I love the scent of boredom

I am in love with boredom, with idle moments, with loneliness and aloneness. Can you believe it?

When I go through a series of what others call boring moments, I thank Him that He gives me break every now and then.

I just sit down and enjoy being alone or lonely. Truth be told, I am not entirely confident I like it that others see me alone, but I love the scenario anyway.

While they go loud and crowded, I sit in a remote place and think and think and think.

Perhaps, I do work just for the sake of survival. And when my keep's earned, I like to use time for boring things.

Growing up, I didn't know for sure what my inclination was or is. And I am still not sure what is until now.

What I am sure is that I seem to like boring moments.

Oh, not absolutely but close to that.

Dear others, I wonder what gets you bored. So much to do, so much to think about.

I've got tons and tons of things to do. Including thinking, imagining, and just staring at the blank wall.

Just maybe, I like taking my time. So the more idle moments, the better.

Ah... I don't know.

I'm retiring for tonight. To my dear oh bed. To my beloved fantasy world. Where I could dream of fiction for myself.

My peers may see me as a boring item but they don't understand how rich my life is. I may be poor financially but I am rich in my own right.

There's one distinction between my first and second. I am talking about my boys. Silly! I mean my sons.

First son wants to talk to me all the time when I just want to be silent and am deep in thought.

Second son likes to stay silent. Only questioning when necessary. When we walk on the street holding hands, we like the company of each other, silent, deep in thought and comfortable.

First son, on the other hand, questions me on a lot of things. Never wanting me to stay silent and be lost in thought. He frowns whenever I delay my answer. I explain, he has to wait for my answer if he wants one. He doesn't like boredom.

I guess, I have passed different conflicting qualities to my children and I like them both as companies. The main difference between my two sons is that, one supports my being deep in thought while the other questions my being deep in thought.

There's really nothing boring about being boring. It's quite subjective. I guess.

Ironically, I am using my subjective definition of their interpretation of boring to bring to you how I love the scent of boredom.