Freedom from Vanity

Now that I think about it, what I wanted all the while was freedom from vanity. Yes, vanity is my bond! When you look at the synonyms of vanity, you would see pride, narcissism, self-importance, conceit, arrogance, egotism, big-headedness, etc.

Yes, I wanted to be free from such vanities! I am unusually proud, narcissist, conceited, arrogant, egotistic, self-centered, and eccentric. Name it all. Which is why I am prone to self-pitying. I often pity myself when I feel unwanted by the crowd. I wanted to get away from such feelings. I wanted to be free from my own self.

Hear me out…

I wanted to renounce all these bonds and be free!!! I wanted to experience true peace within. There is no point being in vanity. You’ll be turned into an outcast in no time. I wanted to feel respect from people. This is how each must act responsibly. That is, to check oneself so others may not despise us. This is important.

I received a writing prompt few days ago. I was tagged by @Ellehcim to write about freedom. The writing prompt came from @JonicaBradley. And I quote:

“My article today is not intended to be a rehash of someone else's article. Instead, I am fulfilling a promise I made to @CryptoBabe.

CryptoBabe has been feeling the pinch of writing unique, fresh, valuable content that isn't mostly ranting and raving about her current emotions. She lamented the fact that she did very well in school but is struggling now.”

From Writing Prompt #1: Freedom by @JonicaBradley

She invited others to join the writing prompt and that she made a few rules. They are:

1.       Write about Freedom

2.       Write 100% original content

3.       Write at least 600 words

4.       Tag @JonicaBradley

5.       Have fun

I like it that she gave the freedom for writers to accept the prompt or not.

She suggested an article. The link is here: https://www.coindesk.com/crypto-markets-bitcoin-volatile-freedom.

I will read the article again after publishing this.

Meanwhile, now that I had the chance to write about freedom, allow me then to freely express my thoughts.

Truth was that, I’ve been reflecting upon what freedom really meant. Does it mean being free totally from the pressures of this world? I don’t believe in total freedom. There is no such thing as total freedom. In the end we are all at the mercy of one thing or another.

Although total freedom doesn’t exist, there must be some freedom that we could avail of. And mine would just be freedom from vanity. I wanted to be more responsible. I used to dream about being free from chores. But for what purpose? What will then be the taste of my life? It sure will be as bland as a plain rice. But even plain rice will be more delicious than life without pressures.

When we are free from the bonds that are holding us in, we’ll be able to think more clearly and productively. We’ll be able to see clearly what we always wanted.

Let then be a chance for me to write freely from the things that are binding me.

Here’s the reality: I complained a lot about my current situation. Not to annoy my family who are reading this but the truth is that I am really struggling. I am struggling with my work and my life. I wanted to break free. Can’t you hear me?! I wanted to break free from this cage. FROM THIS CAGE I’VE CREATED.

When I felt stressed because of my job I was always led to go over my application letter and see some glitter of hope. I wanted to refresh my memory about why I wanted that job in the very first place. But then the stress, the pressures, the unimaginable tasks expected of us, are these really worth my effort? It doesn’t make me happy at all. I’m even playing safe into not complaining that the pay was way below than I deserve. I have loans to pay, groceries to buy, blog to maintain, and even snacks and meal to provide for my hermit escapades.

The remedy I could only think of is cutting back on things. And I have really cut back on a lot of things. No more fish balls, no more late night snacks, no more chippy or piattos or cheezy. I try to squeeze all things into a limited space. But then I’m not really sure anymore what to think of. Was it all my fault? Or were there factors at play that I was ignorant of? Do I need the help of philosophers or economists to let me see clearer?

I then reflected upon the things that has happened so far in my 32 years of existence then I came down to this: “I want to be free from my own vanities!”

In short, in this life I have right now, the best I can do is do my best to do my best. Simple as that. I should be more realistic. I truly wanted to be free from my eccentricity. In that way, I will be able to feel better. I noticed that every time I go away from self-importance, all the more that I become more important for the crowd. I feel respect and regard from people. In contrast if I assume my eccentricity, I am turned into an instant outcast.

Well? Something off with my arguments? Kindly comment down please. I admit that I am low on a lot of points here but I was able to at least uncover some truths within me. I believe that others can see right through others who are struggling like me. And yeah, I am rooting for Ma’am @JonicaBradley to kindly speak something about this.

Sincerely, Lincs.

Let me use this chance for some affiliate links. I hope I am not off the line. I always wanted to invite the following to write here:

1. Leomel Pasquin

2. Karen Wendy Brett

3. Katerin Ledesma

4. Aubrey Mae Segnaben

They are the ones I wanted to tag for this writing prompt. Hence I am inviting them to write here about freedom.

But before that, I wanted them to use this link to register. https://read.cash/r/wakeuplincs

Hoping to see you the soonest. But then again, you always have the freedom to accept the challenge or not.