When we want to become one of those who have reached the skies and beyond, our efforts are driven by inspiration and determination.
At such a young age, i realize life is not perfect as we imagine it when we are kids, it hits me different. It happens when i was in elementary, i thought it is normal that every children doesn't have money from their parents but i was wrong, why they act like they dont know what we do, they have so many candies and notebooks and trendy things and i always wonder why we dont even have like that we go to school, during break time i enjoy myself playing because i dont have badget for snacks, we cant afford candies because its better to buy something for dinner or in lunch and i have only five notebooks that needs to be devided by how many subject i have in order fo it to be enough and yet i am happy because i got five and i think some children dont have any.
Secondary School i was bullied because aside from we're poor also because of my skin color. I thought i would stop studying because of them but my goal is stronger than their criticism. The worst part is some of your relatives will help dragging you down, instead of listening to them i make them an inspiration to be a hardworking. Sometimes your stability in life will be used against you like for an instance, my siblings and i will help my parents planting rice and the rice field are just a meter away from the school sometime we got to skip schools to plant rice to jave something we can eat, but they will bully us because we are just a family of a farmer i was so hurt because why they cant be proud about it when i was so greatful to know that kind of work, but its okay we still use it as an inspiration and honestly up until now we still and always help my parents in planting rice and we dont care anymore if they have something to say.
Tertiary and to the present, i was a working student and a scholar at the same time i need to maintain a grade for my scholarship. For me to pay my boarding house and my food allowance i need to have an extra job during weekends. I can only visit my family once in a month and its only Saturday and Sunday cant be called a vacation for i need to help my parents in a mountain to make copra for the allowances of my siblings and that will hits different when you already an adult and you dont get to enjoy your life being one because of poverty but instead of complaining about what we've been through and experiencing a lot of difficulty in life, i was so so lucky to have everyone i have mama, papa , younger sister, younger brother and an older brother who supports me in everything. I was blessed to be part of this family.
My family is awesome, God-fearing, caring, loving and a blessing to everyone. We're not perfect, we fight so many time but is under control but even so we deal our problems as one and i am so proud to be part of that family, i know someday we will get there and when that day will come i'll surely believe that, that is the plan of our God and it was already written. We always remind each other to look for the beauty of life and not trying to give-up on it, we are just being challenge of how we can handle hardships so that we are deserving for the best. Keep fighting, kicking and puddling and soon it will be all worth it.
For me, in order to be successful is your personality that will enable you to get along harmoniously with the other people and self-confidence that helps you discover your skills to show, or will help you grow.
The Journey of life for me is still long, bumpy, blur and uncertain, but let me tell you that whatever decisions we will take in the near future, our learning from such experiences will be part of our everyday discernment.