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If time would stand still For everyone but me, I would spend some time Just reminding myself To breathe. I have been under incredible pressure these days. Being a graduating student is no joke at all. But I am trying to be gentler and kinder with myself. I do my best not to entertain my negative self-talk anymore. I just want to live in gratitude.
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Regrets piled up One by one, I thought leaving Answers everything, Yet when it comes Down to it, I realized what Foolish mistake I made.
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I wonder about the future In which I had been strong Enough to fight my demons So that I would not have Caused you hurt so many times. But even in these wishful Thinking, I know just How badly it affected you Even when you bear it all With a smile and understanding. I love you, But I do not want to be selfish anymore.
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Sunday is the only rest day I have so I make sureto catch up on my sleep and if I have the energy, I try to catch up with blogging as well. Fortunately, I was able to publish an article today. It details my first day of face to face classes which happened yesterday. https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/just-in-time-c19d4005
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Been streaming Born Pink album while doing my task for my OJT. After my OJT, I did a quick sketch of Rosé. Feeling kinda out of it lately but it is what it is. I am just glad thatI am done with my part for our group activity.
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Good morning, everyone! I am currently waiting for our daily meet to start. You know, I am so tired with my OJT but I also feel happy since I am learning a lot. Although it is not as aligned to my course as I wanted to, it is still okay since I can still use the concepts I learned here. Can you believe it is already Thursday? It feels just like yesterday when I was whining internally because Monday is coming and now weekends are coming already HAHA.
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The presentation just finished. I think I did well especially considering the fact that I rushed into finishing my proposal. We were grouped into two projects and we also have a department project (individual). I will now be able to meet some of my co-interns due to the group project. I feel kinda nervous about it. For today, I just plan on finishing up my DAR and doing a surface level research on the topics give to us.
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Good morning, everyone! I have a presentation at 11AM. I am hoping that I do well later. You know, I am quite proud of myself for being able to push through despite nit taking any medication for now. Although my sleep schedule is a wreck so that's a bad side of it. But in general, I think I am doing mostly okay.
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The meeting for our thesis just ended. I feel incredibly tired today. I did a lot of things so I want to rest now. Moreover, I have another presentation tomorrow. So good night everyone!
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It still surprises me how I can still do the things that need to be done even when I am so down. It sometimes makes me feel as though I am fakin my struggles but I am slowly learning how to be kinder to myself. Just because I have the energy to prioritize what needs to be done does not make my struggles fake. I have to remind myself that every now and then especially when I am constantly tracking my "mood" based on my productivity.
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After my OJT, nagdiretso ako sagutan yung quiz namin HAHA. Wala na review review dahil minor sub naman. Dahil nagutom ako, kumain ako habang nagsasagot. Hehe may energy na ulit for last class for today tapos para sa pag attend ng thesis meeting mamaya.
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Good morning, everyone! I am now waiting for the daily meeting at my OJT to start. I am not yet sure what project I will do next since I already completed the first one but I think the interns that started at the same time as me has yet to finish theirs. I still have to render 170 hours which might not seem much anymore but only 7 hours are counted per day since we have an hour long break. I kinda envy those who had their internship at a different company. They only had to render 25 days for the 200 hours required. While in the company I am an intern at, a minimum of 240 hours have to be rendered which equals to around 35 days.
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The silence of the night Bothered me more lately, The breathing that used To offer me comfort Now serves as an irritation. I wish there was a reason For this shift in my mood Yet the night still went on And when the sun rose My mood stayed in the dark.
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Good evening, everyone! I spent the day just lazing around. I am basically trying to recharge to prepare for the week ahead. On Saturday, we will have our first f2f class since the pandemic started. I am not yetsure how to feel about that.
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This is one of the prpgress pics I took on my first task for my OJT. We had to create cricuit simulation, schematic diagram, pcb, and 3D enclosure for a power supply with blinking lights. As you can see in this picture I finished with those things already. Actually, I already passed my PowerPoint presentation yesterday.
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It is funny how alive I feel now that I can imagine the stress of making our thesis. I guess despite the fact that I keep denying it, I am truly at home when I am doing research. But it still does not change the fact that I do not want to be a part of the academe career. It would be too much pressure on me and I am afraid I might lose the remaining happiness I have making research.
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Good morning, everyone! I am currently waiting for our prof to send the Zoom link for our class today. Hopefully, we will be able to finalize out title today so that next week we can begin the process of writing our research paper. I feel that we will have a hard time making the 3D model of the prototype we wish to make so I want us to have a lot of time for that.
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This is one of the rare progress pics I had of my first task at my OJT. We needed to do a lot of things and I was so scared at first since I was not that great at Electronics. But when I started to do it, I realized that the task is manageable.
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Good evening, guys! My last class just finished. I wish I could say this means I could rest over the weekends but no. I have a project study class tomorrow huhu. Being a graduating student is kinda stressful. Moreover, the pressure is too real. The profs keep telling us they expect us to already be good since we are already in 4th year but I think they are expecting the same standards from back before the pandemic which is unrealistic since we are products of full virtual class and little practical experience. Anyway, I feel a bit relieved since tomorrow I will have no OJT. Moreover, I am hapoy since I already finished my first task while the other interns that started at the same time at me are still at 25% - 50% status even though we neex to pass it on Monday (10 days are given for each project). I finished mine in 7 days even though I was hesitant at first since it is more inclined at electronics.
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I am so excited to see how this community grows. I feel happy to be a part of this wonderful opportunity to interact meaningfully with others.
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My partner is so sweet. He knows that I have been havin a hard time because of acads and he was going out of his way to give me my favorite candies. Tomorrow he will be visiting me at our house to give me more candies. I appreciate it a lot because we have a bit of distance at our place so he travels a bit just to give me these treats.
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After a week of being inactive, I managed to publish an article again. This time it is an article full of realizations. Days keep flying and we are closer to welcoming another year again so my mind is full of thoughts about the past. The what-ifs and should-have-beens used to haunt me. But now I learned to live with it. https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/in-a-blink-of-an-eye-4ace310d
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It has been a long time since my last post here. I am currently busy with academics so my focus is mainly there. I am starting to mull over the idea of letting my sister use my read.cash account again instead of it being inactive. It is better than she use it than let the account vanish. For now, I will try my best to post a short update here once in a while.
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I took a quick break to eat my lunch. My afternoon will be filled with meetings. I am going to be watching how we are going to do accomplishment tasks for our OJT while also attending a webinar for our COE subject. I can not just choose one or the other. Good thing that I have a phone and a laptop. I am feeling a bit better now since I am having progress on my OJT task. I feel proud of myself since electronics is not my strength but I was still able to do it.
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Good morning, everyone! It is the start of a new month and I am feeling a bit hopeful about this month. I am going to do my best to make the most out of it. I am just waiting for a bit before taking a quick morning bath then preparing for our daily meeting at my internship. I have another long day ahead of me.
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It has been 6 days since I published my last article. During that time, I was focused on trying to survive and fighting my own battle with my demons. But since it is the last day of August, I wanted to share a bit of what happened to me during this month. I usually publish an articles summsry during the end of the month but I did not publish much articles so I am not yet sure if I will be writing one. https://read.cash/@ZehraSky/it-was-a-hard-month-8efa0ac7
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Whole day class is no joke especially since it is the weekends. Good thing that my sister has a kitkat and gave me one as well. I feel so tired. I wanted to study for my OJT but maybe tomorrow. Also did I mention that I was selected as an assistant leader for our thesis? It is an added responsibility but I know that I will feel frustrated if the leader and assistant leader is always asking for my opinion because I have knowledge in research.
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I am currently waiting for our Thesis class to start. I made my own meeting link to see how I would look since we had to open our cameras. I am just making sure that my background is presentable. Due to my depression, the state of my room right now is not its best. Hopefully I get a bit of energy soon to at least organize it again.
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I am almost done with these 4 cat headset covers. I wish I can finish it all tody so that I can give it to the customers already. I am so tired of seeing it and making it HAHA. It is cute but I guess I am easily bored when I am doing the same thing over and over again.
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The webinar just finished. It was very informative and I can see how helpful it is to other students who have no experience in attending job interviews. I also learned a few things as well even though I am familiar with most of it since I already experienced applying for jobs. I worked as customer service representative back when I was 18 years old so it really helped me become more confident in myself.