted here. I was busy with a lot of things mostly due to acads since I am graduating college already. How time flies! It feels like only yesterday when I was a freshman feeling nervous for my first day of class and now I am waiting for the announcement of when we should start taking care of our remaining documents before graduation.
Anyway, as a way to say hi to this part of my life again, I decided to write a post on read.cash:
https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/back-again-ef63b3e1
Feel free to read it if you have some time to spare and are curious about what happened to me in the last months.
If I could tell the world,
The truth in my heart
I would scream out
My feelings for you,
Yet the time is not right
The situation unclear
So I stay clear of my wishes
But inside a tiny flame
Flickers with thoughts,
A future with you.
Future with you | a.t.v
We are now setting up the control panel of our prototype. I am excited for it. The prototyoe is already working but we do need some adjustments to make. But I am happy since we can proceed with testing.
Good morning, everyone! Let us eat breakfast. This is one of our favorite breakfast in our thesis overnight. I am currently with my groupmates as we finish the other parts of our prototype. We are close to finalizing it and I am happy about that.
It has been a while since I last posted here. I have been busy with school works. I knew that it would be busy but not this much HAHA.
Anyway, here is what I am eating for lunch. The best seller at our university which is shawarma rice with a side of choco crinkles and for the drinks I have coffee and a bottle of water.
Mapapa-awtsu na lang talaga kapag kapos ung yarn sa gustong gawing project. Nako sana makahanap ako ng yarn malapit dito samin, need pa naman to bago mag-Pasko huhu.
Hi, guys!
It has been a while since my last update due to my hectic schedule. I actually just published an article about one of the major highlights in our first semester which is the pre-oral defense. Here is the link for anyone interested: https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/thesis-title-defended-3b96bfa2
Now that the academic workload is paused for a bit, I decided to work on my crochet orders. This one is going to be a dog clothes for Beau (my elder sister's bestfriend's big dog). I am aexcited to see how the clothes would turn out. I have actually finished the Christmas clothes if Moshi and Oreo, I just need to finish this and then I would do one for Presto as well.
This is my snacks as I edit our thesis. I have been busy for days since our title defense is almost here.
Look at Presto's favorite spot this week. It is useless to buy expensive cat beds and toys when kittens are hapiest with the good old boxes.
I have been thinking about creating some place where I can dump the pictures I take of my kittens. I do not have a good phone camera but I still enjoy capturing cute moments like these.
Sometimes, I feel a bit sad of the future because I know someday, all I will have left of them are the pictures I am taking in this moment. Well, unless I pass away first.
But anyway, here is a picture of Oreo and Presto to sprinkle some cuteness in your night.
End of the year 2022 is looming and yet my only goal for the year remains unaccomplished.
Back at the start of the year, I decided that I would judge this year only based on this piant by number kit. I had challenged myself to finish this before the year ends, thinking that it was an easy goal to accomplish but life surprises me.
I am proud of myself though. After small progress everyday, the painting is starting to resemble the reference. Despite being a bit late, I am confident that I will finish this in time.
Despite my busy schedule, I finally managed to find time to crochet again. This is an order for 3 headset covers but this one is customized. I am really proud of how this one turned out.
Good morning, everyone. May you have a lovely morning ahead!
If I could turn back time, I would have never allowed Oreo to stay this close to the window. This picture was taken last week. Then this week, the stray cat got into the window and fought with Oreo. Well, fought is putting it lightly.
He scratched or bit Oreo and now Oreo is having a hard time walking. I did not notice it right away so i could not bring her immediately to the vet. I thought that I managed to scare the cat away when I heard the chaos but it seems like he managed to hurt Oreo first before he left.
I plan to bring Oreo to the vet first thing in the morning. Hopefully, she will feel better tomorrow but if not then hopefully the vet can help.
The only thing that helps me calm down is the fact that Oreo and Presto (even Moshi) are fully vaccinated so the risk of rabies is lessened. But I will still bring her to the vet to make sure.
For days, I stay still
The hours go by
Yet my mind is stuck
In the past that I can
Never change.
But now a new day
Greets, and smiles
Maybe I still have
Some strength left
To start anew.
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Hello, everyone! I have been gone for so many days and I honestly thought I will not go back but here I am. Life has a way of making fun of me.
Anyway, the picture I attached here is Dunkin' Donuts' garlic bread. I liked it but I will not buy it again HAHA.
Coffee in the morning
Used to make me feel
Things I never felt before,
I got drawn to it,
Drank 10 cups and more
Yet the effects just
Stopped working.
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I was addicted to the effects of coffee before to the point that when I tell people how much cups of coffee I drink they are surprised. I did not know then that it was not normal to drink as much black (and thick) coffee as I drank every day. When I realised that the coffee is no longer affecting me, I drank more because I crave its effects before.
Thankfully, I realized something is wrong thus begin the step away from coffee. It has been 2 years since I last drank coffee. But earlier this month, I drank an iced coffee. Something that I would have never enjoyed before because I refer hot and black coffee, but to my surprise the iced coffee kept me up at night. It seems that coffee is affecting me again.
I am now starting to rebuild a healthier relationship with coffee this time around. But I am taking coffee that is not black but the ones that I would have stayed away from before.
I just finished making a Blissey amigurumi. It is a custom order of my bestfriend for her girlfriend's birthday.
I had so much fun making this project. It also made me have some confidence in myself. I am now thinking of trying to sell patterns instead of selling only crochet products. After all, I have been doing freehanded items lately and this might give me more motivation to continye my crochet side hustle
Good morning, everyone!
This week is our University week so the professors are advised to only hold asynchronous classes to let the students enjoy the week-long rest. Hopefully there will be no killjoy professors this year.
My plan for today would be to start cleaning my room which I had been putting off for a few weeks now. I kept using my internship as an excuse before but now I can't since I finished my internship already.
It has been a few days since I last posted here. But now that I finally have a bit of incoming freedom, I am going to try and be more active again.
Why do I have more free time, you ask?
Well it is because this girl just officially got fully endorsed in my internship. It means that I have successfully rendered 200 hours and I passed all the requirements I needed.
Now I only need to focus on my classes, certification program, and thesis.
Well...
Thise are still a lot of responsibilities but it is more manageable now that I crossed off internship in my daily routine. I basically unlocked some extra time in the mornings and early afternoon.
I can not wait to enjoy the next week. I can't celebrate yet since I still have class tomorrow. But next week is our University Week so all classes are only asynchronous, which basically means that I am free to do the activities on my own time and pace.
When I stop to think about it
Life bends and twists in
Ways my mind could never
Understand, and yet
I still find myself
In places where I wanted
To be.
@zehraskyOnNoiseApp
